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Sirius

It's been six months since I last saw Sam. My heart still aches for her everyday. I've never stopped looking. I've tried everywhere. I've been all over the country, and Kaelin's been by my side the whole way. It's heard on her and Remus when the full moon rises. Remus has no choice but to stop looking for a few days. Lily is getting much bigger, and she can't help as much. James spends a lot of time helping her.

They all help where they can. Lily questions people at the ministry asking about Voldemort and where he takes his prisoners. The answer is always the same. He kills them. James has been helping her and me as well. Remus helps when he can, and Kaelin and I are out searching twenty four seven. I miss Sam so much it hurts.

It's August fifteenth. Kaelin, Remus, and I are in Romania. Death Eaters are swarming the area trying to get Dragons on their side. We have to be very careful. I have a lead. I notice the Death Eaters stay in a large cave north of our location. I wonder if they're keeping her there.

Tonight, the warm summer breeze blows through the forest. We have a large tent we borrowed from James. Three bedrooms. Remus and Kaelin snuggle close by the fire. Some would feel like a third wheel in my situation, but I don't even care. The only thing that matters to me is finding Sam. She's out there. I can feel it.

"Tomorrow," I say suddenly. They look up at me as I stand over them. "Tomorrow, we go into the cave." They look at me like I'm insane.

"It's crawling with death eaters!" Remus protests. Kaelin looks scared.

"I don't care. Sam could be in there, and I'm not leaving her to die!" I say angrily. Kaelin nods.

"He's right. If Sammi is in there, we have to save her," she says.

Remus shakes his head in defeat. "Okay. How?" he asks. I freeze. I haven't thought that far yet.

"We'll come up with something," I say. "There's always a plan." True, there is not a plan, but I have to find one. I'm not giving up this easily. Tomorrow morning, James should be joining us. He can help.

I fall asleep with pictures of Sam floating through my mind. It's been three months. Does she remember me? Does she still want me? What if she's forgotten, and hates me because I haven't found her yet? What if she doesn't love me anymore? I stop thinking about it. The thought of that sends a chill down my spine. She's out there, and I will find her.

I wake up early. Much earlier than Kaelin and Remus. I hear soft snores coming from Remus' room, but Kaelin's is silent. James should be here soon. He's my best friend, and I don't know what I'd do without him. He's been there for me through it all. Sam may be gone, but not forever. I have to keep telling myself that. I will find her. I have to. Otherwise, I've nothing left to live for.

Sam

Pain. That's all I can feel. All I've felt for the past six months. My head throbs with unbearable pain, and it feels as if needles are sticking into my side. There's a lot of blood. I can't die. They need me too much to kill me. So they keep me just barely alive. Enough to feel the tortures. My new cell is much colder. Darker. Quieter. It's lonely here, and I fear I'm beginning to lose my mind. I find myself talking to the walls. Crying out. Begging for help. No one can hear me. Those who can don't care.

At first, the questioned me. Asked me all about the Order and my friends. About Sirius. Each memory I was forced to reminisce felt like another dagger through my heart. I held my tongue careful not to give away anything that might hurt my friends. I endured the curses they shot at me when I refused to cooperate. The pain it brought. After almost three months of the same thing day after day, night after night, they decided to try something different.

Three months I've been left in this room. Alone. The room is enchanted. I can feel the magic aura hovering above me. I never feel hungry. Never thirsty. The pain never stops, but continues in a sharp throbbing. Blood pours out from my many wounds, but I never lose enough to die. It always replenishes. For weeks, I cried. I cried over my loss. Over the pain. Over Sirius. Then came the visions. Kaelin and Remus getting married. Without me. James and Lily's child being born. Without me. Sirius finding someone else. Leaving me here to endure this torture forever.

For the past three weeks or so, I've been silent. I've stopped talking to the walls. I'm retreating into my mind. The only place left for me to go. It's safe there. Painful but safe. Memories race through my brain searing my heart with each touch.

Sirius will come for me. I'm sure of it. I will not break. I will not give in. I will wait. He's out there right now looking for me. He'll find me.

I can't tell night from day. The days are blurring together in my prison. When the door opens the light is blinding. I force myself not to cry out as I'm lifted into the air. Pain erupts in my side, and I stifle a shriek. "She's dying," a voice, whispers. "She cannot go on like this for much longer." The words are fuzzy in my ears.

"How long?" another, raspier voice asks.

"Three months at the most," the first voice answers. I can tell it's a woman. The second voice appears to be a man.

"The Dark Lord wishes her presence," the man says.

"She's too weak," the woman protests. "Anymore harm could kill her instantly."

"She doesn't have a choice," the man says. In this moment, I accept my fate. I know I will die here. It's over for me. It's okay. I'm right with God. I had a good life. I can only hope Sirius will be okay. I hope he'll move on. Find someone else. Tears well up in my eyes at the thought of another woman in his arms. What I wouldn't give to be back there once again.

I remember how my parents used to joke about us growing up and falling in love. I never would have guessed they'd be right. I smile despite what I know will happen. Then I begin to laugh. Softly at first then louder until my laughter is the only thing I'm aware of. I slowly drift into unconsciousness.

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