So, you must hate me. In all honesty, I'm lazy -_-''
But that's isn't a really good excuse. But here's the next installment of Dear Journal :)
Hope you enjoy it,
P.S. I figured you all needed some nice EClare lovin' after tuesday's episode.
P.S.S. Anyone notice Imogen's name was called during last night's episode? lol
Dear Journal,
This is going to be a bit explicit, but this is a moment I don't plan on forgetting so it has to be said.
Somehow, Eli and I made it to the tent, with my body pressed into the air filled mattress while Eli had his way with my suddenly shirtless torso.
My fingers were wrapped tightly in his hair while his heated tongue mapped my body from the valley of my breasts to my navel. Eli's mouth slid across my abdomen, leaving a hot trail to my right hipbone, where he sucked on the skin, and then bit it causing me to cry out and bite my lip to contain my noises. He kissed the red mark before moving over to the other hip, giving it the same attention.
I was on fire, my body blushing a bright red. I didn't know how to soothe myself besides letting out the pleasurable pain through my cries and whimpers.
"Eli," I whimpered, rubbing my legs together.
"Yes," his hot breath slid across my chilled skin and a shiver racked my body.
"Touch me." I plead, pulling his head up to be level with my face.
"And where exactly," he slid his hand up my bare waist to my hover over my bra-clad breasts. "Do you want me to touch you?"
I flipped us over, surprising him. I undid the clasp of my bra and threw it across the tent. Eli's eyes seemed to glaze over and stare hungrily at my chest. As chivalrous as he was, he was a hormonal teenage boy, and his eyes were glued to my bared chest.
I felt nervous, seeing a look so primal and lustful in Eli's gaze. My arms started to rise to cover my exposed chest, but the rough hands that were resting on my waist gripped my wrists and pulled me down so my face was eerily close to his own.
"Never feel shy with me, please. You're…I don't even know how to explain how gorgeous you are. Just don't." He whispered against my lips, my eyes fluttered closed, wanting him to kiss me badly.
I waited, but I felt nothing. I started, my eyes opening when Eli placed a tender kiss just below my ear.
"You're gorgeous," kiss on my jaw. "Beautiful," kiss on my chin. "Lovely," kiss on my flushed cheek. "Amazing," kiss on my forehead. "And I'm yours," kiss to my lips.
"Oh, Eli." I sighed in the kiss, wishing he'd free me from his grip on my wrists.
We rolled until I was on my back, his chest pressed closely to mine. I closed my eyes, melting into the tender loving kiss we shared. Suddenly my wrist was free, only to be held into one hand, while his left hand grazed down my cheek, my neck, my collarbone, skirting around my breast to my waist.
I wriggled in his touch, wishing he'd touch me where I wanted to be touched, but Eli wouldn't let me get what I wanted so easily. No, I had to earn what he gave me. I usually was paid in my whimpers and pleas, and I gave my best whine in hopes of arousing him enough to touch me.
"Eli, please." I whimpered, pushing my chest up.
"What?" He asked teasingly, lips leaving mine to nibble on my earlobe.
"Touch me," I groaned, lifting my leg to wrap around his waist.
Eli chuckled, grabbing my wrapped leg with his free hand and lifted it higher, making me groan as our lower halves touched. I took note of the strained look on his face, reveling in the fact I wasn't the only one struggling with control.
"Where?" He whispered in my ear, making me shiver in delight.
"Anywhere," I whined with lifting my hips to meet his.
"Clare!" Eli hissed sharply, making me grin.
His mouth moved from my neck to my bare chest, taking my right breast in his hand. I groaned at the skin on skin contact. I pushed my chest closer to his touch and bit my lip as he rolled my nipple between his index finger and thumb.
I closed my eyes, enjoying the sensation. Suddenly I felt warm air blow across my left breast, making my eyes snap open only to flutter closed with a satisfied moan when Eli took my nipple in his mouth. I tried to free my hands, and finally I slipped one free to grip his hair while he swirled his heated tongue around my nipple.
"Yes, uh, right there." I moaned, feeling his teeth bite hard on the sensitive bud. "Oh god."
Eli gave up on holding my one hand and slid both down to the band on my shorts; he pulled away and moved so he was level with my face.
"Can I?" Eli asked, dipping a finger beneath my shorts and panties.
I hummed a reply, not fully trusting my voice. Eli smirked and kissed my lips softly, working expertly on my shorts button and zipper.
I gasped when he pulled both my panties and shorts were pulled down, fully exposing my body to him. I shut my legs instinctively, but Eli had other plans, gripping my knees and pulling them apart. I whined in my throat, biting my bottom lip as Eli's hands slid down my thighs, only to skim over my stomach to my breasts.
"Eli." I whined, wriggling under his touch.
"What?" He asked, smirk in place.
"Touch me," I growled.
Eli complied, hands sliding down to touch my clit. I moaned loudly as his thumb circled my clit slowly. Another moan ripped from my throat as his right hand went to my entrance, slipping both his middle and ring finger inside me.
"Oh!" I gasped, bucking my hips into his touch.
I bucked my hips wildly, moaning and panting as my body seemed to spontaneously combust. Which I knew wasn't possible, but fire seemed to burn through my veins. It grew hotter in my abdomen, making my toes curl and my mouth hang open in a silent scream.
My vision went white, the light seemingly exploding in front of my eyes. My ears rang and my body tensed as white hot waves of pleasure coursed through me, making me shiver and moan while it ended.
"You're so fucking beautiful." Eli whispered in my neck, breathing heavily.
My vision cleared, and I was back in our tent, I heard Eli's ragged breathing and my own short breaths. I raised my hand sluggishly to the base of Eli's neck and made him move so he was looking me. I pulled his face closer and kissed him softly, pouring all my feelings in the slow and sensuous kiss.
"Should I…" I trailed off, sliding my hand down his side to the front of his pants.
"No," he said. "I'm good. You don't have to." He pulled away my hand, bringing it to his lips.
"Are you sure?" I asked breathlessly, he nodded. "Thank you, though. It was…"
"Amazing." He smirked; I just hummed before pulling him down to kiss me again.
"You're so full of yourself," I mumbled. "Now, let's get some sleep. We're going to the lake tomorrow. It's gonna be a long hike."
"Yeah, yeah." Eli chuckled, kissing me chastely before rolling off of me and going to his bag of clothes.
We both got our pajamas on; well, all he did was switch into clean boxers while I put on pajama shorts and a clean tank top. We crawled under the thick sleeping bags we shared as a blanket and I was pulled into Eli's chest, my back snuggled into his chest.
"Good night," he whispered, kissing my neck before settling back on the pillows.
"Rise and shine!" Yelled Fiona burst into our tent, making Eli shriek and roll off the air mattress.
I sat up quickly, looking around with squinted eyes, messed up hair and a slightly drooped mouth. I rubbed my eyes, looking over to see Eli just lying on the ground, I started giggling.
"What. The. Fuck." He groaned, still not moving from his place on the ground.
"Language." I said sternly, Eli turned his head to look at me.
"You were saying some pretty vulgar things last night, I don't wanna hear it." Eli chuckled, and I felt my cheeks heat up in a blush.
"Why exactly were you saying things as vulgar as fuck?" Fiona asked, giving me a suggestive wink.
"No reason at all," I hissed, directing it more at Eli than Fiona.
"Sure," Fiona didn't sound convinced. "Anyway, get your stuff for the lake. Adam just got Drew and Alli up, so no rush really."
Fiona left and courteously zipped the opening closed for us. I groaned, not wanting to get up at…what time was it? I leaned over Eli to my bag and grabbed my watch, looking to see it was…six o'clock in the morning?
"It's only six. Why would we get up this fricken early?" I moaned, falling on top of Eli in despair.
"You used to get up this early for school, big deal." He chuckled, I moaned into my arms.
"That was school. It's important. Getting to the lake early is not important." I mumbled, not moving.
I had every intention of just laying on Eli into well of the morning, but he had other plans. I didn't feel him move, but suddenly his hands were skating on my sides, tickling me.
"Eli!" I yelped, followed by a fit of giggles and squeals.
"Come on," he chuckled, viciously tickling me. "Time to get up."
"I swear," giggle. "If you don't stop," giggle. "I will bite you."
"Is that a promise?" Eli laughed, not faltering on tickling me.
I grabbed his hands and straddled his lap, placing my mouth just below his ear. "It's a threat." I bit his earlobe before moving my mouth to his neck, leaving various love bites across the side of his neck.
"Aw, come on, guys! This early!" Groaned Adam, making me jump off of Eli's lap.
"Way to cockblock, bro." Commented Drew, peering around a horrorstricken Adam.
"Alright, we're getting dressed, now leave." I snapped, but giggled as Adam stumbled out of the tent with his hands over his eyes.
"It was just getting good," commented Eli, making me roll my eyes.
"Shut up and get dressed, Goldsworthy." I said, standing and going to my bag.
"So where is this wondrous lake anyways?" Drew asked, trying to keep pace with everyone.
"It's about ten miles from camp." I said, jumping across two large rocks.
"Oh my god." Alli groaned, I rolled my eyes.
"I suggested it, and you were all for swimming and tanning. So no bitching." I said, stepping over a root protruding from the earth.
"Clare!" Alli gasped, surprised by my language.
"What? You agreed to go camping. Did you honestly think that walking through the woods in 90 plus heat wouldn't involve some work?" I asked, rolling my eyes.
"Eli, you are a horrible influence. She's starting to use your sarcasm! I want the old Clare back!" Alli teased and I giggled while Eli stuck his tongue out at her.
"Well, Alli, the old Clare felt the same way. She just never said anything. If anything, I'm glad I met Eli. He gave me the balls to speak my mind." I laughed when Adam made of face.
"It's nice to know who has the balls in the relationship." Drew commented, Alli smacked him on the back of the head. "Ouch!"
"Would you stop with the crude comments? Honestly, you're acting li-"
"Like a five year old. Blah blah. Learn some manners. Blah blah. I know, Alli. I'm just joking around." Drew said and that started a heated argument between the two.
"Should we…stop them?" Fiona asked, I shook my head while ducking underneath a branch.
"Nah. They'll fight for a bit, and then slip away from make-up sex. Problem solved." I said, making Adam snicker.
"I think Clare's getting quite the attitude, don't you think?" Adam questioned jokingly behind me, I rolled my eyes and let go of a branch I was holding and it whacked Adam square on the forehead.
Eli busted out laughing, along with Fiona and even the fighting couple way back at the sight of a disgruntled Adam on the ground. I looked back with an evil smirk.
"You are so, so, so going to get it." Adam threatened while I ran ahead with Adam behind me.
I swerved around trees and jumped over roots while Adam continuously stumbled. I reached an opening in the woods, but stopped quickly when I reached the edge of a small hill breaking off to the lake. I heard Adam coming behind me, so I expertly climbed down the side of the ledge and stayed pressed against the wall while keeping balanced on a thick root jutting out of the dirt.
"Where did she go?" Adam asked, I smirked hearing right above me.
I looked below to see the very least, a three foot drop into semi-deep water. I turned on the root, and pressed my front to the dirty ledge-side, waiting for Adam to get closer.
"Hey, Fi. Hold my stuff; I'm going to go find Clare." I heard Adam say, then the rustling of fabric. I waited until I saw the very tip of Adam boot before grabbing his ankle firmly and tugging him off the edge and into the murky water below.
Adam shrieked, and then yelped as his body turned and his bottom hit the water. He flailed like a fish out of water, but he was sitting on the water's floor, the water just barely reaching over his shoulders.
The gang was laughing as Adam realized what happened, he glared at me, and I realized I was a sitting duck, standing on the thick – but short – root. I threw my backpack up and then tried to climb up before Adam could get me.
I had my chest above the edge, but Adam successfully hugged my legs and brought me down. I squealed and fell back with him into the water. I shot up, my hair soaked along with my clothes.
"Hey, you got me twice, you deserve at least this. But I gotta praise you. What you did was pretty fucking awesome. You were all ninja like, I totally did not see that come." Adam laughed while looking at me through his soaked bangs.
"Whatever. You are so lucky I brought extra clothes." I warned, walking out of the water and shivering.
Something slithered around my ankle, making me shriek, bolting out of the water and around the hill to the beach part of the lake.
"You guys have a nice dip?" Drew asked, I flipped him off.
"I'm going to go change into my bathing suit; I suggest you guys do the same. We girls will change in the woods over there, "I pointed past the hill and towards a thick part of the forest. "You guys just change elsewhere. I swear, if you peep, I will beat you each personally."
"Will do." The gang said, and the girls followed my wet self to where we were going to change.
"Who wants to play chicken?" Drew asked, we all grinned. Adam coaxed Fiona off her towel and Drew already had Alli flipped over his shoulder, I gulped, seeing Eli give me a sinister look as he got out of the water.
Now, I must point out how unbelievable cheesy and erotic what happens next. I was speechless and everything seemed to slow, like one of those old Baywatch episodes. Eli stepped out of the water in his sleek black swimming trunks. The water glittered on every exposed part on his body, especially on his defined chest.
I hadn't realized I was gaping, not even when he smirked, flipping his wet hair out of his eyes. "I know unbelievably sexy, but please try to control yourself."
I shook my head, clearing the dirty thoughts forming in my head, trying to forget of doing unimaginable and naughty things to him.
"Now, come on. We're gonna play chicken." Said Eli, holding his hand out.
I grabbed it, but didn't expect Eli pulling me roughly, enough to bring me to my feet and slam into his chest. I gasped as my heated chest met his cool one, Eli groaned in my ear.
"You look fucking amazing in the skimpy two-piece." He whispered, nipping my earlobe.
I was weak in the knees and desperate to feel Eli's lips on mine like they were last night.
"Are you guys coming?" Asked Drew, Eli pulled back then dragged me into the water.
I shivered as the cold water wrapped around me, chilling me until Eli wrapped his slightly warmer body wrapped around me.
"Ready?" He asked, looking me in the eyes. I was glad we were submerged in the water, so he couldn't see my legs shake.
"Sure." I said then shrieked happily as Eli sank under the water, and the boys followed his lead, swimming under their girlfriends and lifting up under the water.
"Okay, count of three." Said Drew, "One."
"Two." Said Adam.
"Three." Finished Eli, and I gripped hands with Fiona, laughing wildly.
It went on for a while, our game of chicken. First round, Fiona won. Second, Alli and I tagged together to get Fiona down, then I had no problem getting Alli to fall. The third, Alli won by tagging with me, but when Fiona and my hands were holding each other's, Alli pushed us both down. The last tie breaker was me, because Eli cheated by tickling Adam, and I had Alli down in a second.
"Okay," Adam said as he popped out of the water. "I think that's good. I'm done."
Drew laughed and shook his head. "It's getting late, just about sundown, we should head back."
We agreed and went to the shore, then to our towels to dry off. I shook my head, water spraying onto Eli who chuckled and wrapped his arms around me.
"Not cool." He laughed, I tilted my head back and stuck my tongue out.
Eli nipped at my tongue and my tongue retreated into my mouth, my eyes wide with shock. Once it wore off I giggled and leaned up, kissing his quickly before wiggling out of his grip.
"I need to change." I said, grabbing my backpack, the girls followed me.
"Okay, let's play something," said Drew while flipping a burger on the iron rack Fiona brought so we could cook.
"Like?" I asked, munching on a bag of Doritos.
Eli stuck his hand in my bag and I snatched it away, playfully mumbling, "My Doritos." He just laughed and popped the chip in his mouth.
"Uh, truth or dare?" I rolled my eyes, "Lame!"
"Well what do you think we should do?" He asked, I shrugged my shoulders.
"I brought liquor. We could play Never Have I Ever, and instead of removing clothes, we drink from our bottles."
Everyone agreed and Fiona went to her insulated cooler and brought out three bottles of Smirnoff flavored vodka and three bottles of Samuel Adams beer.
I tried to open to top but pouted, looking at Eli pop the top off expertly, I sighed in defeat and looked at Eli with pleading eyes. He chuckled and opened the bottle for me.
"Okay, my idea, I go first. Never have I ever…gotten drunk before." Fiona said, easily taking a sip of her vodka.
I took a sip along with Drew and Eli, I looked at Alli somewhat surprised while she gave me the same look.
"I know it seems like I would, but I haven't. Now, Miss Edwards, please enlighten me when you've gotten drunk?" Alli asked, I blushed.
"I wasn't at a party or anything, well it was, I meant like a high school party. I was about fourteen and my parents let me have a glass of red wine during their Christmas party. Not that big of a deal, but apparently I'm a lightweight." I rambled, feeling my cheeks burn hotter by each stumble of my words.
"My, my." Alli teased, I just rolled my eyes then questioned who'd go next.
"Me!" Drew called, a sly smirk on his face, "Never have I ever gotten gone all the way."
Fiona, Alli, Drew, and…Eli took a swig of their poisons. I looked at Eli, somewhat stunned and kind of hurt for some reason. Eli turned to look at me, and I felt my heart stutter at his guilty gaze. I stood abruptly from my seat next to him and stomped into the woods.
I don't know why I'm acting so dramatic. Of course Eli's been with other people, it's not like I didn't know. Eli obviously implied he had with Julia, so why am I feeling so…frustrated?
"Clare!" Called Eli, and I shivered, I hadn't realized how far I'd gone into the woods.
I downed the whole bottle of vodka and threw the glass far off into the…dark…creepy woods. I felt the vodka settle in me, warming my belly and blurring my vision of the dark forest around me. It was dark, but even I knew when the darkness around me was turning into a blurry, fuzzy mess.
Everything went pitch black in a matter of seconds.