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Deeper Secrets

"I can't believe he said that to me." I cried into Phil's chest. When we made it to his place he took me to the living room and had me tell him everything that happened between Mark and I. The more I talked about it, the more heart broken I became.

Phil rubbed my arm, pressing me closer to his body. "Don't worry about him Serena. Mark is a prick at times and he knows it."

I sighed and wiped my eyes, "You know what…I think he's jealous."

Phil chuckled, "Jealous of what? Us?"

I sat up while shaking my head, "No…me."

He looked at me with confusion written on his face, "You? Why?"

I looked down at my belly and rubbed it. "Because I'm having a child and Tracy isn't. It's very frustrating for him and I can see it."

He sighed, "That may be true but that isn't any reason for him to treat you like that honey. Has he always been an ass towards you?"

I nodded, "Yea."

"Then this shouldn't surprise you. Besides, what we do in our relationship is none of his business. As far as I'm concerned, I love you and you love me so us having a little sex isn't a bad thing."

I smiled slightly, "Yes, but we just started dating, we shouldn't have rushed it."

"I know…but emotions were high that night you know?" he said.

I blushed remembering the amount of passion shared between us the month before.

"Listen, don't worry about Mark. If I have to I'll tell him to mind his own damn business myself."

I giggled, "Yea and lose a few teeth while you're at it."

"That is true…but I've got some things to help with the pain." He said.

I chuckled, "Like what? I'm sure Tylenol can't help with that."

He shook his head, "Nope…I just get out my liquid courage…"

I blinked at him, "You drink?"

"Yeah…is that a bad thing?" he asked.

"If you drink all the time it is." I said.

He sighed, "Oh well I don't drink all the time, just on weekends mostly."

I sighed and looked away, "I'm sorry I'm just-"

"-hey, it's alright. I know what you're thinking but I could never hurt you or the baby. I love you and I mean it." He said.

I looked into his eyes and I saw complete sincerity in them. "Ok."

He leaned in and kissed me softly, "You want to get some dinner?"

I nodded, "That would be nice."

He smiled and took my hand before leading me to his kitchen. I watched him as he pretended to be a chef, making me laugh with his fake Italian accent. He ended up making chicken Alfredo with garlic bread. It was definitely the best tasting pasta I had ever had. Later on we watched a movie and then went to bed. It felt nice sleeping in his arms feeling safe and warm. Still…I felt like something wasn't really right with this. He was a nice guy and seemed to respect me but…I don't know. Maybe there was something wrong with my heart. Maybe I wasn't opening up as much as I thought I was.

I ended up back at the guest house a few short days later. I didn't even bother to speak to Mark as I got out of Phil's car and walked past the garage to go in the house. I don't think he was planning on greeting me either since he kept his eyes glued to Phil. I simply shook my head and went in the house, surprised when I came face to face with my mother.

"Hello darling," she said.

I dropped my duffle bag and folded my arms, "What are you doing here?"

She sighed, "Well I just wanted to check on you since you up and left the house."

I rolled my eyes, "I'm fine mom."

"Yes I can see that…you're growing rather nicely."

I glanced down at my belly and then back at her, "Why are you pretending to care…you threw me out when you found out I was pregnant."

She sighed, "Serena it wasn't like that…you're father and I were upset and…."

I instantly felt terrible when she started breaking down into tears. "Mom…I'm sorry-"

"-no it's not you…it's your father…he passed away yesterday Serena." She said.

I gasped and then walked up to her, embracing her as tight as I could. "Oh my gosh mom…what happened?"

"He had a heart attack in his sleep…and the last thing I heard him say was that he was sorry for pushing you away like that. He loves you."

Tears fell from my eyes as I held my mother close to my chest. "It's alright mom, everything is going to be just fine."

She nodded and then smiled at me, "I told your sister about it…she left the house when I told her."

I sighed, "She always leaves when she's upset. When is the funeral?"

"There won't be one." She said. "He left in his will that he wanted to be cremated as soon as possible. You know he was a stubborn one."

I nodded, "Yes he was."

"Anyways…is Mark still acting like a jerk?" she asked.

I chuckled, "Of course."

She shook her head, "Wow…all of that because of a little mishap with his feelings."

I glared at her, "What do you mean?"

She smiled slightly, "Well Mark and I talked once before and…it turns out that he's mean towards you just to push you away."

I narrowed my eyes, "Push me away for what?"

She sighed slightly, "Look I can't tell you everything, but I will tell you this. Your sister is hiding a secret from him and he already knows about it."

I gasped, "Which secret? She told me about one but she told me there was another."

My mom looked around and then walked me to the couch, "You're sister is seeing someone else and has been since she first met Mark."

I gasped, "Mom! And you condone this?"

"Well of course not. I thought Mark would be a better choice for her, but she wouldn't listen to me." She said.

I sighed not believing the words I was hearing, "well did you ever meet the other guy?"

She nodded, "Oh yes. He's a younger guy and much thinner too, pretty nice though…Mark doesn't know the guy though…"

I shook my head, "Well that wasn't the secret she told me."

"Hold on I'm not done." My mom said as she glanced out the window at Mark who was crossing the yard. "Now, Mark doesn't know this, but about a year before her and Mark got married, she got pregnant."

My mouth dropped, "What!"

She nodded, "Yes. She knew the baby wasn't Mark's because they planned on waiting until they were married to have sex."

I sighed, "Oh God."

"But that isn't the worst part…when she went in for the abortion; she told them to remove her entire uterus."

I nodded, "Oh God. She told me that part but I never knew there was a baby." I said.

"I'm afraid so, and Mark has no clue about it." She said. "I know it'll break his heart if he ever finds out."

"Of course…"

I was so shocked by what my mom told me that I actually considered telling Mark myself. Then again he was being a complete ass towards me and I really didn't feel like talking to him. I did wonder however, how he would react if he did in fact find out my sister's secrets.