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After Rachel entered her house, she automatically went to her room where she threw her bag aiming for her pink fluffy chair but missed and landed on her carpet with her school books spilling out instead. Rachel sighed at the sight on the floor and rolled her eyes as she lifelessly fell onto her bed. She closed her eyes as she deeply inhaled. Right now, nothing seemed to matter. Usually, Rachel would have arranged all her books into the order she would need them the next day but she didn't. She didn't pick up her books instantly after they touched the floor, she didn't even care. Rachel just laid on her bed thinking about a certain boy. A boy she very much cared about deeply. She laid still, staring upwards at her ceiling.
'Why is it so hard not to think about him? Why is it so hard to just give him some space to think, to decide what he wants?' Rachel thought. 'Am i just that obsessed with him that I can't even be apart from him for a few hours without thinking about him? Thinking about what he is doing? I just can't stop thinking about him since I last saw him in Glee club. How he was expecting me to give him answer. How he sat there, patiently waiting and I did nothing. I just sat still staring back at him until it was time for us to leave. All that time he was waiting for my answer and I did nothing. Urghh' Rachel ran her fingers through her hair in frustration. 'I need help. Professional help. I need someone who has been through the same thing or near enough. Someone who liked some else but couldn't act on their feelings because it would complicate, their already confusing, life. Someone- Kurt!'
Rachel jumped from her bed and rushed over to her overturned bag, emptying it fully, frantically searching trying to find her phone. "Ah ha." Rachel smiled at the cell in her hand before going through her K contacts, which didn't take long.
"Hello?"
"Hey Kurt I need to talk to you." Rachel told him as she moved back towards her bed.
"Rachel? I'm a little busy right now."
"Please Kurt; I really need someone to talk to. You know I wouldn't ask unless it was important."
Rachel heard Kurt sighing into his phone. "Fine, what do you want to talk about Rachel?"
"Well you see, you know how me and Finn officially broke up before Christmas? We both deci- well actually I decided, but Finn agreed, that until he has made up his mind on whether we would get back together or not, we were going to keep our distance from each other. I thought that if we kept our emotions to ourselves then it wouldn't complicate things further, at the time I thought that it would be easy to do that but I found out that it really isn't. I mean, I'm doing everything I can to stop myself from calling or going over to Finn right now. Kurt you have to help. I never thought I would become this obsessive over someone."
"Ok calm down Rachel, first take a deep breath. Right, now what do you exactly want me to help you with, to find a better way of keeping your feelings away from Finn or to devise a more effective plan?"
"Well if you have the answers for both, I would love to hear them."
"Look Rachel, I don't know how any plan can make you stop being so obsessive over Finn and as for trying to keep feelings away from him, I really don't think there's anything for that either."
"Well what did you do? You used to have a crush on Finn, now you don't."
"Well first, I moved school Rachel and I know you wouldn't do that. The second thing was that I'm now his half brother, it would be weird if I like my half brother in that way, so unless you want to become his half sister for a while, I'm pretty sure there nothing that can help."
"Really?"
"I don't think so, you're in love with him, it's not a crush. Keeping those kinds of feelings to yourself is hard. I mean, at first I projected all my feelings I had for Finn onto Blaine but now, the end product is that I don't feel anything towards Finn and stronger emotions towards Blaine then I have ever felt."
"Wait what are you saying?"
"Well I not saying anything, but if you want to keep your emotions away from Finn, then you could move them towards someone else, distract yourself."
"Distract myself? So you mean date someone else?"
"No, you don't have to date them, don't even tell them, just try to focus on someone else other than Finn. It might make things a little easier between you two."
"I don't think that would work."
"No harm in trying is there?"
"Hmm, I'm not entirely sure if that is the right thing to do. What if I end up falling for the other person? I can't take that risk Kurt."
"Ok, it was just an idea."
"Well I-"
"-Rachel listen I have to go now, good luck in whatever you do. Bye."
"Bye."
Rachel put her phone down next to her as she sighed and laid flat on her bed again.
'I can't do that. I can't just move my feelings from Finn to someone else. I wish it was that simple, to just move from one person to another, but you can't. It isn't that easy, you can't choose these things even if it is temporary.'
The next day, Rachel entered school thinking about what Kurt had said the night before. She thought of the part about focusing her emotions towards someone else.
'What does that even mean? That I have to pretend to like someone else or actually like them, like them? Even then, there's always the question of who? Who am I supposed to project all my feelings towards? Mr Schue? No, been down that road and I am not going to venture it again. Even the idea alone is crazy. I guess I'm just going to have to find another way. If there is one.'
Rachel reached her locker when, from the corner of her eye, she saw the boy who caused her all this trouble, who, no matter how much she would try to hide it, Rachel had strong feeling towards. Finn Hudson.
"Hey Rach."
"Hello Finn." Rachel greeted him, not looking at him but rather her locker, which she was trying to open.
"I need to tell you something." Finn shoved his hands deep into his pockets as a guilty look appeared on his face.
"Yes?"
"Well you know how in Glee we have to pair up to do a duet? Well." Finn paused causing curiosity to increase rapidly in Rachel.
"Yes?"
"Well I was asked by someone to do a duet with them, and I said yes."
"Oh." Rachel turned her attention away from her books to the boy in front of her. "Is that so?"
"Yeah."
"That's nice." Rachel spun back to her locker. "And may I ask who?"
"Ermm…" Finn gazed down towards his feet. "Santana."
Rachel slammed her locker shut as she heard the name that passed her ex boyfriend's lips. Fury began to bubble inside her as she slowly turned to face Finn.
"Who?" Rachel asked again in hope that she had misheard him, that it was someone else like Mercedes or Tina.
"Rachel look-"
"Who?" Rachel repeated herself, as her voice grew louder.
"Rach I-"
"S-Santana?" Rachel asked, flinching at the name.
"Yes."
Rachel shook her head in disbelief as she began to walk away from Finn, hearing him call after her but she didn't respond. She rarely blinked. She just kept on walking until she knew where she wanted to go next.
"Noah?"
Puck turned around to see a small brunette girl standing before him.
"Is that offer still available?"
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