13. Honesty Sucks

Logan and Rory had walked very slowly into the middle of Logan's bedroom. Rory was very nervous at what she was going to say to Logan. In true Rory fashion she had a speech planned in her head, yet her mind was at a loss on what to say to him. Her hands were shaking; she felt that sitting down on Logan's bed would be a good idea. She looked directly at him but the sight of his brown expressive eyes caused her heart to pound that she started to look away. He was way too cute; especially in his tight black shirt and tight pants. A part of her felt that she needed to leave but, she knew that she needed to have the conversation with Logan.

Logan was at a loss as well as to what to say to Rory. Logan also felt ashamed of himself for being so captivated by her beauty - even in jeans and a grey hoodie - she still looked breathtaking to him. He tried to find a way to look away in order to not directly be looking at her.

"So." They both said in unison and then they both sighed at the same time.

"Your sister seems great…" Rory quickly uttered hoping to momentarily stall the conversation and break the uncomfortable silence between them.

"Yeah, I've been told…" Logan smiled and then continued, "So, I hope you didn't take the bus to come all the way here…"

"No, my mom loaned me her car. She felt that talking would help us clear the air to what happened last night…" Rory immediately regretted what she had said because it meant that their uncomfortable conversation would soon start.

"Right, Honor basically said the same thing… we have some smart women in our lives. I guess I can go first…." Logan hesitantly replied. "Rory, I'm so sorry about last night… I know I should have used better restraint…"

"Logan, what do you have to be sorry about? I was the one who kissed you last night…"Rory interrupted. "I'm sorry I ran away and cried; it wasn't your fault. I just was really confused and I don't know what I was thinking…" Rory felt relieved to at least get the apology off her chest.

"Rory, you don't have to apologize although you're the first girl who has ever ran from me crying, which is quite a blow to any guy's ego." Logan had paused, almost dreading as to where the conversation would head. "However, I understand why you ran away and I'm sorry for continuing the kiss, and I'm sorry that I broke my promise."

"What promise?" Rory asked in confusion.

"Remember that night after you and Jess broke up, and I kind of promised you that I wouldn't be attracted to you. Well, last night at the dance I had realized that I broken my promise because I'm attracted to you…"

"What?" Never in a million years did Rory think Logan would say that very sentence he just uttered.

Logan did not know what came over him but he took a few steps closer to Rory, and looked deeply into the orbs of her cerulean eyes. "Rory, I really like you…." He then caressed her cheek. Somehow without both of them thinking, their lips met.

Logan was surprised that they were once again kissing, but somehow he seemed to abandon all reason and knew that he just wanted to kiss her more and more. He was surprised that Rory didn't resist this time. In fact, she seemed as eager for more as he was. His eyes closed as they just stayed there continuing to kiss. This time, there was no savoring of the sensation; there was just fire and excitement. He slightly changed the angle, to deepen their kiss even more, one of his hands sliding to the back of her head, touching her brown hair that was as soft and silky as he had remembered. Rory might not have been that experienced but she seemed to know all the rules of making-out well.

Rory was surprised that instead of pulling away she felt a sense of pleasure. She moaned in pleasure as Logan deepened the kiss. She pulled him closer if that was even possible, and somehow they both seemed to slide downwards on Logan's bed.

Logan was still in some way aware of his surroundings when he noticed Rory's hands slide on his waist. He reluctantly pulled away before they would do something that they would regret.

When Logan had pulled away, Rory felt a sense of confusion. 'Oh god, has Logan and I really made out, this wasn't what I came here to do. Oh man, why did it have to be so good?' She looked blankly at Logan not knowing what to say to him.

Logan could sense the conflict in Rory, and said. "Rory, I'm so sorry… I didn't plan this… please don't run away again…"

Rory felt a sense of guilt as she looked at Logan's sad expression. "Logan, there is nothing to be sorry about. We both lost control, and I like you, too."

"You do?" Logan smiled.

"Yes, but I can't act on it. I'm not ready to be in a relationship… at least not right now. I had two previous relationships and while there were good times, I lost a part of myself in them. Especially in my last relationship with Jess. Toward the end I became a person I didn't recognize. I need time to figure out things. I'm so sorry, Logan…"

"Rory, you have nothing to be sorry about. I was going to tell you that I don't want to be in a relationship either. I need to be free while I'm still young, it sucks that I have to tell you…"

"Well, honesty sucks, and I could never ask you to give up your freedom. Plus I really don't want you to give up your sailing trip for me. I think it's something very exciting."

"Yeah, it is," He said reluctantly and, in spite of what Honor said, their talk really wasn't helping. Then again, Honor didn't tell him to make out with her.

"So, we're at a really bad impasse…" Rory pointed out sensing the conflict in him.

"Yeah, while we both like each other, we're not ready to act on it. I don't know what to do…"

"Well, we could have a relationship without labels…" Rory somehow suggested.

"Rory, what are you talking about?"

"Logan, I've done serious and it hasn't exactly worked out. I'm leaving for Europe in a week so why don't we just go out until then. No boyfriend or girlfriend labels and then we'll just go our separate ways. It will be fun and different… none of the drama of dating…"

"Rory, that idea is crazy, and I don't think it will work. I'm sorry but I don't want your first time to be with someone you're not in a relationship with…"

"Who said anything about having sex, I said just dating!" She was surprised to come up with this idea.

"Dating, meaning I call you and take you out to dinner tomorrow and everyday till the end of the week."

"Well, not everyday because I've got finals but, maybe, three days of the week. Yeah, doesn't have to be dinner. So, Huntzburger what do you say? It's better than pretending that our kisses have never happened…"

Logan thought of it for a moment and, although he was sure it was a bad idea, he felt that this was better than not having her. "Can I still call you tomorrow?"

"Um, we're not in a relationship… you don't have to tell me when you will call me." Rory half-teased.

"Well, I'm going to call you, Ace." Rory was glad to hear her nickname again. Even though it had only been a day, she had missed it terribly.

"I can't wait, Logan…"

Authors Note: Just a heads up that Logan will be going on his sailing trip I believe its something he needs to do.