Okay, chapter 5!

you guys know the drill!

TPOV

I thought I was finally starting to feel better, but then I heard the messages. The kids from school just love to trouture me, I guess. I don't even remember them, I don't want to. Atleast I have Jade here with me, and now Cat.

I layed on Jade and Cat sat on the other side of me. We where watching a movie, but I wasent paying attention. I think we where watching Just Go With It?

"Tori, it'll be okay." I heard Cat say.

I sigh and sit up.

"Cat, you don't know how bad these kids can get." I say.

"Yeah, I do. They make fun of me all the time."She says.

I look over to Jade and she nods.

"They make fun of her cause she's weird."Jade says.

I sigh and move some hair from my eyes. That's a stu[id reason to make fun of someone, but who am I to say what they talk about?

I don't even know where the day went, but now Cat's leaving and Trina was in her room, as usual. Me and Jade where in my room, laying in my bed.

I look up to her and I smile. She makes me feel so much better and I don't know why, she just doses. I wrap my arms around her and kiss her neck.

"Thank you for staying so long with me."I say.

She looks down to me and smiles."Like I said this morning. No problem,babe."She says.

I smile and look at my walls. I think things are going to look up, well, maybe. I;m still doubtful. I don't want to go back to school yet, and I don't want this to keep going. I don't know what will happen if it doses.

I sit up and lay down on my stomach and look at Jade.

"What?" She asks.

"I'm just glad your still here."I smile at her.

She smiles back and kisses me.

"I wouldnt leave if I had to. Now, before, I would have left your ass here."She laughs.

I laugh to."Well, thanks."I say.

I havent laughed in two days, and it felt really good to laugh. I smile at her and lay my head down on my pillows. It was quite, and peaceful. For once I feel happy. I snuggle up next to her and look at my black screen reflecting back at me. I look down and close my eyes. I don't want to look at me reflection. All I see is someone I don't want to see. I see someone that's weak and powerless. I look at Jade and back down to my hands.

"Tori, you Okay?" She asks.

I look up and nod."yeah."I say.

She nods and closes her eyes."Why don't you try and get some sleep?" She says.

I nod and close my eyes, but I don't fall asleep.

/ 3 hours later \\\\\

I'm in a corner, Jade is asleep on my bed. My phone lay in front of me, the texts I keep getting, the posts on my profile.

She's nothing but a lesbo whore

I bet shes cheating on her little girlyfriend

I wonder how many other girls she fucked

She probaly has some STD

Dyke!

Fag!

I'm crying and I can't stop. Theres so many, I can't read them all and they just keep coming. I have never thought about doing this, but right now, I can't think of another way. The taunts have gotten worse. They wont stop, they havent stopped for years. I have the razor in my hands and my right arms is covered in red and now I'm starting on my left arm. It stings, but I don't care. I just want this to stop.

My phone keeps going off, why did I ever enable mobile?

"Tori?" Jade mumbles. She sits up, and I look up at her."Tori."

I look back down to my left arms and make more lines on it, more red spilling out, I just can't stop. I just keep making them deeper, and I keep making more... My arms feel numb.

"Tori!" Jade screams as she jumps off my bed. She sits down beside me and tries to pull the blade from my hand.

"No, let me just..."I can't finish.

Jade finally ripps it from me, and cuts her hand in the process. She pulls me close to her and wraps my arms in something. She stands me to my feet and looks at me.

"I gotta get you to the hospital."She says.

"No..."I whisper.

"I'm not gonna take no for an answer."Jade says.

She leads me by my shoulders to her car and we drive. my blood getting all over her seats and all I can do is keep looking at my phone, I don't know why I grabbed it.

Once we get there she rips my phone from my hand and takes me inside. The nurses see the blood and take us back.

Once we get a room, Jade stands in the hallway, by now I have no clue what's going on, and everything is in a haze. I guess I lost more blood than I thought. I didn't think I cut that deep. I see the blurred faces of the nurses and doctor, and then it all goes black.

I wake up, and look down to my arms. Their all clean and bandaged and theres an IV running in my arm. "Jade?" I ask. She looks up at me and smiles at me.

"Hey."She says.

I try to smile at her.

"Tori, why?" Jade asks me.

I look at my bandeged arms and shurg."I don't really know."I say as I fall back asleep.

Okay, yeah, this was kinda sad... sorry

the story will get better, i promise