5. I love that you have one person you trust blindly

One of the first things he learns about his partner is that trust doesn't come easy for her. He doesn't know why but he doesn't ask either. It's something everyone is the group seems to understand so he has the feeling that he will understand what's going on, sooner or later. It's not like she's easy for him to read. No, Kensi Blye is a mystery and she tries her hardest to keep it that way. She puts up walls around herself to keep everyone outside her own little world.

He can't break those walls, at least not on the beginning of their partnership because he doesn't know her nearly well enough to do such a thing. There are certain things she does and certain things she says that make no sense to him and that make him fear for her mental sanity. But then he looks around and Callen always has that look on his face that allows him to sigh in defeat. The truth is that Callen seems to understand everything about her.

He should feel jealous.

He doesn't.

While growing up, he never had anyone who he trusted blindly. His life wasn't exactly easy so it probably made it harder for him to trust people just like that. Kensi is similar to him when it comes to that. He doesn't know her motives but knows that she takes a while to trust man. It's not people. Sam corrected him once when he said that Kensi had issues with trusting people. She has issues trusting men. And it only makes him more curious.

He doesn't ask her anything about it, feels like he has no right to intrude in her personal life like that. But one day, out of the blue, she starts talking while driving to a crime scene.

"Look, I know that this is highly unfair to you. But this is who I am."

Deeks frowns because he's suddenly afraid that he pushed her into having this conversation, even if without meaning to do it. "Kensi, I never said a word about who you are. Or at least I never meant what I said about who you are."

Kensi sighs and keeps looking at the road but doesn't let go of this conversation, something that surprises him because she's usually the one who drops the ball when a talk gets too personal. "I know you didn't. But you are my partner and I feel like there are certain things you should know about me. The problem is that I'm not ready to tell you yet. I'm sorry, Deeks."

He sighs. "Kensi, do you think that cops used to have this kind of conversations with me back in LAPD? This is who you are and I accept that…no questions asked. I know that you have some issues when it comes to trusting people but I also know that if I play my cards right you'll let me in, sooner or later. Am I wrong?"

Kensi shakes her head without taking her eyes off the road. "You're not wrong but I know that it must feel kind of weird to see that there are people inside the building who know your partner better than you."

He can't lie to her so he doesn't even bother trying to deny that. "Yes, it does. But I also think that it's great that you have someone who you trust blindly. I never had anyone like that in my life."

Kensi parks her car outside their crime scene and looks at him with a smile on her face. "I trust Callen blindly but I hope that I will trust you just as much soon."

With that she gets out of the car and he follows her, a goofy smile on his face. He can't wait to know what that feels like.

He wants to know what it feels like to trust someone blindly and be trusted blindly in return.

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Okay, I have a very important thing to tell you all (my readers, of course).

When I first started writing this story I really felt like it was a good idea but now I'm not so sure. I'm not doing this only to ask for some reviews but I would like to know if you guys want me to continue writing this story or not.

So, please, take 2 minutes of your time and tell me what you think about this today. Should I continue or leave it like this?

Sarah