Chapter 17 (Awesome big brother)
"So what's the plan you have in mind?" Fancis was sittig behind Gilbert in the van while Mathew was driving, Antonio and Romano were sleeping in the back part.
"Plan? What the hell are you talking about?" Gilbert didn't turn to talk to Francis, in stead he let the later rest his head in the back of his seat so they could keep the conversation with out waking up the sleepy couple.
"Seriously Gil I know you too well just blurt it out already"
Gilbert rolled his eyes "Damn if you know me that well, you should know I'm not the kind of guy who plans anything"
"I agree with that" Mathew came out of trance, he had been driving for an hour, but most of the passengers except for Gilbert had been sleeping since they left the house, he was yearning for some chat to keep him awake at this time of the day, he was not a morning person.
"Oh shut up Birdie"
"You know the more I know you the more I like you petit Mathew"
"Same here Francis"
"Hey is this a plot against me! "
"Shhh"Francis placed a hand over Gilbert's mouth"you'll wake up those two, and I don't know who I'll be more afraid of, Toni or Romano"
"Fine fine I'll be quiet"
"Ha I would like to see that coming true some day" Mathew attacked again
"Mathew were have you been all this time, with you it could have been easier to stand this loud boy" Francis imitated Arsenius voice when calling Gilbert by the nickname
"AGH!, I hate that don't ever do that again"
"But Gil you always give me reasons to bother you" Francis attemped to hug Gilbert, but the german smacked the Francis in the face
"Get back on your seat perv"
"Not the face Gilbert" even it hurted him he tried to keep his voice low
"kesesese"
"Are you at least going to tell me what are we doing today? And how did you convince the swearing brat to come with us? The boy hates us deeply"
"You mean he hates you, and I totally understand him what were you thinking stalking them like that?"
"We already talked about this, I'm not going through that topic aganin,so now answer my question"
"Well Birdie told me about this awesome place in a town near here, and I thought, why not? We should try something different for a change"
Gilbert was sure Francis won't believe him but the important thing was that they were here now and nothing else mattered "besides won't you like to have some real fun with out the old mans" perhaps he could buy that
Francis gave it a thought "Ok if you say so, now about Romano"
"Oh that was easy"
Francis and Mathew shared a "what?", how could anything be easy when it came to Romano
Gilbert sat on his seat so he could see Francis, he was about to explain when he noticed a peculiar scene in the back seat. Antonio was on the edge of the seat and Romano "unconsciously" all over the Spanish, to be more accurate, he was snuggling with Antonio.
"Roma, Roma, Roma, you just keep giving me more blackmail material" Gilbert took out his mobile and took a picture of the adorable couple; unfortunately he pushed the wrong botton and some loud music started playing.
'I´m gonna get you wet
I'm gonna make you sweat
A night you won't forget'
The trio in the front of the car gasped, but it was too late, Romano and Antonio opened their eyes, neither looking happy by the disturbance, both glared at Francis who was closer to them.
"It wasn't me Toni I swear, Gil and his stupid phone"
"You damn coward" Gilbert turned around completely
Romano was preparing to shout something but Gilbert interrupted him "You wanted to know why Romano accepted joining us in this adventure right Francis?"
Francis that now was aware of how frightening could an angry Italian and Spaniard be, turned to look at Gilbert with pleading eyes.
Mathew observed Gilbert by the corner of his eye; this person knew how to make amusing any kind of situation.
"I'll tell you then, it wasn't because his Toni was coming as well, oh no"
Antonio looked at Romano with sad eyed "But I thought you wanted to be with me Roma"
Antonio's sad face was something Romano couldn't handle"I…it's not..the albino bastard"
"Save the drama for later boys, the reason he accepted the kind invitation I made was on one condition"
"And what was that?" Mathew asked with out noticing he had became interested in the conversation, "Uh-oh I'm sorry not my business, please ignore me"
"I could never do that Birdie" Gilbert saw the little blush on Mathew's face to his content, then he continued "He said he would come If I didn't tell Antonio his second name"
"What, that's all?, what's the matter with that?" Francis looked at Romano with confusion
"A second name, but he's in my class I would have known if he had a second name"
"Oh that's because in the school record he is registered just as Romano but his little bother was kind enough to tell me about it"
"Stupid fratello" Romano murmured
"But Roma I don´t see the problem if I know your name how does it even affects you?" Antonio was clueless
"How does it affect me?, damn it bastard you always find your way giving me ridiculous names, it's embarrassing"
"I don't do that" Antonio felt slightly offended
"Oh yes you do" Gilbert and Francis replied in unison
"I don't" Antonio tried to defend himself
Francis started listing the many names Antonio have gave Romano "Romanito, tesoro, Romita, mi amor and others that we can't even pronounce with your accent Toni"
Antonio made a little pout but he stood silent, perhaps sometimes he did what they said, but since when being affective was considered a defect.
"Anyway I still don't see the problem Romano you seem to like Toni treating you like that" Gilbert grined
"What do you know fucking bastard?"
"Yeah Gil what do you know?" Francis asked to Gilbert with a grin like him "Do you know how it is to find a person who can handle all your awesomeness?" Francis fixated his eyes in Mathew, the later wasn't aware he was being the main topic now.
"tsk, keep your mouth shut Francis, it's Lovino who we are talking about know"
A sudden silence filled the car.
"Oh my bad sorry Romano I didn't meant it this time" Gilbert faked the apology
"You stupid albino bastard, I'll kill you and…"
Romano was about to jump over the sits just to put his hands on Gilbert, Antonio was trying to stop him and Francis moved from his place in seconds to allow the Italian the pass with out being hurt in the process.
Matthew saw the sudden change of atmosphere and felt worried, not because of Gilbert, it had nothing to do with that, but because he was driving and if Romano was really going to kill Gilbert he was to close to the driving seat and that could be trouble. With a weak voice he intended to calm the situstion "Uhm Romano please…" but Gilbert started talking again, natural and not a bit afraid of the Italian
"Oh no Lovi you don't want to do that"
Lovi grabbed the german by the shirt "Name one reason"
Gilbert shook his head "Roma wether you stay forever with Antonio something I honestly I don't understand but I'm sure he would love, or your little brother stays with my brother something I find quite plausible as well"
"Stop saying nonsense"
"Ok, both way you'll be like family to me, and there's something important you need to know about me, that is, I don't like fidghting with my family"
"That's it you think I'll forgive you with that"
"Oh no of course not, but I don't want to be forced to share this pictures of you being levey-dovey with my friend Toni" Gilbert showed Romano the picture he managed to take before the Italian woke up.
Romano froze at the image, and then blushed furiously, he let go Gilbert and returned to his seat with no other word.
It seemed it would be a quiet trip now, until Antonio ruined the just reagained peace.
"So what did he showed you Lovi"
Just then Romano started a new fight with the Spanish.
"You're helpless Antonio" Francis said then returned to his seat. "I must say I'm impressed of what you just did Gil"
"What? It's expected from me to have control over any situation"
Francis rolled his eyes "Yeah whatever"
"Hey Birdie?"
"yes?"
"You do like me calling you Birdie right?"
Mathew cleared his throat, turned to face Gilbert with a devil glare "You manipulative albino bastard"
Francis and Gilbert burst out laughing; the couple in the back had no idea of what hapened
"You're amazing Birdie"
"I know"
Mathew tried his best not to show how happy those words made him, but the smile on his lips betrayed him, Gilbert was smiling as well but unaware of it while looking outside the window, and Francis was the one witnessing the scene.
"Ohohonhon got you Gilbo"
(w)
Ludwig opened his eyes a little, 'was it sunlight?, but wait, there is not much light at this hour of the day, what time is it?', he rolled over his back to see the time in his alarm clock, '9:12! What the hell!', but even more strange than the fact that he had overslept, when he searched for his roommate he noticed he wasn't in his bed anymore, he could have expected that from Gilbert, even from Francis, but Antonio?, the guy was not a morning person. Ludwig could sense something was about to happen, he didn't know what, but he was sure his brother had to do with it.
He stood up and looked for a clean shirt in his luggage, it pissed him off whe he didn't get to work out, but now it was really late, and Gerhart surely had already finished, when Ludwig unfold the shirt a sheet of paper fell from it, now his doubts were confirmed, the messy handwriting gave away the author's identity "Gilbert!", the german thought it was a new prank from his older brother but the only way to find out what he was planning this time, was reading the letter:
"Oi bruder if you're reading this Francis ows me some money kesese, thanks to the fact you're such a metodic predictable machine I could even tell which shirt you would be wearing today. You may be really mad at me right now but even if you can't believe it, I'm helping you out, as the amazing big brother you're lucky to have.
Against to what stupid old Arsenius says, I don't think you're afraid of telling Vati about Feli, but you are waiting for the "right moment", so here you go, I grant you the whole day to talk to him, I'm taking everybody (the annoying people and well my awesome persona) away from the house, so do what you have to do. Don't wuss out Lud.
Gilbert"
Was this for real?, agh how could his brother manage to push him everytime? Well perhaps this time, just for this one time, Gilbert did something right, but know it was Ludwig's turn to act, and that now seemed such a difficult task.
He walked downstairs to make some coffe, hi heag ached, how was he suppoused to do this?, how could he tell his grandpa about this?, and as if his day couldn't be better timed, Gerhart was in the kitchen, now he couldn't run away.
"Morning" Gerhart didn't face Ludwig he was busy taking some things out of the cupboard
"Uhm good morning Vatter"
"Why didn't you go running today?"
"I…my alarm clock broke down"
"I see" the older german continued with his business complety ignoring Ludwig, it wasn't uncommon; it was just their way of acting around each other.
"Have you had breakfast?" Gerhart was preparing some eggs
"No yet, but let me help you"
They continued preparing the food in silence, Ludwig was going through an inner battle, he was so afraid he turned to look at Gerhart as if his thoughts could be heard. When they finished and sat on the table, Ludwig couldn't even touch his food, he just took a sip from his coffe.
"I know we are not a talkative family, well aside from your brother, but even if that's the case I can tell when either of you is acting strange, so tell me whatever is troubling you already"
Ludwig froze to the words, while Gerhart reamain undisturbed by his reaction
"So?"
"Well it's…complicated"
"We have plenty of time"
Ludwig remained silent for a long time he was trying hard to find the correct words to say it, but it all sounded awful to him. He was afraid no doubt of it, but this wasn't something he could keep as a secret any longer "I'm seeing somebody"
"And, what's the big deal about it?"
'The person I'm with it's the big deal, how did I end up in this situation? Everything happened so fast, but still I…I want this, I don't know why but, what is between me and Feli I want to keep it'
"That person is Feliciano Vargas"
There was no response for what felt like ages, Ludwig analysed carefully his grandpa's features, at first there was no change, the same stoic face he had inherited showed no emotion, that was until Gerhart made a face that scared Ludwig, a face he had seen very few times in his life, it showed disgust, disapproval and anger, pure anger.
"Then I was right"
"What?"
"It's easy to tell by the way you behave around each other"
"So you knew?"
"I suspected, now you confirm it"
"And wha…"
"I don't like this, at all"
Ludwig felt as if he had been punched in the stomach and had no air to breathe.
"I really don't know what were you thinking, he is your student Ludwig do you know how much trouble you could get into? All your hard work will go to waste just because you're fooling around with a kid, besides do you think he's taking this seriously this is just like a game for him. How could you be so foolish, I never expected this kind of behavior from you…"
Gerhart kept talking, Ludwig could recall when he was younger, how everytime he and his brother got in trouble, there was sure a scold from his grandpa for what they have done, but in his memories, when Gilbert judged it unfair he could face Gerhart and gave his side of the story, not because he wanted to avoid punishment but because he didn't like being told he was wrong when he really wasn't, but when it came to him, every time it was him, he would just fixate his eyes on the floor and listen to what Gerhart had to say, and just after that he would do as he was told with out objection. All his life he thought it was easier, just to follow the rules, and avoid further problems, but this time…
"Are you listening to me?"
Ludwig came out of his world, he hadn't been listening, and he wanted to say something but a cascade of emotions didn't let him think straight, anger, confussion, sadness, all of them in his throat impeding the words coming out.
"Ludwig I'm talking to you"
The younger german stood up in one movement, Gerhart didn't even flinch, Ludwig just turned on his heels and walked away, he stoped at the entrance stairs, he was breathing fast, he looked at his hands, he was trembling. He looked over his shoulder it semeed that Gerhart didn't follow him, but somebody else in stead.
(O_O)
Ludwig started walking towards the beach, he held his head between his hands, the headache was getting worse.
"Ludwig"
The German heard the familiar voice and turned around at the instant.
"Feli?"
"What was that?"
"What you mean?"
"What do I mean?, I was sitting in the balcony and I heard everything"
'So things indeed could get worse?'
"Why didn't you say something back there?" Ludwig could hear disappointment in Feliciano's voice
Ludwig stared at the younger boy, he was sure he looked stupid doing it but he didn't have an answer.
"You let him call me a dumb kid, is that what you really think I am?, do you really think I consider this a game"
"No…I"
"Then why?, you know until now I've showed that you matter to me so much I faced my grandpa and my brother, I've been patient because I didn't want to get you in any trouble, and what do you do, you just run away?" Whit every phrase Feliciano raised his voice, and the anger and determination in his words made him look older, to Ludwig's surprise this was the first time he saw the boy being so serious.
"You don't understand"
"What the hell? How could I don't understand, you just showed how much you care about this, or is it you never took me seriously?"
"Stop talking nonsense" Now Ludwig was yelling as well
"You thing I'm a stupid brat?"
"Don't put words on my mouth"
"How could I? You can't even talk when it comes to fucking serious stuff"
"I didn't expect that reaction I didn't know what to say"
"That's because you don't give a damn about me"
"Shut up!"
Ludwig cornered the Italian against a big rock, Feliciano stood still scared by the sudden out burst.
"Don't you dare say that again, you know how long has it been since I last let anyone get this close to me, and now since I know you it's been a hell for me, you're everywhere, It doesn't matter what I do it doesn't work, I'm tired, I can't get you out of my mind, I'm always having this need of being beside you, I get desperate when I can't, you've invaded everything in my life, and all I want…all I want it's you"
Feliciano was looking at the taller man in the eyes, they didn't move, they could only hear their breathings above the sound of the sea, until Feliciano grabbed the German by the shirt.
"Well you've put me through the same hell" he then planted a kiss in the older's man lips, it wasn't as their previous kisses it was more fierce and passionate. Ludwig answered the kiss immediately and embraced the Italian as if he feared something could take him away from him.
(-_-)
"It's wrong to thimk that our boys will make the same mistakes we did don't you think?" Arsenius sat beside his friend, the later as calm as always.
"You knew about this right?"
"You've been always able to find out the things by yourself"
Gerhart gave him a cold glance "Why did you allow it?"
"I'm nobody to get in their way"
"You mean me neither?"
"Well that's not for me to decide, it depends on your grandson"
Gerhart just stared at Arsenius
"Listen Gerhart I know I made a mistake back then and I'll regret it the rest of my life, because I was an idiot and I lost the best thing that ever happened to me"
"Save that for yourself"
Arsenius voice was filled with sadness "I'm not asking you to forgive me, I know since long ago that you won't ever do it, but please, don't assume it'll be the same for them, I know I'm worth nothing but, Feliciano, he….he loves him too much, he would never dare to hurt him"
Please forgive me, please I'm sorry, I had first partial exams and I was dying.
So this is the first of the last three chapters, I hope the wait was worth.
*Yeah the song is Champagne Shoers by LMFAO, I love those guys
*I know I said I didn't like "Lovino" but I've seen many fan art and fan fiction with this name, and I kind of like it now
*Feli can get agressive at times and he swears when it happens