9. Deep from pain

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Finally some inspiration hit me. I couldn't thing of what to write next so I decided to just write and see what was going to follow by itself. Stories can really continue on their own, even when they are in such a difficult state.

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Back to our story…

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Double D just stayed there, watching Marie leaving. He couldn't move or talk. He tried to say something but he regretted it and controlled himself. He knew that nothing would make her change her mind. He had already said everything that could be spoken. But he had to say something, anything, or she would leave. He tried again but a knot stuck on his throat letting no sound get out of his mouth.

Things would probably be better if he had said something. But he didn't.

He could feel the tears falling from her eyes into the bottom of his heart and burning it. His head was hurting and the whole world had collapsed around him. He didn't know what to do, what to say, how to feel. He was in so much pain, the bigger he had ever faced. A thousand sharp knifes were killing every piece of his heart. And all had her name on.

Marie had disappeared now into the thick fog of the rain. He took a step forward trying to reach her but it was pointless. Even her shadow was gone. But the pain was the same, as nothing had changed, as she was right next to him telling him the same thing. That she hated the fact she loved him, that she didn't want him to love her and that she just wanted him to leave, to leave before he could cause her more pain.

And he, he just stood there. He didn't even have the courage to answer her. He wanted to say something. But he couldn't. He wanted to run after her right now. Catch her and hold her tight in his hug telling her he was sorry, that he wished to take all the pain back, that he loved her and nothing else mattered if she could just forgive him. But he just stayed there like a pointless burden of her life.

The rain was falling hard from the tall sky. It wasn't bothering him anymore. He was feeling shame and the raindrops were actually helping him unsoiled his body to the core. These heavy thick drops of rain were a relief to his wounds and to his broken soul. But they weren't enough. He needed more, much more to take all his trouble away. All the trouble he had caused and he hadn't the courage to vanish it for good.

Next to him the small river was laying on the ground. The rain had made it huge flowing angry mob of water. That would relieve his pain. Without a second thought he jumped inside the wild river. He took a big breath and went underneath the surface. There, there wasn't any noise. Any noise at all. Not the sound of the rain, which had became one with the echo that her footsteps made as she was walking away. Not the melancholic song of the birds inside their nest, complaining about the cold summer. No nothing. Only silence. Deep bottomless silence. He could stay there for ever. But the need for oxygen forced him to get his head out again.

Now he had to struggle just to keep his head outside. The river was drifting him away. He would drown. He didn't want to die. His instincts were forcing him to survive. But moreover he did not want to die. He thought about doing it but it wasn't fair. It wasn't fair for her. Even with his death he would just cause her more pain. There was nothing he could do to fix things. How did things get so complicated? How he the so called smart kid could be so stupid?

He swam with all his remaining powers. He was so close to the land and he reached it. He finally reached it. He pulled himself out and took many slow big breaths, coughing in the meantime. He was alive. All wet, on his knees, with both of his hands on the muddy ground, looking down, heavily breathing. He had no place to go now. His mind for the first time in his life was so confused and at the same time so blank. His spirit was broken and his heart too.

"I love you. Forgive me and…" He paused. "Nothing more." He said and a tear felt from his eye down to the ground.

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Marie was walking fast home. She was almost running, like the tears from her eyes down to her lips. She was felling the same pain as he did. She loved him. She still loved him. She wanted to shout it, to let it out of her system but the only thing she could let go was her tears.

If she had said 'I don't love you' it would be as lying to herself. She couldn't. But how easier would things be if she had said that, how much simpler? The story would end there and their lives would move on. At least his. She only caused him pain and that was making her own pain bigger.

She wished that was true. Not loving him. She wished that many times. Every time she was lying alone in her bedroom. Every time she had cried on her wet pillow. Every time Rolf was smiling at her, expecting just a smile from her side too. But the harder she wished his thought to go away, to vanish to disappear for ever, the longer it stayed in her head making her heart bleed.

She opened the door of the house and run upstairs, where her bedroom was. She didn't even look at her sisters, who were trying to take the remote from each other. They didn't notice her either, being to busy fighting. That's what sisters are for.

She lied on her bed and start crying. Now she could cry as much as she wanted, as long as she wanted, without anyone breaking off her sorrow. All alone she began talking to herself. That was the best way to let her feelings get out and calm her self.

"I still love you. Here I said it. Why you didn't reply? Why didn't you say something to stop me? Why you didn't Double D? … Crap. The more I love you the more I hate myself. And the only way to make things right is to move on. Finally to move on…"

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Double D was walking home. He was all wet and muddy. He just wanted this day to be over. He would go home, take a shower and he would lay on his bed, waiting for this cruel day to end probably with him sleeping.

Marie's words were still echoing inside his mind.

On his way to home he saw Ed standing. The rain wasn't affecting him at all. On his normal everyday cloths he was like he was searching for something. Ed was looking more serious than most of the others times.

Double D decided to see what was going on. Even with all this rain, and even if he was heartbroken right now, Ed was still one of his best's friends. Maybe helping him could make him forget his worries for a while.

"Ed? Are you searching for something, would you like some assistance?"

Ed, who hadn't seen him coming, was panicked. He jumped up and started looking directly at Double D as his friend was a zombie.

Double D thought Ed was on one of his weird modes again and chose not to pay attention to his reaction.

"Summer rains… you can never predict them." Double D finally said. But Ed was still staring at him with the same weird expression. "Is there something wrong Ed?"

"Oh please Eddy, don't hurt me I tried." He cried out loud as he started running.

"Wait Ed, what's wrong? Why would Eddy hurt you?"

"Mutant zombies from mars will eat my brains to punish me for failing my duty Double D."

"What are you talking about? Ed! Please slow down."

Ed just kept going faster and faster making it impossible for Double D to catch him. But he was able to see where he was going. He went near a familiar house, opened the door, he entered and slammed it behind him.

Double D finally managed to reach the door of the house his friend entered. But for his surprise when he tried to open the door, he realized that Ed had been hiding in his house. Something really dumb, even for Ed.

"Ed, please open the door of my house. I'm not in the right mood for these things."

He heard a noise like someone was unlocking the door, but the door didn't open. Double D began to be suspicious about all these. He tried to open the door of his house for one more time. The door opened and entered. Inside the house was completely darkness. He tried to find the switch to turn on the lights.

"SURPRISE!"

Everyone jumped behind the couch. Ed, Eddy, Johnny and Plank, Sarah, Jimmy, Rolf, Nazz and even Kevin, they were all there. All wearing party hats and with huge smiles in their faces. They were hugging him and laughing loud.

"I can't understand. My birthday isn't even close. Why all these?"

"Take a look at this shook-head."

"Eddy! You opened again my mail."

"Relax brainier, it was just a mistake. Read what the letter says."

"Yeah, read it dude. You are going to be like so happy after this."

"Dear mister Edward we are happy to inform you that you have been accepted in R. K. L. College with a full scholarship for your two senior years of high Scholl. You are going to be informed..."

"Well what do you think Double D? These are good news, right?"

"Yes, they are Sarah. This is one of the finest schools. I never expected I could go there. Well I always dreamed of going there but the cost was too high and they don't just give scholarships away."

"Then why aren't you happy dude?"

"I am happy Nazz. It's just; it is too far away from here. I will be probably staying there full time and seeing you guys only at weekends, or maybe not at all except holidays."

"We will be all right Dork. I hate to say it, we are gonna miss you that's true, but will be just fine."

"Yeah, sock head, you'll be stupid if you miss such a chance. How come you're so wet?"

"Eh, it's nothing. Summer rains, you can never predict them."

"And guess what the best part is, dude. I will go there too!"

Everyone went quiet. No one knew about this. Nazz had never given them even a clue about if she was going to change school. She was one of the richest kids in the alley, that's for sure. But she wasn't what we call a bright student. The more shocked was Kevin.

"You never told me about this Nazz."

"Well, it was like a last minute decision. My mom thought that it was the school the reason I didn't do well with grades. So when she found out about Double D she kinda thought I would be better there."

"Yeah, but I wont see you."

"Oh Kev, we'll be ok."

"Double D is leaving, Nazz is leaving. Mutant aliens will suck their brains!"

"Shut up Lumpy."

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Quite shocking news? I mean Double D couldn't be any luckier. He is accepted in a good school with a scholarship, Nazz will be there. How can things get any better than this? Or worst…

I hope you liked this chapter. It'll keep you busy for a while, well until the next chapter is over. I promise it won't take long. I've already written a big part. So don't worry.

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