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The toy deep in the depths of my bag is a burning hole of annoyance. I waited for her to reciprocate, to feel something.
She left! Was this my only sign to do something, before she found someone better for her. "You should use your intelligence for others" Is the best I can give her, what she wants? Sighing I turn into the dining hall with an aching head. She might not find someone good for her, someone else.
Then again, looking at the banner hanging over the dining hall she might try. I wince at the boldly written words and the possibility of their truth.
Ha Ni rushes from the dining hall, taking the air beside me. Spinning to follow, I leave a speechless He Ra and bemused friends. Walking up beside her I grasp her hand and pull her round away from the crowds. 'Really? That's what its come to now?' I say looking down at her unreadable face.
'You left without saying anything! What are you trying to do?' I say trying to fathom her actions. I'm a lot closer than I'm sure she'd appreciate but I want an answer. Her hand finds contact with my face, Slap.
'Stop it,' she shouts, 'You walk past me and forget my presence. And yet when you choose someone else and I no longer want to be beside you, your infuriated!' tears dampen her angry face.
Staggered back I'm admonished to feel my heart racing. She'd put me down, loudly. Stepping forward, 'Ha Ni ya,' I say stretching my hand out to take hers. My own eyes feel uneasy to think I'd hurt her. 'Why did you leave?' I ask.
Pressing her lips together as another tear falls down her face. 'That's why,' she says pulling her hand away from mine as He Ra approaches. She looks over my shoulder and before I can say another word runs past me. Seeing her run to Joon Gu's side is a blur to my confusion.
I don't want to run from Seung Jo in some ways, but he had chosen He Ra. Moving out had been a choice to move on from all of this. 'Joon Gu, can you take me home?' I ask wiping my salty tears away. 'Ha Ni ya, what did he do? Did he try something? I'll kill him,' Grabbing onto Joon Gu's arm I stop him. The great hulking friend before me presents safety, or at least an opportunity to leave.
'Can you just take me home?' I ask willing him to drop it. Looking into my eyes and understanding my need to be away he glances at my hand and shoots Seung Jo a dirty look. Glancing over my shoulder I see him standing exactly where we'd been, as though I might still return. He leads me on and plays with my feelings and as He Ra walks up beside him and takes his hand, their eyes meet and I turn away before I have to see anymore. This is the reason after all, I left.
Ha Ni places her hand on his arm and my fingers clench. I almost run over but a hand finds it way to my own. 'Seung Jo?' the voice is uncertain. Moments before Ha Ni had shrank from my touch, wanting nothing to do with me. But she runs to Joon Gu?
'Is something wrong?' Turning to look beside me I barely see through the cloud of anger within my head. Realising who it is I let it blow away sighing.
Pulling my hand away I rush my hand through my hair, 'I have to go.' Walking in the opposite direction to Ha Ni, I doubt I could concentrate again after this.
Finding myself in the library I get out my books and start to work. I glance at my phone and try to write some more, no messages. I want to call her, or even ask to see her, just some way to change things. I put it back down and try to answer the questions on the page, much more simple.
Getting all the way to Seung Jo's house, probably not the best idea I'd had all day. I slapped him, how could I have done that. Stupid, stupid. Walking up the front steps I wonder why I came here.
I hear something fall over inside, waking up from my day-loathing I push the door open. 'Ommani, Eun Jo Yah!' I slip my shoes off and slip into the slippers. Someone shouts from inside and I hurry into the living room.
'Eun Jo Yah!' little brother lies on the floor. 'Eun Jo Yah! Eun Jo Yah, What's wrong?' I say placing my hands on his face. His head is burning and his hair is sticking to his face. 'My stomach…' he says crying.
'Your stomach hurts? What about mom, where is she?' I ask trying to make sense.
'Vacation…'
'Vacation? What to do,' I say holding him still as I reach for the phone. 'Hold on,' I say reassuring Eun Jo.
Three hours later:
'Thank you,' I hear her thank the nurse as she stands beside Eun Jo's bed. 'My parents are coming back on an evening flight,' I say checking on him again. 'The doctor complimented you. He said your quick actions made the surgery easier.'
'If you hadn't told me what to do, I wouldn't have been able to do anything,' she says dejectedly.
'I had no idea, I really had no idea…that such a scary thing could happen.' I say looking at my brother lying in the hospital bed.
She's silent and then, 'I'll call my dad. He must be worried.'
'Oh Ha Ni,' I don't want her to leave.
'Where did I leave my cell phone and wallet?' she looks befuddled, 'Really, how old am I to be doing this?' she says twisting her fingers together. I put my hand on her shoulder to stop her self hate. I connect us more than that though and she stops.
'You know, about earlier with Joon Gu,' she says hesitantly. I put my other hand around her shoulder, placing me behind her. 'You don't need to explain everything to me,' I say. For a moment she stands against my chest but as she turns into my arms I hold her there.
I feel her warm tears as she lets the fear for Eun Jo fall out. 'Everything's all right now.' With this unexpected peace between us I feel that maybe things will be, I'm warm.
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