Oh god, I cannot believe how long it's been since I last updated. I am so sorry that it's taken so long. I've actually had this chapter finished since 6 or 7 months back but I just didn't feel like updating. This is a chapter that I don't really like, it's bad, really bad. I don't like the storyline of it, I don't like anything about it. But I'm uploading it cause this is how I decided that it would go and this is how i'm going to continue writing it. I just hope that you like it.

There will only be one or two more chapters to this story I think, cause I really need to finish it. And if I make it any longer, it will never, ever be finished.

So, to my old fans out there. It's finally here, the seventh chapter. And I know, it's short. Sorry~

Chapter 7

Alex watched as Michael bent down over her to check on her injuries.

"You alright, Alex?" She wanted to shake her head, to tell him that, no. She wasn't alright. Not anymore. Not after Nikita. In some ways that little encounter had ruined her, again. Her old nightmares had come back, the ones from her childhood. And now there new ones too. Ones with Nikita in them, and it ruined her. Crushed her like a bug. She'd overheard Amanda talking to Percy about canceling her, and strangely enough, he had refused. Told her that she was a necessity for Divison. Alex had no idea why Percy had suddenly gotten interested in her, but it scared her. It scared her to death. Cause if he dug enough he would find out the truth, the truth about her coming here, about her past. Why she actually searched for that man in the drug store. He would find out about her secret.

"Yeah, I'm fine." She halfheartedly smiled at him, for reassurance.

"You don't look fine." She shrugged.

"It hurt, but I'm fine." Michael didn't look convinced, still he nodded and left her to sleep.

Alex sat down in the food court, she was poking her food with the fork, pushing it around on the plate. She hadn't been able to sleep anything that night, or at least not more than half an hour before the nightmares had awoken her. And now here she was, not able to eat her breakfast, which was probably delicious. A heavy sigh escaped her lips. Nowadays she could barely do anything, she couldn't eat, and couldn't sleep and she could barely even workout. Some days she sat with Birkhoff, watching him work with the computers, but mostly she was just like a zombie, zoning out and staring into empty air. At first she'd thought she'd been okay when she woke up in the hospital wing, but no. Apparently she had been in shock, and the drugs they gave her were pretty heavy. One night she'd tried to steal some of them, but Michael had caught her, she'd told a swift lie about how her wounds hurt and she wanted something against it. He'd given her two painkillers and a pat on the back before sending her to her room again. Alex had tried asking the doctor for some, but he'd told her that since she'd been a junkie it wasn't possible. Those painkillers were too dangerous for her, apparently they were addictive. So yeah, her life was a living hell and there was nothing she could do about it except sit around.

A hand on her shoulder was what awoke her from her zombie state, an unwilling shiver went down her spine and froze her whole body up.

"Alex?" She turned her face and stared into the eyes of Michael. "How are you doing?" Once again she shrugged, "You look a bit… Off." There was a concerned look in his eyes.

"I've just been sleeping bad, that's all." She brushed his hand from her shoulder and grabbed the fork, forcing food into her mouth. Alex heard the scraping from a chair as Michael sat down next to her.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He leaned forward, checking her face for clues. Alex closed her eyes and chewed the food slowly, swallowing hard.

"It's just that my body hurt, I can't really lie down." Keep the act up, Alex. You can do this.

"Sometimes I hear you, you know. Screaming in your dreams. Is it about Nikita?" Alex looked away, she knew that her eyes would fail her.

"Nah, just memories. Doc said the drugs could do this to me." Actually, he hadn't. He'd told her quite the opposite. Michael slowly nodded as she turned to face him again, she smiled. "So you don't have to worry about it, Michael. I really am fine." The smile was forced and she knew Michael could see it. He looked hurt as he nodded again and left her alone at the table. Alex let out a breath she hadn't known she was holding in and continued to poke the food. This couldn't continue, she had to get better, otherwise they might start to do checkups on her. With her last strength she pushed more food into her mouth, chewed and then swallowed. She waited and nodded, it seemed to be working. Just as she was about to fill her mouth again, she felt it. Alex, threw herself away from the table and ran with all her might to the bathroom, slamming the door shut behind her.

"DAMN IT!" Alex shouted as her fist connected with the wall. She was panting heavily and she felt like her whole body had turned inside out. What the hell was going on? She really couldn't eat anymore, it was like her body rejected food. There was a knock on the door, then silence, then another knock.

"Alex?" Her heart froze. Amanda. No, no, no. God, please not her. "Alex, open the door." Alex took a deep breath and unlocked the door. Amanda opened it and stepped inside, she slowly closed it behind her. "I saw you in the dining hall and I know what you've been through. I can help you." Alex turned towards Amanda, her face flushed.

"Help me? Help me? Did you try to help me when you asked Percy to cancel me? How was that helping me?" Amanda only looked at her, she didn't even flinch at Alex's anger.

"Yes, that was wrong of me, but I know what you're going through." Alex shook her head.

"You don't know shit about me or what I'm going through!" A small, wicked smile filled Amanda's face as she stepped closer to Alex.

"I know what happened to you, I know the truth about your family and your childhood, about how your family was brutally murdered in front of your eyes. I also know that Nikita was the one assigned on the mission to kill you and your whole family. I know everything, Alexandra."