Chapter 20 (We comfort each other)
Antonio was walking towards the teacher's room; he had just finished the 10:00 a.m lesson "his personal favorite".
-Aww he thinks I don´t notice but he does his best at my class, but I hate when he sits in the back of the classroom he looks much better by the window, with the sunlight he looks even more handsome – sigh- why does he ignore me so much?, I know we must be careful at school but he doesn't need to be that cold- he considered the situation again -…ok maybe it´s better if he does, but I kinda find hot the teacher student situation - all kind of mental images anybody but Romano could find possible went through the Spanish´s mind- I wonder If someday I could bring Roma to do that kind of stuff with me –he shivered- he´ll surely kick my ass…but he´ll accept later.
Antonio entered the room and was greeted by a cheerful voice
"Morning ández" Tino was sitting with Berwald and Ludwig
"Good morning" the Spanish sat next to Ludwig, he just like the other teachers, felt it was better to keep a safe distance from Berwald and also from Tino, the Swedish didn't seem to enjoy people being too close to his partner.
"How was your vacation guys?, you seem so refreshed" asked Tino, since not just him but everybody who look at them could notice Lud and Toni quite relaxed and say "happy" since they came back from their trip.
"They've probably found lovers" Berwald said in a stoic voice while he kept reading his newspaper. Antonio let out a nervous laugh while Ludwig almost chocked with his tea.
Tino smiled at his partner "Berwarld you shouldn't say things like that, they make people uncomfortable"
"It was just a joke" the Swedish said in the same tone and with what intended to be a smile in his face.
"I´m sorry guys he didn't mean it, and besides I think you both really deserved a rest, you´re so compromised with your work, always seeing for what´s best for your students and supporting them…ah guys what's wrong?"
You could see the dark aura around the two men who were sulking in guilt and felt as the worst people in the world –why does he have to be my student? - They thought.
Just a minute later Mr. Edelstein entered in the room practically fuming, he walked directly to where Gilbert was preparing some coffee.
"What is it now?" said Ludwig, the quarrels between his brother and Roderich were and everyday event, some teachers had become indifferent to them, while others find them as a way of entertainment. Everybody thought that Principal Kirkland didn´t care about this situation since he didn´t attended to Roderich's complains or scolded Gilbert for his behaviour, but the true reason was, Gilbert was less problematic (but still) if he had an specific target, and Roderich turned out to be perfect for this, since they were both great elements at Hetalia Academy, Arthur just ignored their fights and let them be.
"You idiot"
"What?" Gilbert turned to face Roderich while he drank his coffee
"Haven´t you learned how to read yet or are you just naturally stupid? You used my parking lot again you ass"
Oh-oh it seemed Roderich had gone a bit too far, perhaps he had had a bad morning (he always has) but he was being more aggressive than usual, Gilbert surely won't let him go alive, there was no way in hell he…
Gilbert didn't even flinch at the other man's rant "Sorry I really didn't notice"
Roderich and everybody in the room had a shocked expression
The albino left his cup on the side and walk to the door "I'll move now", he wasn't aware of all the glances, not just his voice but his mind was somewhere else.
"Uhm Mr. Beilschimdt is your brother ok?" Tino looked concerned
"He…" Ludwig didn't know what to say, Gilbert had been behaving strange since they came back
"He lost a bet again he'll be fine" Antonio interrupted
"Oh so that explains it" Tino feel more relived, Berwald didn't look so convinced
"We have class now you guys enjoy your lunch" Tino and Berwald left the table
"Uhm Lud seriously do you know what happened to him?"
"No he hasn't told me anything, actually he hasn´t been talking as much as he does"
"Well you know Francis and I are really worried for him but there isn't much we can do, since we were kids he could never tell us if something was bothering him"
Ludwig sighed "He´s always been like that, he always had this idea that he shouldn't burden others with his problems, he won't even tell our grandpa, the only one he had as a confident was uncle Fritz but since he died he became kind of hermetic when it comes to his feelings"
"I'm sure he knows but if you know there´s something we can do let us know"
"Thanks" his brother may often do stupid choices, but when it came to his friends Ludwig knew that Gilbert had made wise decisions.
Feli read the page of the book in his hands for the third time, he did not understand a word, and he couldn't concentrate.
-Agh I'll try with something else, I have to get that report done today; he grabbed randomly another volume from the shelf and started reading "I acknowledge my weakness. I admit as well that in all the world there is no mode of pleasure-taking preferable to this; I worship it in either sex; but I'll confess a young lad's…" the fuck is this?-
Feliciano closed the book in the cover could be read Philosophy in the Bedroom by the Marquis de Sade.
-Had to be French- he put the book back on it´s place, reading those few lines had just made things worse, all day he had been thinking about "that". -I have so many doubts about it, but who could I ask for advice?-
Just then he heard the front door.
"I'm home"
-Perfect- Feli ran to receive his brother.
"Ve~ fratello welcome home"
"What's for dinner?"
"Uhm I haven't prepared anything yet, but what would you like?"
"Whatever I'm starving, I´ll go take a shower"
Romano was completely covered in dirt that was one of the many reasons Feliciano didn't like doing sports, well the fact that he suck at sports may be called the main reason.
-How am I supposed to ask him without being hurt in the process- he tried to imagine all possible scenarios, but it all ended with him being hit by his brother, -I guess it can't be helped-
Romano came downstairs fifteen minutes later already clean.
"Do we still have oreos?"
"Don't you want to wait I'm almost done"
"I'm really hungry"
Feli reached a package from the counter next to him an threw it to Romano, he missed so Romano tried to pick the package from the floor, but he couldn't go further than a few centimeters, a pain groan came out of his mouth.
"Romano are you ok?"
"Do I look ok idiot? My whole body is sore"
That was Felis hint, it was now or never, it took all his courage to answer in a mocking way to an already pissed Romano.
"Why is that? Did you and Antonio had some quality time together after class?"
"What did you say?" it was not just the anger Feli perceived in his brother's voice but the pure rage showing in his face what made him run away for his life –I over did it, I'm dead, I´m dead, Im dead-
The twins were running around the house as they hadn't in ages, they used to have this pursuits when they were younger when Feliciano managed to make his brother angry, at that age Romano just couldn't control his temper so Arsenius had to calm him down (which wasn't easy at all). This time unfortunately grandpa wasn't at home, and Feli knew he deserved being chased like this. Thank heaven he made it to his room and closed the door with lock of course.
"Fratello I'm sorry, I´m stupid it won't happen again"
"You said that the last time, your dead bastard, open the damn door or I'll fucking throw it down" Romano was smacking the door full force.
"Please I didn't mean to bother you –well actually I did- I just want to ask you something important, there's nobody else I could ask"
The noise in the door stopped for a second
"It wasn't the right way I'm sorry"
Feli heard a loud sigh in the other side of the door "Open the damn door" the voice was calmer now.
Feli hesitated a little but decided to risk it, Romano stood there arms crossed over his chest.
"Forgive me Ro…AUCH!"
"That was for being such an ass" he sighed again "I'm sorry too I kind of freaked out when you said that, how the hell did you know about me and Antonio"
Feli opened his eyes wide "Er I didn't know I just invented it"
An awkward silence surrounded them for a few seconds.
-Fuck my life- was all that came through Romano's mind at the moment
"You won't tell"
"No I promise"
"Now tell me, what did you want to talk about?"
"Uhm well I…er…well I…"
"Spit it out already"
"I want to have sex with Ludwig"
Romano's disgusted face wasn't a good sign
"Damn you idiot, agh…how could… ugh why me?"
"You're so mean Romano"
"Me? And what about you putting all those unnecessary disgusting images in my mind"
"Put Antonio in them instead and it's all solved"
Romano glared at his brother, but the suggestion wasn't that bad "why did you think it was a good idea to ask me in the first place?"
"I can't talk about this with my friends or Mr. Laurinaitis, and that just lefts you or grandpa"
They both shivered in horror at the thought of asking for advice to his very experienced grandfather.
"Fine then what's the problem, please don't tell me you don't know how to…" Romano's face was getting red, even he was the elder he was shyer than his brother in this topics.
"No, nothing of the kind, uhm the thing is that, how did you decided it was time?,uhm who mentioned first? How did you know you were ready?"
"Wooo one at the time Feli"
"Sorry"
What the hell why does he have to clear this idiot's doubts, he had his own hard time with this before, it was just fair Feliciano suffered the same, that's what Romano was telling himself when he saw that stupid pleading face on his brother, agh the insect uses the same tricks as Antonio to get him to do things that he didn't want to do (sometimes)
He thought about it for a couple of minutes "We didn't planed it at all"
"What?"
"Well it´s true, I mean we surely thought about before but…"
"But how am I supposed to know, the problem is that he's so shy and I don't know how to talk to him about it…"
"You shouldn't"
"Hu?"
"You shouldn't force things, if that's what you´re trying to do, It happens naturally, we did made comments and jokes about it but I've never felt pressure from him, uhm I don't know how to put it into words, it's because… when it happened we both knew and it all was…perfect, I couldn't have wished for it to be any other way, I know that I'm not giving you any useful information"
Feliciano had never seen this side of his brother, he knew Romano capable of loving and caring for other people, but it was the first time he saw him talking like this about somebody else. -How stupid I was, so I really am an immature kid after all-
"No actually I think you did, thanks so much I knew you would help me"
Romano blushed red "Oh yeah well I hope is the last time you come to me with this…"
Feliciano smiled and kissed his brother in the cheek sweetly, he really like doing it, Romano in the other hand hated when he did it, although this time he was gonna let it pass.
"By the way brother are you really sore because of…"
Romano face palmed how was it that his brother and Antonio could be so swe… annoyingly clingy and just in an instant ruin the entire atmosphere with their stupidness.
"No idiota!, I had training today, but the fucking red-eyes has been giving us the work out of our lives, not even Heracles can stand it, I just forgive the bastard because trains with us instead of just ordering around, he must be aiming for another championship"
"Sounds rough fratello, but see it like this, since you joined the team you look more muscular don't you?"
"I guess" Romano was aware but at the moment the rug in Feli's room seemed more interesting, he wasn't shy about it damn it!
"I bet Antonio'll notice" the death glare Feli received as an answer was enough, "I'll call you when everything's ready"
Feliciano had just finished washing the dishes when he received a message
**Subject: None
From: Ludwig
Received: 7: 38 pm
Want to have dinner at my place tomorrow?
I miss you**
Ludwig opened his mobile to read the answer he hadn't been anxiously waiting for, because that would be so embarrassing in a man his age…and thank God there was nobody around to notice how happy he was.
**Subject: Of course!
From: Feli
Received: 7: 43 pm
You tell me the time, I'll bring the dessert si~.
I miss you too 3**
He sent his answer when he heard his brother arriving.
"Bruder have you had dinner or you want to call for something?"
"No I'm fine" Gilbert entered his room without even looking at Ludwig, he emerged a few minutes later with a towel in his hands.
"What happened to you?" Ludwig pointed at Gilbert's garment
"I trained with the kids today"
"Again? Don't you think you´re going too far? you work out in the morning as well"
"Perhaps, oh and I'm going out tonight so …"
"Out? Where?"
"Dunno I'll just hang somewhere with Francis"
"Gilbert is everything alright?" Ludwig was giving his brother a truly concerned look; no doubt they often mistake them as the elder one.
Gilbert let out a snort "What's wrong with you Lud everything is fine, I'm not planning anything if that's what's worrying you" this had been the closest to the normal albino behavior, but Lud still didn't buy it.
"I'm serious; you know you can tell me anything"
"Pfft stop acting like Vatter I told you I'm fine, and please don't close the door with lock, I hate when I have to find a place to sleep just because you felt like letting me out of the apartment"
"That wouldn't happen if you were less noisy at times when normal people are sleeping"
"Why so boring Lud you'll get bald sooner"
"I'm am not boring"
"Yes you are"
"No"
"Yes"
"Stop being so childish"
"You mad?"
"Agh" Ludwig left the room really irritated
Gilbert enjoyed so much pestering his little brother "Just like when we were kids", but the joy didn't last long, it was true that since they came back he had tried his best to keep himself busy, the extra hours working out, the Spartan training he had recently put his pupils through, going out with Francis, he did everything that was in his hands so in the night he would be so tired he won't be able to think about "him", how much he hated himself for being so pitiful, it was ridiculous that in such a short time he had become so fond of an stranger, it was all his fault, he left his guard down and it was a huge mistake. He wasn't going to let anyone know how he felt, he'll eventually get over it, and he just needed some time…yeah that was all.
"Allo?"
"Hey fag I'm outside your place, are we doing something tonight?"
"Ugh Gil, I'm really not in the mood today" there was a short pause as if Francis was thinking what to say next "Why don't you come in and we drink something here"
"Are you alone?"
"You want me all for yourself? Naughty boy"
"Shut up idiot, when you meet girls at clubs I don't care, I can just pretend they are not there, but if you bring drunken bitches to your house they just get more irritating"
"What your mouth Gilbo that's no way of talking about ladies, but yeah I'm alone so are you coming anyway?"
Gilbert knew, the way Francis had just said those words was something like an invitation, they had established this protocol with the years, now it was up to Gilbert what would happen next.
"Just open the door"
A few seconds later the Frenchman opened the door.
"Welcome mon ami"
Gilbert walked inside and took his usual place in the delicious gigantic sofa thaT Francis had in the living.
"What would you like to drink?"
"Whatever is good"
"Seems somebody have a bad day other ways It will be, obviously beer what else? Francis made an exact imitation of german accent"
Gilbert let out a weak laugh "I'll never understand why didn't choose an acting career"
"Easy, I'm too perfect to pretend to be someone else" Francis came back from the small bar with the drinks in his hands and sat next to his friend.
"You're so modest"
"Look who's talking"
They talked about nothing for a few hours; they were already drunk, but they could handle their alcohol well.
"So to what do I owe the honor of your visit today?" Francis approximate dangerously to his friend
"I thought we never gave reasons" Gilbert was way too focused on his drink to pay attention to the Frenchman.
"Well today I feel curious"
"Is that so?"
"Fine if you don't want to tell me it's ok"
"Do you really wanna know?" Gilbert came out of trance and looked Francis in the eyes taking him a little of guard
"You don't have to…" the albino left his glass on the coffee table
"Force me to tell you"
-What the?- this wasn't how they usually did it, it was always Francis who started, but it wasn't as if he didn't like it, he'll just let himself go with it "I can be very persistent Gil" a mischievous smile in his face.
"Try me" Gilbert threw himself at the blond and started to ardently kiss him.
Francis responded the kiss and while doing it he stated stripping the albino, careful but skillfully he helped the german out of his shirt and pants, Gilbert had already done the same with Franci's clothes. They continued the kissing a little more, when Francis feeling they were already in the mood pulled down Gilbert's last piece of clothing and started massaging his member, first softly then a little harder, Francis hands were clearly having effect in the albino, it was all going as usual but Francis could feel something was different this time, since Gilbert called from outside his house a couple of hours ago he could tell something seemed off.
It wouldn't take him long to know, the german was till on top of him when he felt something wet on his shoulder were Gilbert's face was resting, if felt like…tears, Francis stopped abruptly and tried to move the albino from his current position so he could face him, but Gilbert didn't let him move.
"So that's why you´re here tonight" it was more an affirmation than a question, Gilbert however remained silent.
"Mon amour doing this wasn't going to help you feel better…not this time" the albino still didn't answer
"Crap this guy must really have gotten to you" Francis didn't intend to mock his friend, actually he could really feel all the sadness that his friend was experiencing, he could tell how much pain he was feeling.
"I fucked off everything, I always do"
"It's part of our nature Gilbo, that's how we are, but we still have each other"
At the last words Gilbert hugged his friend, this was the most vulnerable he had ever been in front of someone else. Francis just hugged him tighter but said nothing else, they remained in that position until they fell asleep.
The one in which everybody has dirty thoughts and well ...Francis.
So yeah their relationship was THAT close.
Forgive me there are tons of mistakes but tomorrow I start school again, luckily my first class is at 11:00 a.m but I still have to unpack some stuff and its 2:00 a.m.
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