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Chapter Four

'She's late,' Phil grumbled as he lit another cigarette.

'Dad, she's five fucking minutes late so what? Can you please go easy on her? She has a lot on her mind…'

'Yeah well she'll have even more on her fucking mind once I'm finished with her!'

'DAD!' Josh snapped, he knew that he was more than a little pissed off with Shannon but arguing was not going to help any of them. 'Can you please try and be at least civil to her? Whether you like it or not, she's the mother of my child okay? We both made mistakes in the past, this isn't all down to her, I was a dick…..'

'She still should have fucking told you about the baby!'

'You're right, I should have,' Josh jumped when Shannon's voice spoke from behind them, they'd been waiting outside for her but evidently she had been waiting in the terminal, probably a good idea considering how cold it was.

'I came a little early so I could get us the plane tickets, I wanted to make sure that we were on this flight,' she handed the tickets over to Phil and Josh, the former took his wallet out and began to pull out dollar bills before Shannon stopped him. 'I don't want any money Phil, the least I can do is pay for the flights.'

'And you think that's gonna make everything better huh?'

'No Phil believe me, nothing will be better until Caitlin is well again. I know that I fucked up okay? But I can't change anything, I don't want there to be any animosity between us for Caitlin's sake. The last thing that she needs to see is us fighting or calling each other names, can we at least try to be civil to one another for her?' Shannon asked and Josh held his breath for his father's response.

'Go and wait inside for us, I need to talk to her in private,' he growled and Josh immediately looked at Shannon who nodded her head.

As soon as Josh was out of earshot, Phil pulled Shannon towards him.

'I don't want you fucking my son around again, you got that?' He snapped.

'Phil I came here for Caitlin, I didn't come here to win Josh back or to rekindle any romance that we once had…'

'That might be the case but I know my son Shannon and I know that he still loves you…'

'Jesus Phil it's been over ten years! I know how many women he's had, hundreds if not fucking thousands since me!'

'You really have no fucking idea do you?' Phil glared at her and Shannon looked at him confused.

'No, I really don't have any idea.'

'For months after you left you know what he did? He would drive around the fucking streets until the early hours looking for you, hoping that you would turn up somewhere. If he wasn't out looking for you he was up in his fucking room online trying to track you down, but your mom seemed to do a damn good job in covering your tracks….'

'Tell me something then Phil, if he missed me so fucking much, if he loved me that much, why the fuck did he sleep with my friend a couple of days after I left? Or didn't you know about that?' She snapped, inside her heart was breaking after hearing what he had to say.

'Emily? That little bitch told him that she knew where you were, she told him that if he slept with her, she'd give him your new address, your new phone number so yeah, he fucked her and guess what? Nothing, he got nothing. You broke his heart Shannon, I thought that you were the best thing that ever happened to him but you weren't, you were the worst. I'm not standing by and letting you hurt him all over again, we're coming to California for Caitlin and I'm warning you, stay away from Josh,' Shannon didn't get the chance to respond to anything Phil had said, as soon as he'd finished speaking he went straight inside.

She stood outside, shaking after hearing what Phil had said. She'd always believed that Josh would be fine, that he would move on and find someone to take his mind away from her. After his reaction to her pregnancy, she had genuinely thought that he didn't care all that much for her, she convinced herself that she'd just been a piece of pussy to him and nothing more. Hearing what Phil had to say just made her feel a million times guiltier about everything she had done.

She'd kept him from his daughter for ten years and both he and Caitlin had suffered as a consequence of her actions. She'd always thought that she'd been a good mother but no good mother would have acted like she had over the past ten years. She would never be able to make up for the time he'd lost and Phil was right, she was the worst thing that had ever happened to him and she owed it to both of them to try and stay away from him, she'd caused him enough pain already.

'That was quick,' Josh said as he saw his dad coming into the airport after only a couple of minutes alone with Shannon. He looked behind his dad, expecting to see her following him but she was nowhere to be seen. He shot his dad a glare and tried to go past him to go outside and look for her when his father pulled him back.

'Leave her alone Josh, I mean it. You're going to California for Caitlin and ONLY for Caitlin, you got that?'

'Whether you like it or not, this is MY fucking life dad. You're trying to make Shannon out to be the fucking devil or something and she's not! I was a fucking idiot back then, when she told me she was pregnant the first thing I fucking said was that she should get rid of the baby, I didn't even say one word about her keeping it, is it any fucking wonder why she left like she did? She thought I didn't give a shit about her and I made her feel like that so don't go blaming all this shit on her because it's not fair….'

'You still love her don't you?' Josh knew that he couldn't lie to his father, he could try but he'd never get away with it. His dad knew him better than anyone and he could tell straightaway if he was telling the truth or not.

'You know how I feel about her dad but you should also know that I have no intention of trying to get back with her because I know I'm not good enough, never was never will be,' Josh walked away from his father before he could say anything, he needed to be alone, he didn't need to be told to stay away from Shannon again.

He knew that his father was only trying to protect him but he was twenty eight years old, he was old enough to make his own decisions and choose his own path. As much as he wanted to go to California, meet his daughter, get her better then try to win Shannon back, he knew that he wasn't good enough for her. She could have almost any guy in the entire world and there was no way that she would choose to have him back, he was absolutely sure of that.

Shannon took a few minutes to gather herself before going back inside the airport to find Phil and Josh. She spotted Phil almost straightaway, he was sitting next to some old man deep in conversation but she couldn't see Josh.

She didn't really want to go and sit next to Phil and try to make conversation so she decided to go and grab a coffee instead. Once she had bought her coffee, she sat over in the corner and pulled out her Kindle from her bag. She tried to concentrate enough to read but Phil's words kept spinning around in her head like a broken record. She took her last sip of coffee and she was about to get up and leave to find Josh when a group of women came and sat on the table next to her. Their topic of conversation immediately piqued her interest and instead of leaving, she decided to stay and eavesdrop.

'Oh come on Fran don't be so upset! You had BOTH the Hillstrand brothers!'

'I didn't come here for them though did I? I came here for Josh and YOU were the only one that got him!' The woman called Fran huffed and folded her arms across her balloon like chest.

'Listen honey, you didn't miss anything! He's tiny and I mean TINY! I couldn't feel a fucking thing!' This ugly blonde tramp who Fran was so jealous of sneered and Shannon could feel her temperature rising. She was lying, she had been with Josh enough times to know that he was NOT tiny by any means. The chances were he hadn't gone anywhere near her and she was lying to try and impress her dumb friends.

'He made me suck his cock for like half an hour then when he FINALLY went down on me, the stupid motherfucker couldn't find a clit if he had a sat nav directing him to it!'

She wasn't going to listen to any more of this shit, something had to be said. She got up out of her seat and walked over to their table.

'Um excuse me, I couldn't help overhearing you talking about Josh…'

'Uh, this is none of your fucking business honey..'

'Let me tell YOU something honey, you probably couldn't feel anything because your pussy is so fucking wide that you could fit a truck up there and as for him not being able to find a clit, he found mine every fucking time so I suggest you shut the fuck up and quit telling lies about him,' She snapped.

'Who the fuck do you think you are?' Blondie stood up and went face to face with Shannon but she wasn't scared, not one bit.

'I'm….'

'She's the mother of my child so I suggest you back the fuck up right NOW!' Shannon felt her skin blush as Josh appeared from seemingly nowhere to come and join in with the argument.

Blondie immediately did as she was told, sitting down as her friends all looked at Josh open mouthed.

'Come on, let's go get some air,' Josh held out his hand to her and she took it without thinking.

They walked out of the airport hand in hand and she couldn't get over how good it felt to be so close to him again. When they got outside, she corrected herself and pulled her hand out of his, she had promised Phil to stay away from him and that's exactly what she had to try and do. She had broken his heart before and she would never be able to repair it no matter what she did.

'Thanks for sticking up for me in there,' Josh smirked, he'd heard everything that she had said and he had to admit, his ego felt pretty fucking huge.

'Well you would have done the same for me, I think,' Shannon blushed, he'd obviously heard everything that she'd said judging by the dopey fucking look on his face.

'I just want you to know that I didn't fuck her, I didn't fuck any of them…'

'Josh, you can fuck whoever you choose to fuck. We're not together any more, you don't have to keep it in your pants for my sake okay? You don't owe me any explanations, we're both single and we can do what we want, I'm gonna go back inside, I need to take a piss before we get on the flight,' she sighed heavily before heading back into the airport.

She didn't want to take a piss at all, she just had to get the hell away from him. The more time she spent with him, the more her resolve started to wilt. He was still as gorgeous as he had been back in High School and he still had that annoying fucking ability to make her smile even when she was pissed off at him. He was such a fucking fucker and it was frustrating, why couldn't he be ugly or something?

Josh watched as Shannon walked away from him, the old memories of their times together just kept flooding back every time he was close to her. He remembered every date, every kiss, every touch, every time they'd made love, she was engrained in his brain and he couldn't do anything about it.

He'd thrown himself into a whirlwind of drink, women and fast living ever since she'd left but nothing made him stop thinking about her. Meeting Caitlin was only going to make his feelings for her mother even stronger than they already were. No matter what he did, he was never going to fall out of love with Shannon Andrews, his first and only love.