A/N: I have my second exam in the morning and it is clear I am going to fail since I sat up until ten to twelve writing this instead of studying. Ronan thank you for your help. I don't get my grade to August but I hope I have passed. Reginator hope this will keep you happy for a week. LovelyG I don't really understand that post but thanks anyway. Myosh Thank you. Right I am off to bed. Read and review you lovely people

Chapter 4: I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship

Blair stood in the office Chuck had assigned for her. It was big to say the least. She ran her fingers over the back of the sofa as she surveyed the room. Her eyes caught the envelopes sitting on the desk. There was four sitting in a row. She walked over and sat down on the large black swivel chair. She glanced around the desk, everything was in perfect order. She twirled the chair around a couple of times before she stopped. The door knocked and she turned round to see Serena leaning on the frame. Blair braced herself for the wrath of an anger Serena but instead she simply got a smile. Blair stood up and walked round to the front of the desk. Serena wrapped her arms the thin Blair, the two girls began crying. After a moment the pull apart.

"Hi," Blair smiled as she wiped a tear from her cheek, "it's been a while."

"You're telling me," Serena laughed nervously, "you look exactly the same and completely different at the same time."

Blair laughed and pulled Serena over to the sofa and sat down. She took Serena's hand in hers. Serena placed her hand on top of hers, "where did you go Blair? Is it true that you have a child? Why didn't you tell me? Are you back for good? Are you ok? Where you ok when you left?"

"Wow that's a lot of questions," Blair exhaled, "I don't really know where to start."

"Sorry, I just need to know because we thought we looked everywhere for you but clearly not when we didn't find you."

"We never stayed in the same place for any length of time. I started off in California five years ago, fell pregnant and ended up in Ohio a few months ago completely broke. I had no choice but to come back here. Yes it is true that I have a child. Her name is Tabitha, she is four."

"Who is the father? Is it Chuck?"

Blair shook her head sadly, "No a guy back in California. He is not important anymore."

"I don't understand why you didn't tell me. You know you could have come home and we all would have supported you."

"I was so scared Serena, I didn't know what I was going to do with a child. When I left all the vultures wanted answers, and I wasn't ready to give anyone answers, let alone have to read the Gossip Girl blasts about me. Then when I had her it had been so long since I had been home I didn't think I could come back." Blair shrugged, "I know this sounds selfish and makes me out to be a complete Bitch, but I only came back because I needed somewhere to stay and I was hoping Chuck would put us up."

Serena shook her head, "It makes you sound like a great Mom. I know what you went through that summer now, except I have been going through it for five years."

"I'm sorry, I just figured that if I came back everyone would hate me and judge me. I didn't want people staring at Tabitha, or when she was older have to read what a slut her Mom was on the internet."

"The people who love you don't think that Blair."

"Yes but the rest of the Upper East Side do. I know it is going to come out sooner or later but I just want her to have the best life possible before she has to deal with my past and all the crap that comes with it."

"Blair I am sure she won't care, she is your daughter."

"I know, I just don't want people to hold her accountable for my mistakes."

"Can I see a picture?"

Blair nodded and stood up. She walked over to the desk and lifted her wallet off it. She opened it and took out a picture to hand to Serena.

"Wow she looks just like you. She is so beautiful Blair."

"She is amazing, I can't even begin to describe her. She is just the best thing in the world. She is ridiculously smart for a four year old. Sometimes I think I just take her to NASA or somewhere because she is so smart, but I am probably I little biased."

"She probably get's it from her Mom."

"The NYU drop out you mean," Blair laughed quietly as she sat back down, "no that's all her. She got some freaky smart gene from somewhere. She is really artistic, I think she get's that from my Mom."

"Does she know?"

Blair shook her head, "No I haven't spoken to her since the week before I left. I don't even know where she lives anymore. The only person who is consistent in my life is Tabbi now."

"How did you do it Blair? I mean you where the girl who wore Alexander McQueen to the first day of kindergarten who told us you were going to change the world one day, and now you are living and working in Chuck Bass' hotel."

"She changed my life. I wish there was something else I could do but I had to ask for help for her sake. I didn't want her to grow up in hostels all her life. She comes first. She is the absolute love of my life. Chuck offered me and her a life I could not provide for us. I had to take it. It may be selfish but she is my first and only priory."

"I don't understand but it seems like she has brought out the best of you."

"She has, she changed me and I am glad she did."

"Blair please don't leave me again. I missed you."

A tear rolled down Blair's face as she leaned over and hugged Serena, "I missed you too." She whispered, "I'm sorry that I left for so long, and I am back for good."

The door knocked and Chuck walked in with Tabitha in his arms. She looked from her Mom to Serena and back to her Mom with the confusion written over her face. Blair laughed and pulled away from Serena wiping her face. "Hey babe, this is Serena, she was your my best friend in high school."

Serena stood up and walked over to Chuck holding her hand out to Tabitha, " hello, it's nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too, but why are you and Mommy sad?"

"There are happy tears," Serena answered wiping her face, "I have not seen your Mom in a long, long time."

"But people cry when they are sad, and smile when they are happy. I'm confused."

Blair laughed as she stood up. Chuck couldn't take his eyes off her. As much as it always killed him to see her cry, her eyes never looked more beautiful than when she had been crying. There was always a sparkle in them that he had always been sad that he could never remember.

Blair laughed and walked over to Chuck and lifted Tabitha out of his arms, "sometimes when people get so happy they get over whelmed and they cry."

Tabitha screwed up her face, "that doesn't make sense."

Chuck laughed, "if you are waiting for those to make sense it you will be waiting a very very long time."

"I should get going. I have to go to work, but we should do dinner some time. Nobu or somewhere," Serena said hugging Blair and Tabitha at the same time.

"That sounds good. We have a lot to catch up on."

"We don't half" Serena laughed, "it was nice to meet you Tabitha, I hope to see you soon."

"Bye Miss Serena." Tabitha smiled. After Serena had left the room Blair set Tabitha on the table and took a compact out of her purse. Tabitha looked up at her Mom, "you don't like her very much do you Mommy?"

Blair and Chuck exchanged a look and then looked down at Tabitha. Blair frowned, "why would you say that babe?"

"Because you are crying, you must really dislike her because you have panda eyes now. You only get them when you are sad or angry."

Chuck laughed "Miss Tabitha, I would advise you not to try and understand your Mom. I have tried to do that since I was fourteen, it is impossible."

Tabitha twisted her body round to face Chuck, "you know Mister Chuck, I think you are smarter than Mommy said you were. I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship."

Chuck stared at the child in awe and then looked at Blair, "did she just quote Casablanca to me?"

"Yep, get used it to, you will get one of those every couple of days, and the odd dash of Lady Gaga thrown in for good measure," Blair smiled

Chuck looked back to the child, "Miss Tabitha I think you are right"