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13. Explain
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The end is near. Can you feel it? That's why the last chapters are so small. Start reading what really happened.
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Rolf was outside Marie's trailer. It was really late and hers was the only one with the lights still open. He could hear their voices clearly in the silence of the night.
It was Lee, May and… Nazz? He thought he was wrong till he heard Lee calling her name.
"Well, that's done. Thanks for your help Nazz."
"It was cool working with you, but I hope never again."
"I still can't understand how you tricked an Ed to come here." Said May, since she had tried to bring her "own" Ed there too many times without succeeding.
Rolf's anger was gone now and he was trying patiently to hear what had they done. He had placed his ear near the window carefully so he couldn't be seen.
"Well it was easy." Nazz started talking. "When I called him he was really messed up. I could tell by the tone of his voice. I told him in a frighten voice that Marie had kidnapped me in order to make me pay for making him love me. He didn't believe me at first and he couldn't respond but when he heard me scream and cry on the phone he run immediately here. I did all these when you were searching for a rope. And dudes you really tied me tight I still have a mark at my hands. Not cool. When he came inside the, eh house, I told him you two where trying to calm Marie upstairs, who had completely snapped. I saw a tear running from his left eye as he was trying to unleash me. It was killing him seeing me like this. I jumped into his arms as soon as they were free and we would had left together if Marie hadn't come in and ruined the whole thing."
"It's probably for the best." Lee said in a calm voice. "Now she won't want to see him again."
"Yeah but Double D left without letting me explain. Now how can I be sure he'll help me through college?"
"Oh, you're pretty Nazz. You don't need an explanation. The important is that Marie is safe." May said with a smile in her lips sowing that nothing she said about Nazz was true. She thought she was by far prettier than Nazz…
"I don't really get that with the "safe" thing girls."
"Well Nazz the women of this family always had a poor judgment in men." Lee said while looking at May who lowered her head and lost her smile. "Ed is stupid and Eddy idiot and we can fall "in love" madly without worrying they will hurt us. But Edd stole Marie's heart and broke it. We had to make sure she would stay away from him and settle down with someone who would take good care of her, who would love her and not hurt her so she won't end up a drunk or worst as other members of this family. With Double D it wouldn't end good for her."
Rolf had heard enough. It was the first time he heard Lee speaking honest and caring. It was an image he would never forget.
He left the trailer park. There was nothing he could do, at least not there. The night was thick but the dawn was near. He thought a lot about Marie and what was best for her. How much he loved her. How safe she would be with him. He would never hurt her. He would never let anyone hurt her. He kept walking till he found a big weird shaped rock. Under the moonlight he managed to perceive Double D's still figure. He didn't move but Double D called him. Not him specifically but the person who was standing behind him whoever he was. From the other side of the rock he could see his face clearly. Tears all over it but his expression was serious as the night.
"Rolf." Double D said and he was trying, by saying his name, realize that Rolf was actually the person standing behind him. "I heard her yelling your name as she left…" He paused. "Me" he add very quiet. "For a minute I thought it was true. That she actually had returned to being that horrible person, the worst version of that horrible person that she for so long was pretending to be. And I couldn't see anything else. I run to the house to save the last surviving part of her heart. But I was wrong. It was a scam. Not designed by me for the first time in my life. And I fell right into it destroying the one person I have ever loved, just because for only one second I doubted her and believed a lie… and now it's over." He paused again. He had understood more or less what had happened. And he blamed himself.
"She is better with you, right? She is happy, she isn't hurting. Not that I can hurt her more than I already have. But still with you she is safe. Don't you agree? God, I love her so much. It hurts." His eyes were filled with tears again which he removed with his hand. "I mustn't become emotionally. I must stay sober. But I can't. I don't know what to do anymore. Can you tell me? You care about her and your judgment will be clear. Tell me what to do and I'll do it. Shall I leave forever or shall I try one more time? What's best for her? SHE is the only one who matters to me."
Rolf looked as Double D was begging him with his eyes to make I choice, which wasn't his to make. His blood froze under the warm dawn. He couldn't move or hear anymore. His heart hurt more than ever. Every choice was so wrong, so painful that he couldn't bear. He tried not to blink, not to show any emotions. He tried to think clear but it was harder than ever. He loved her as the flowers love the sun. He loved her.
He tried to shape his lips so sound could escape but still not sure of what to say…
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It is times like this that you truly hate me, right? Well I have to admit I am not 100% sure what the ending will be. I mean is love enough? I keep on asking but none of you is answering! Well no matter what I'll put my best to keep you satisfied. Please review till next time! (Probably the next is going to be the final chapter of this story so you should better review.)