Chapter 5
When Bella opened the door, it was Opa and Edward with guilty smiles on both their faces. It seemed Edward had noticed she had no bed and wanted to fix that for her.
Opa wasn't sure it was ok to let him in the room and was worried that she would want to get her own things since she had to pick from other peoples discarded stuff already. She assured them both it was more than fine and that she loved the bed and the Quilt.
She walked over, gave Opa a reassuring hug, then reached around, and brought Edward in for a quick kiss on the cheek. She gave Opa a sandwich, he left then, and Edward started looking uncomfortable then said "I guess I should go too." she felt a tug in her heart as if it was saying she needed to let him stay so she offered to share her last sandwich with him. He said okay but had something to go with it.
They decided to eat up on the roof again so she bundled up and he came back with homemade soup. It was wonderful and they both ate as if they hadn't eaten in months, which wasn't too far from the truth for either of them. Bella noticed Edwards' eyes were shinier and his dark circles seemed somehow less pronounced.
It was gratifying to know that she was helping to heal him and as he gave, her little sidelong glances and shy smiles her heart was melting. She wondered how long it had been for him since he had smiled. She was encouraged to try to get a real bust out smile from him in the near future. They talked some more about her past and his and realized they had a lot in common.
Neither one of us had any family left. Edward had his for a lot longer than she did though. We both looked to music to calm our souls. The stars came out while we were talking. We decided to get a blanket and we sat in silence and just watched the stars twinkle for a while.
As it got late, Bella realized she needed to get to bed and got up to say goodnight. She felt her heart skip a beat as Edward looked over at her with the most determined look on his face and then strode over leaned down and give her the softest, sweetest kiss ever. The earth stood still for a moment and her knees almost buckled.
"I'm so ashamed about the way we started things but I still feel drawn to you and I get the feeling deep in my soul that I'm supposed to heal you like you did for me. I know you have every reason for me to never touch you again. From what I have sensed from you though, I know we need to take it slowly and give it time. I will be here for you and with you until you are ready for us," Edward whispered in her ear.
Bella turned and ran down the stairs with her chest about to explode. Sinking down on the bed after getting to the apartment, she searched her feelings. Could she let this man touch her body or her heart after what had happened between them? Could anything good come after a beginning like that? She fell asleep and dreamed of problems and possibilities.