"SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE I CAN BREATH FOR THE FIRST TIME", Caroline and I screamed in the car. We looked at each other and started to giggle uncontrollably.
"So are you and Matt finally going to do the Nasty tonight?" Caroline flashed a smile and a wink my way.
"Caroline!" I said as the blood rushed to my cheeks.
"What? Seriously! You guys have been dating for like 6 months now! I can't believe you haven't been past second base. I mean he's hot, you're hot. It would be hot."
"It's not like that, I mean I love him but I don't feel like we need that to be in love." Caroline rolled her eyes.
"Blah blah blah, you guys are so mushy, don't you just want to jump his bones. Sex is fun Elena, trust me!"
That was thing about Caroline she was way more experienced then I would ever be. She wasn't worried about guys thinking she was easy, because to be honest she was pretty easy. But I wasn't, I worried to much about the future and all the things that could go wrong, and how awkward it would be for me and Matt to have sex, considering we were both virgins.
"Yeah, I'm sure it is, but doesn't it hurt and stuff?"
"At first, but it's worth it, trust me." She nudged my arm and I smiled at her, but it was a worried smile and Caroline could tell. She reached into her purse and pulled out a small little package, "just in case" she said handing me a condom.
"Caroline! No, it's not going to happen" as much as I was trying to hide it I really did want to go all the way with Matt, I was scared but I was ready.
"Better safe than sorry", she said sliding it into my small purse.
We approached the house where the party was taking place and there were people everywhere. Caroline parked her car on the side of the road; she reached into her purse and pulled out the large bottle of alcohol she had purchased with her fake id. "Hey can I through my lip gloss in your purse, I wasn't planning on bringing my bag in?" Caroline asked.
"Yeah sure no problem" she handed me the lip gloss after applying a nice thick layer; we got out of the car and joined the party.
Even though most people were hanging outside we knocked on the front door, Tyler Lockwood opened it.
"Ladies" he said tipping his solo cup our way and giving Caroline and awkward sideways hug.
"Hey Lockwood! Where's the keg?" Caroline asked and Tyler led her to the kitchen.
"Tyler have you seen Matt yet?" I asked as I looked around the room trying to locate his bright blue eyes.
"Uhm yeah, he was doing shot in the living room the last time I saw him." Tyler seemed suspicions but that wasn't out of the ordinary for Tyler. So I went on the hunt for Matt. I found him in the living room where Tyler had left him. He was sitting at the small bar in the corner of the room playing a game of quarters. The moment he saw me his eyes opened wide, and the biggest smile came across his face. I couldn't help but blush.
"Hey hun!" he said grabbing my waist and pulling me in for a sloppy kiss.
"Wow! It looks like I have some catching up to do!" His breath reeked of liquor and he wasn't normally this into PDA. "I think I'm going to go join the game of Never Have I Ever in the kitchen do you want to come?" I said pulling him in a little closer.
"I'll be right there" He said flashing his adorable blue eyes my way. I was so lucky to have such an adorable boy friend.
I walked into the kitchen to find Caroline double fisting and making out with a boy already. The game of never have I ever had already begun so I jumped right in. Matt joined us just as it was getting to my turn.
"Uhm, never have I ever..." now there was several things I could say, but I had to be careful, I quickly remembered this one time in the fifth grade when Caroline thought that it was possible to eat a whole banana without opening your mouth so I said, "Never have I ever shoved a whole banana in my mouth at once." I gave Caroline a joking look and she exaggeratedly took a large sip of her drink, Matt and some of the other boys that remembered the event laughed and imitated Caroline from back in the day.
I felt Matt's hand around my waist and soon his lips were against my neck. This was very uncommon for us, we weren't ones to show our affection in public, something had come over him and I wasn't sure if I liked it or not.
Caroline hopped over to me, a boy I recognized from school following quickly behind her.
"Hey can I grab my lip balm from your purse? I think me and Shawn are going to take a walk." She said winking at me with a huge grin on her face.
"Yeah sure" I reached into my purse and pulled out her lip balm, but that wasn't the only thing that came out. Stuck to the top of the lip gloss was the condom that Caroline had jokingly put in my bag, it fell to the floor before either of us could catch it. Matt's eyes grew wide and I could hear a few of the guys in the background ooing and awing. I quickly picked it up and shoved it back in my purse my cheeks growing red with blood. "I have to go to the bathroom" I said as I avoided any eye contact with anyone.
After calming down in the bathroom I fixed my hair and my makeup, straightened out my shirt and opened the door, there leaning against the stair case was Matt and his big blue eyes. He had a look of well that was awkward but I still love you on his face, I just smiled at the ground and walked over to him.
"Do you want to take a walk?" he said grabbing my hand as I nodded my head. I started to make my way to the front door but he pulled me around and led the way to the second floor of the house. At the top of the stairs there was four doors, three of them were closed and one was left wide open. He led me to the room and closed the door behind us. In the corner of the room there was a small single bed, Matt grabbed me by the waist and began to kiss me more passionately then he ever had before. My hand quickly tightened around his back and I may have let out a soft moan. He backed me up so that I was now sitting on the bed, his body leaning over me. I pulled away from our kiss.
"Matt wait, are you sure? Is this right, I mean I don't even know whose house we are in, let alone who's bed this is." I was already out of breath but I think it was more do to the anxiety of what was happening.
"That doesn't matter, all that matters is you." His word were so sweet and kind, and not rushed at all you could tell we both wanted it so why not give it a try. I loved him, I was sure of that, he was the best thing I had; I could see us growing old together. All these thoughts flashed though my head as I began to kiss him again. Soon his entire weight was pressed up against me and my legs began to wrap around his. His hand made their way up my shirt and began pressing on my breasts. His kisses traced their way down my neck to the lace that lined my shirt. He pulled my shirt off over my head, and his hands found their way to the hook of my bra. As he took off my bra I pulled off his shirt and our hands intertwined into a big mess and we both let out a little giggle at the awkwardness of the situation. His lips found mine again and I could feel his penis growing hard under his jeans.
My hands fumbled at his zipper and you could tell he was getting exited. We both quickly took off our pants, leaving us both completely naked. For a moment we both just kind of looked at each other, we knew that it was happening and we both wanted to take it all in.
"Do you have the condom?" he said knowing that I did.
"Yeah in my purse" he reached for it on the floor and pulled it out in a flustered way. He opened the package and slid it on to his member, for some reason it seemed like maybe he had been practicing. My legs moved to either side of his so that his penis was right up against my vagina.
"You're ready?" he said as I nodded my head.
"Go slowly; I know it's going to hurt." He leaned in and kissed me for a few second before he started to push his way inside me. I scooted a little closer to him since it felt alright at first, but that pleasure soon turned into the worst pain I had ever felt.
"Stop! Stop!" I practically screamed.
"I'm sorry, am I hurting you?" It wasn't so bad when he wasn't moving so I decided that maybe I should move closed to him instead of him trying to push his way inside of me, but that didn't work either.
"I'm sorry" I whispered, "keep going, I'll be fine."
"Are you sure?" he said hesitantly. I just nodded. He continued to push his way into me; I felt a tear stream down my face. "Elena, I'm pulling out, I'm hurting you too much, and its fine we can try again another time." He pulled out of me and an overwhelming feeling filled my body and I just couldn't help the tears from falling. He held me and we just laid in the comfort of each other's arms for a little while.