I've got to say that I never expected I would update crying.

But have any of you ever felt like it's just not worth is anymore? Do you wish that you could just end it all so all of this crazy shit wouldn't be happening to you anymore? Well I have, don't get me wrong I love life and everything but I get sick of it sometimes.

I'm sorry but I'm not really up to doing the mail bag today so I'll just let you continue with the story.

"She has to be lying, Red Arrow can't be dead." Kid Flash exclaimed.

By this time a lot of the other Justice League members had heard about the disappearance and had come to see if they could help.

"KF's right, he can't just be dead. He's Speedy, there has to be something she's not telling us." Robin agreed as Batman lowered the volume on the conversation.

"I do not think she is lying, she seems sincere." J'onn looked at Batman. "Her thoughts are mixed but I can get enough to tell that she truly believes he is dead."

"Just because she believes it doesn't make it true, right?" GA asked.

"I cannot be sure but there is much she is holding back on us, it seems she has been through a lot. Both before and after she joined the Shadows." He looked at Megan. "I do not want you to even try to go into her mind, it is too much for even me to handle and she was mentally pushing me out. Whatever you want to get out of her you need to make her say it."

Just as he walked away from the hall a breeze came and the Flash was standing next to the heroes. "I couldn't find anything."

"We may not have anything to find if what she's saying is true, we need to make her tell us more…" Batman was about to continue when Black Canary walked out.

She locked her fingers together. "She refuses to tell me more than she already has, and she won't tell me what happened."

"Do you think she killed him?" Artemis asked.

"It's possible. We need someone she can be more open to, someone she can trust." Batman started looking at Aria.

"Someone she cares about." Robin added. He looked up at his mentor. "You said there's no match for her in the criminal database but what about the victims? Something caused her to join the Shadows, we need to find what it was."

Batman nodded. "I'll have Red Tornado look through the DNA, in the mean time I want all of you to go out and search anywhere and anything. Leave no stone unturned, there has to be some evidence of what happened. Robin I want you to try to talk to her, maybe talking to someone closer to her age will get her to open up. You also have more experience in interrogation then the rest."

Robin nodded as the others walked away, leaving him and his mentor alone.

Batman looked down at him. "Are you going to be okay with this?"

He sighed. "Yeah, I'll be fine. But do you mind turning off the cameras, that way we won't be risking our identities?"

Batman gave him a small nod. "No problem, I'll make sure no one interrupts you too. If you need me just give me a call on your com-link."

Robin nodded and stepped to the door to open it. "Batman, you should lock the door behind me. She was also a good escape artist."

Aria knew exactly what was going on outside, she mentally grinned at the realization that she was right to suspect it was him.

She may have been looking at the ground but she was well aware of everything.

Everything was going according to plan, with luck she'd soon be out of here with no worries at all.

After all, that's what she had been promised when she signed up for this.

Robin took his seat across from her and waited until she looked up at him.

She didn't look all the way up but he was aware she knew of his presence. "So now they sent you to talk to me? Isn't what I told them enough, can't you just accept he's dead?"

Robin looked at her. "If he is dead tell me how he died or at least who killed him."

"What difference will it make? He's still dead, nothing you do will ever bring the guy you knew back. He's long gone and you people have to accept that."

"Why haven't you tried to escape yet? I know you probably could, I mean, you were so good at sneaking around before."

She looked up at him. "Why bother? I don't have anywhere better to go, nothing better to do. Oh by the way tell your little mentor he can have these back." She threw him the handcuffs.

"What happened to you? They told me you and your dad died."

"Oh what happened to me? I made a fucking mistake Grayson! One with good intentions but still a mistake." She crossed her arms and waited for his reaction.

"What did you do?"

"Turns out we both knew some who was going to be a murderer's next victim." She gave a dry laugh. "The asshole didn't even see it coming.

"You know Sportsmaster, right? He brought me back to the League of Shadows and they saw potential in me so they faked my death and gave me a new life. They trained me to be an assassin and I've been one of them ever since."

"You didn't have to join them, you could have asked anyone for help. Everyone liked you, they would have done anything to help you. If I would have known…" She cut him off as she raised her hand.

"If you and Daddy-Bats would have known he would have handed me right to the authorities. After all I did kill a man in cold blood, they would have never believed my story. What I should have done was found a gun and pull the trigger." She gave him a small smile. "There's nothing you can do, what happened; it happened for a reason. You know, I use to wish I could go back in time and change everything but not anymore.

"Instead of babysitting you, Ricky G, I would have been at my old house living the good life with mom and dad. And most importantly, I would have never met your parents, your mom reminded me of mine so much. I wish they were here so I could tell them that I loved them."

"If you loved them so much than tell me what you did to my friend." Robin whispered.

"You want to know what happened to him? Fine! It was a contract killing, they paid us and we got the job done. He wasn't expecting me to be there, that was what gave me an advantage." She smirked, amusement filling her eyes. "Arsenal finished him off."

Honestly when I woke up this morning I thought I'd be updating on more happy terms but I guess life just loves to screw with me any chance it gets. But in case you haven't figured it (the story's plot) out already look it up because I also don't feel like going into geek mode and explaining.

I know if you'd realize why it is I'm crying I would probably seem selfish to you a little shallow but it's not really just because of just one thing.

I love my family and wouldn't give anything for them but sometimes they just don't get it, no one really does. I may seem all tough and strong on the outside but in the inside I'm human! I'm tired of hiding all of this, tired of pretending that I don't care and that it doesn't affect me because it does, more than they could imagine. If only they could realize how much I really need them because I'm sick of all of this messed up shit that's happening to us, why can't they understand that I'm still just that kid they've raised for years? I'd love to see all of this pain and suffering go away, but I know things don't work like that and that's why I've been bottling up all of my feelings. I guess after a while everyone has to break, and that time's now for me. They don't understand me, they don't understand my mind and they don't understand what I'm feeling. My older sister thinks I act like a bitch to her and I do. I though at least she would understand what I was going through but it's only now that I realize how stupid that it. It also makes me realize how bad it is too hide behind this mask. I guess that's why I like superheroes, because I also hide behind a mask but they do it because they want to protect. I do it because I don't want to be hurt anymore.

Why can't all this pain and suffering just end?