A/N: I should have been studying today but I wrote this instead. Bellathebelle Tabitha's Dad is revealed in this post. Thanks. Ziah thank you, I am glad you are loving it. Chris thank you that's what I thought too. Ronan Blair's past is revealed now. Thanks. Sandra thank you. HnM Skinnys thanks. Littlemissme, I can understand your point but I based Tabitha off a four year old in my family. She, like Tabitha was brought up around adults so she is able to carry on a conversation like Tabitha. My reasoning is that she is the only company that Blair has had so she talks to her like an adult. Thanks for your review. DIYer4life thank you. Anataly thanks.

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Chapter 3: Coffee and Confessions

Blair sat in her hotel room early the next morning with the envelope Chuck had sent up sitting in front of her. She was scared to open it because she knew she really wanted to take the job. She would finally have security for her and her daughter, she could finally provide her daughter with a better life but would she really be providing it? Would all the credit go to Chuck? She and Chuck had a very unstable relationship in the past, could she really put her daughter's life in the hands of their relationship? She had no really choice, she did not want to bring her daughter up in hostels that contained goodness knows what diseases in it.

Tabitha had spent the previous night exploring the suite. She was amazed when Blair told her she had her own room. She spent ten minutes jumping on her bed before declaring she had a headache. Blair laughed and lifted her off the bed. She set her on the sofa and turned some cartoons on for her. She had finally tired herself out and fell asleep on the sofa. Blair carried her to bed and sat up the rest of the night thinking over her decision. Tabitha coming into see Blair at half seven this morning brought Blair back to reality.

"Hey Tabs, how do you fancy living here all the time?"

Tabitha turned round and leaned over the back of the sofa "do we not live here now?"

Blair laughed "well we were only meant stay here for a couple of days but Chuck said if we wanted we could make this our home. What do you think?"

"Mom it is awesome" was all Tabitha said in response. She climbed down for the sofa and began exploring again. She opened all the drawers she had already opened, and looked inside all the closets she had already looked inside. Blair opened the envelope and read through her job description. She knew this was what she had to do weather it was easy or not.

"We are going to live here and I am going to work for Chuck. I am going to be his communication director."

"That's a big word."

Blair laughed "Yeah and an even bigger job, if I take it we would stay and not travel anymore."

"I want to stay here." Tabitha smiled "it is the best place ever."

"Yeah it is." Blair smiled "I want to stay here too. Shall I tell Chuck that I want to work here?"

"Yes"

Blair pulled her bag up onto the bed and opened it. She rummaged through the small amount of clothes she had with her. She realised she had nothing appropriate to wear, the only thing she could wear was this black dress with a different cardigan. She pulled out a white and yellow dress she could wear for breakfast this morning. She wanted to look nice for Chuck. She scolded herself for that thought, she had to stop thinking about Chuck like that. She held the dress up to her body and walked into the living room and stood in front of Tabitha "what do you think of this dress?"

"It's pretty. Where are you going?"

"We are going to have breakfast with Chuck"

Tabitha climbed onto the bed and looked at Blair "Mommy, does Mister Chuck have a girlfriend?"

Blair stared back into the bag looking for some shoes. That was the question she didn't want to ask herself, she was scared what the answer would be. She knew she had to right to hope he didn't have one, it made her selfish. She left him, she ran away from him. She had no right to hope he had nobody in his life. Blair pulled some white pumps out of the bag "I don't know. Why?"

"Because you don't have a boyfriend so I thought Mister Chuck could be your boyfriend."

"Stop thinking so much Tabbi, you are four not forty. You are meant to be thinking about your doll not me." Blair said trying to laugh. She slipped the dress over her head and pulled it down over her thin body. What if Chuck did have a girlfriend? She hadn't even thought of that when she turned up here this morning. What if he had moved on? She couldn't blame him. Had she really expected him to still be waiting for her five years later? Yet again he had come to her rescue but he had always come to Serena's rescue, but could that have been because they were family? Where did that leave her?

"Dolls are for babies Mom"

Blair heard Tabitha speaking but she wasn't really listening. She was worrying about where she stood with Chuck. She had no idea what she had expecting when she turned up here. She had told herself she excepted Chuck to tell her he would take care of her but she did she expect them to get back together. She looked back to the envelope. She realised she had no idea what he even expected of her. "Tabs why don't you go and pick out what you want to wear today."

"Ok." Tabitha climbed off the bed and walked towards the living room "you look really pretty Mommy."

"Thanks babe" Blair smiled

Blair stood in front of the mirror and began to pin her hair back. She stared at her face in the mirror. She looked a lot older than a twenty four year old. She knew child birth made you older but she wasn't expecting to look this old. She walked over to the chair in the bedroom where her handbag was sitting. She pulled out a small make up bag and tried to cover her dark rings with some powder but it didn't really work that well. She looked like a completely different person than the girl she used to be in high-school. The girl who always ended up on the best dressed pages of the New York magazines. She wondered what they would say about her now.

A few minutes later Tabitha walked back into the living room wearing a purple skirt and a white top. She walked up to Blair and handed her a pair of white tights to help her put them on. Blair then picked up her hair brush and began to brush Tabitha's long dark hair. "Are you ready for breakfast?"

"Yes, let's go" Tabitha nodded

Blair and Tabitha smiled at each other as Blair knocked Chuck's door. Blair smoothed out her dress with one hand and held the envelope tight in the other. She thought her heart was going to bounce out of her chest. Chuck answered the door. He was wearing a different suit from earlier, Blair decided she liked this one better because it brought out his eyes.

"Good morning ladies" Chuck smiled gesturing for Blair and Tabitha to enter the suite. She was shocked to find it looked exactly like hers did. She realised that Chuck really would do anything for her and that made her excited and nervous at the same time.

"Hi" Blair replied

"Good morning" Tabitha smiled "Wow there is a lot of food here"

"A lady should always have choice." Chuck smiled putting his hand on the small of Blair's back. She felt tingles shoot up her spine at his touch. He guided her over to the table that had been transformed into a dinner table. She looked at the candles that had been placed in the middle of the table. She bit her lip as he pulled out a chair for her. She sat down and placed her hands on her lap. Chuck removed the silver covers from the top of the plates and Tabitha gasped at the sight of pancakes.

"Thank you" Blair smiled setting the envelope down beside her

Chuck sat down across from Blair "you are welcome."

The three commenced eating in silence. Blair wasn't quite sure what to say and then Chuck broke the silence by striking up a conversation with Tabitha. It delighted and disturbed Blair when she realised this was like a family breakfast. She looked at Chuck and saw the father Tabitha never had, she looked at Tabitha and she her eyes dance. She began to worry what this would do to her if she messed things up again.

After breakfast Blair took Tabitha down to the play room before returning to Chuck's suite. Upon entering she saw two coffee cup's sitting on the table in the living room. She sat down on sofa beside Chuck and picked up her cup.

"Chuck I can't even begin to thank you for everything you have done for me and Tabitha, she is in awe of you."

"You don't need to thank me. What else would I have done?"

"Sent me away." Blair laughed nervously, "I mean I treated you like crap in the past."

"I was pretty bad to you too Blair." Chuck lifted his cup to his mouth and stared at Blair. She looked at him puzzled "what's wrong?"

"I have to ask Blair, where did you go?"

Blair took a deep breath. She knew this conversation was coming but she still wasn't prepared for it. She took a large sip of her coffee and looked at the ground. "I went out to California for a while, and then I kept moving around. I knew you had people looking for me so I couldn't stay in one place for too long."

"What happened when you got pregnant?"

Blair set her coffee cup back onto the table and then leaned back "I pretended it wasn't happening, but that only lasted for a few months. I couldn't deny it when my clothes stopped fitting me. I was working flat out to save money for her. Until I was six months I worked three jobs, then I had to cut down. I had saved enough that I could talk a year off to be her Mom, but then I had to go back to work to support her. I moved about six months ago because one of your investigators found me. I moved to Ohio and got a job there but I got fired three weeks ago. Too many bartenders, not enough bars. I hadn't saved any money so I was out of options."

"Why didn't you come back when you found out you were pregnant?"

"Because there was the "Find Blair" campaign on Gossip Girl. I couldn't come back here then. I couldn't even accept the fact I was pregnant, how could I expect the vultures too?"

"I have been doing the maths over and over again in my head. You must have gotten pregnant a few months after you left." Chuck said quietly. After spending some time with Tabitha he felt a slight twinge when he reminded himself she wasn't hers.

Blair knew what Chuck was asked and she looked at the ground "I was gone five months when I found out I was pregnant. Her father is someone who worked with me at the time."

"Does he know about her?"

"Yes, he didn't want her. He told me to get rid of her, so I left a few days later."

Chuck wasn't quite sure what to say to that. He took a sip of his coffee and then looked back over to Blair. "It's his loss."

"Yeah" Blair smiled sadly, "she asks about him from time to time. I have told her very little about him. I don't want to know anything about him, she deserves so much better than the life he could have given her."

"You both do."

Blair wasn't quite sure what to say. She thought it would have easier if Chuck was mad at her instead of being this understanding. It hurt slightly more that he wasn't mad, if it wasn't for Tabitha the past four years would have been a waste.

Chuck reached over and took Blair's hand "It's going to be ok, you are home now."