A/N: Here you are. You get to see why Blaine has been acting so shady. Also, because I'm curious, does it bother anyone how I write the Sign Language? For example, I explain how to do the sign then write in Italics what it means. I'm just wondering if there should be a different (and possibly) easier way or not; or just leave it the way it is. Thanks and enjoy!
D/N: The characters of Glee within this story are not owned by me.
The boys smelled those coffee grounds circulating the air and heard the buzz and chatter of near by people enjoying their coffee. Well, Blaine heard them. He looked at Kurt and wondered if he ever wanted to hear loud machines and nonsence talk by random people they'll never see again. But Kurt just sat there absorbing everything around him. Looking at different directions, every once in a while taking a sip of his coffee. He finally looked at Blaine, who was staring right back at Kurt.
Blaine smiled to him in which Kurt replied with a soft smile himself. After a minute of quietly sipping coffee, Kurt became curious. He furrowed his brow and swallowed. He held a 'Y' with his right hand and pressed it to his chin. Made two closed 'D's' with boths hands and hit them together onward. Then finally just pointed to the table.
It's been a few weeks since Blaine and Kurt had that freak-out at the courtyards and by the bulletin board whenever Kurt tried to hold Blaine's hand. They've only 'chatted' every once in awhile when needed but never much during lunch and after school. In fact, Blaine seemed to disappear quickly out of class and when the ending school bell rang. He didn't even look at him when he bolted out the door.
Kurt was confused and hurt a bit. He really liked Blaine, but now it didn't seem that Blaine felt the same way. 'But wait, he told me he loved me,' Kurt would think to himself after the semi-fight in his bedroom. In the end, he was confused on the relationship- 'if you could call it that,' Kurt thought, that they had.
Soon a hand waved in his vision. Blaine had been trying to get his attention the whole time through Kurt's thought process. 'You okay?' Blaine signed.
Kurt laughed at himself and nodded. After a soft laugh from both of them, Blaine hitched his breath. He was nervous and scared. He was going to tell his friend a deep, dark secret that he desperately needed to get off his chest.
He pointed at himself then held out claws horizontally, facing upwards. He pulled those claws towards him then pointed at his mouth and made circles with his index finger. Then he pointed at Kurt. 'I want to talk to you.' Blaine was practicing his signs and Kurt would smile to himself whenever Blaine didn't quite get something right, but he tried and that was all that mattered.
Kurt held his right palm out, facing upwards and shook it while simultaneously drinking his coffee, 'What?'
Blaine struggled at first. He didn't know the sign of what he was about to confess. So, he just signed the letters. He pointed at himself then signed individually, 'G A Y.'
Kurt's brow furrowed again in confusion. He folded his fingers over his palm and hit those fingers to the side of his head, 'I know...' He then pointed to Blaine then looked like he was going to pinch something with his index finger and thumb but tapped them to his chin, 'you're gay.'
Blaine sighed and bowed his head, rubbing his forehead. After a few seconds he looked back up at Kurt and nodded. He sighed once more before trying his best sign. He pointed at himself then put his thumb under his chin before pushing it outwards towards Kurt. He made an 'O' with left hand and pulled his other hand out of the 'O.' 'I'm not out.'
Kurt slowly put his cup down and softly stared at his other. He felt sorrowed and understood. All he could reply with is to hold his hand out on the table. His fingers softly open, just waiting. Blaine looked at the hand then to Kurt as he bit his lip.
Kurt could tell he was worried, scared and nervous all at the same time. He nodded towards Blaine.
Blaine clenched his fist then lightly opened his fingers. He slowly, very slowly, went to go hold Kurt's hand. Kurt didn't reach for Blaine's hand, he wanted to have Blaine reach out to Kurt when he was ready. And it looked like Blaine was. He felt warmth wrap and engulf his hand as Blaine interlocked his fingers with the other.
Blaine stared at their hands together then looked at Kurt. He was shaking. Kurt looked back at Blaine and smiled. Blaine felt an accomplishment overwhelm him and smiled to himself. They held hands like so with no more. Once again basking in their hidden love that was out in the open at the same time. And just for once, in a very long time, they both felt like they belonged. Whether it be in the school, crowd or just simply they belonged with each other. Most importantly, Blaine felt a love and belonging like he hadn't felt in the longest while. He let out one last sigh, but this once was of relief.