8. No More Lies
You're probably still mad because I left you with such an ending. But now you are going to see the complete truth. The truth that was hiding for so long finally will be revealed and it is going to determine whether or not this story will have a happy ending. And I return to my old question: Is love enough?
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"Marie" a voice shouted loud.
"Double D?"
She looked back. It was actually him. He was coming closer and closer to her, he was almost running. Marie was confused now more than ever. All had happened so quickly that she didn't know what to think, how to react when he was calling her name. What the hell was he doing here? And why on earth was he calling her name?
She tried to carry on her way, ignoring him, pretending she didn't want to speak to him, when it was the thing she wanted the most. Staying away was the only safe thing to do. But she failed.
"Marie, please stop." He called her again. Now he was very near to her, but there still was a safety distance.
"What do you want Edd?" She was trying to act cool, but her heart was shivering.
"I need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"How is Rolf?"
"He is fine."
"Are you happy with him?"
"I am not with him any longer." She paused. "It was terrible of me to pretend that I liked him when…"
"When?"
"When I was in love with someone else."
"With someone else…" Double D whispered with his soft voice. He could feel a small pain in his heart, nicer than any other.
They both looked deep into each others face. The clouds above them were dark and suffocating. It would rain. Some small drops, carried by the wind from a place not too far away, where it was already raining, were touching her cold body. Marie had to find the truth and now was her chance. She waited a bit longer in silence before she asked.
"You didn't want to ask me about Rolf. Am I wrong?"
"No. Eh, I wanted, you see, eh." Double D stopped talking and looked carefully at Marie. "Are you crying?"
She was. She couldn't control her feelings any longer. The anger, the pain, the love… they were all combined and strangling her. She couldn't stand it any longer. But she had to.
"What makes you think I am crying?"
"Tears have filled your eyes."
Marie wiped her eyes with her hand and looked for one more time at him. She couldn't control it any more. It was the moment of truth. But she couldn't say anything yet. She just looked down, to hide her tears, to hide her self.
"Why are you crying Marie?" Double D asked her with compassion. He touched her shoulders with his two hands, forcing her to look back at him.
"Because I know." She said, almost whisper still looking down.
"You know?" Double D came a bit closer to her face trying to look at her eyes.
"Yeah, I know!" She said loudly and pushed his hands violently away from her shoulders, making him move back. Now she was looking him into his eyes.
"You know what?"
"I know that you talked to Rolf."
"Oh, I see."
"Why did you talk to him? Why on earth do you care? Why Double D? Why?"
Her voice was full with anger and sorrow as she was saying that. All her sadness had gathered along and become vain rage. All the pain had filled her eyes with tiers on its hopeless effort to escape. Her eyes were sparking and she was biting her down lip. Her hair was unkempt and the air was pulling them to the side. Some drops of rain fell from the sky down to their faces. Finally she had let herself express what she was feeling all this time.
Double D had no other choice. Frighten but strong he had to release it. He had to discharge the truth and now was his chance. He had to tell her.
"Because I love you Marie." His voice was calm and secured.
"Don't you dare to say that!"
"It's the truth. I love you Marie."
"Love? Love is about sacrifices, and honesty and, and compassion. Love is something you could never feel."
"How can you know that? You can't possibly know how I feel or what I am capable to feel… and, and the thing I feel, the only thing that I can be sure I feel is, is my love… for you. I love you."
"But I can." She was calmer now, breathing heavily and slowly. "I loved you Double D and you know that. You know all the sacrifices I did for you. You now how much I've changed. And all these nonsense things I did just for you." And she looked him with her eyes wide open.
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FLASHBACK
(I think you should learn about the changes Marie is talking about so am placing you again on summer holidays in this very same spot by the river. However two years ago…)
The tree Eds were walking disappointed by another failed scam. Eddy was the angriest of the three, as usual. They really thought that their scam would work. Eddy's brother had done it a million times and he had always succeeded. Double D was planning it for days so there wouldn't be any mistakes. And Ed approximately was on his best behavior. But they didn't gain any money at all.
"That's so unfair. This scam should have worked."
"You know Eddy failure is what improves us. Next time we will accomplish something better than today."
"But we were so close to get the money Double D. It is all Sarah's fault. Man I hate her."
"Don't say something you don't mean Eddy. I believe that one day you two will be just fine."
"Yeah, in hell."
"Butter and toast Eddy."
"Shut up lumpy. I had enough for today. The thought of me and Sarah getting along wasn't necessary. I was feeling shit already."
"Eddy, don't talk like this. It's not appropriate."
"Yeah Eddy. You should be punished."
But it wasn't a friend of his who said that last thing. It was a girly voice. A familiar girly voice which was leading to only one conclusion...
"Kankers." Eddy said loud.
"Run away." Ed cried out loud and started running as fast as he could.
Both Ed and Eddy were running with all their strength trying to escape from what was going to happen. Unfortunately May and Lee were getting closer and closer to them. But why wasn't Double D joining them? Why wasn't he trying to escape?
Double D thought at the beginning to run. His sense of survivor made him start moving without realizing it. But after few steps he stopped. He saw both May and Lee passing in front of him trying to catch the other two Eds. But no one was following him. He looked back and he saw Marie just standing, looking at the river on her side. She didn't even bother to look at him. He had suspected something for quite long time, but he had never the courage to ensure himself. Until…
"Why aren't you chasing me like your sisters?" Double D dared to ask her.
She hadn't noticed his presence. She thought that he would be far away from her by now. She turned and looked at him. But yet she didn't say anything.
"Which was the last time that you concerned to chase me around?"
"A couple of months ago." Marie finally said.
"Why?"
"Because we aren't kids any more Double D. I am the smaller of my sister but I am mature enough to understand that we are not kids any more. I hope they'll also get it too."
"So you're never going to hound me again?"
"I am still going to tease you. I am a Kanker."
"But why, I mean what made you change?"
"You. I know that you don't like me. I got the first strike on Valentines Day, when you and May had a little crush. And I see it everyday, when you are around with Nazz, when you avoid me and stuff."
Once saying this Marie tried to leave. Then it happened. Double D did something he could never imagine he would. He grabbed her and kissed her lips. Marie had kissed him many times when they were younger, but never like this. They were holding each other tight and they were lips to lips. And then he let her go.
"Why did you do this?" She managed to say.
"Cause I wanted to."
Marie left and they never talked about this again. But deep inside them they both knew it was true. It was their little secret.
END OF FLASHBACK
(Back to the yelling and stuff)
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"So don't you say you love me, cause I've seen what you've been doing."
"I apologize for all the troubles I've done. I was confused. Please, forgive me."
"I forgave you. I forgave you when you thought you liked my sister. I forgave you many times for breaking my heart. But now I can't. I just can't excuse you again. After you dumped and Sarah, I can finally see your true face. And it's disgusting."
Double D looked at her puzzled. He didn't know what to say. She had every right to be mad and to feel hurt. Marie saw he wasn't reacting so she decided to leave.
"Marie, wait…" Double D yelled her, and his eyes were begging her to stay. But he didn't know what else to say.
She turned around. Her face was all wet from tears which were now combined with the raindrops from the sky. Her eyes were red, wide open, shining in all their pain. Her lips were closed, ineffable and soulless. She was looking at him all complain. A chill made the bleeding hearts shiver under the cold breeze and rain. The silence was killing them both. She couldn't stand it any longer and managed to say the last thing she needed.
"You know what the worst part is?" Marie said quietly. Double D didn't respond. "That I still love you." Then she turned around and left, disappearing into the thick rain and fog of this cloudy day.
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And that's how that cruel writer (me!) finished this chapter. Don't you worry; the story has a long way till the end. But I would really love to hear your opinion so far (especially about this chapter)! Was it good?
Oh, and many, many thanks for the reviews!!
Any ideas of what I should do next? I liked the whole Double D (or even Marie) trying to kill himself and being rescued the last minute but it's a bit a too classic. Anyway think about it and write me cause I definitely need some inspiration from this point and after. (I have some ideas, don't panic.)
But the most important question is: do you think that they should be together?
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