Alternate Chapter 7: Cutting, Shadows,and missing, a harry potter fanfic

Ross walked out of the Great Hall after everyone was dismissed and fallowed his brother. Harry walked up the stairs to the Astronomy tower and sat on a window ledge. Ross' twin breathed the night air in deeply and began talking to no-one.

"If they don't get it this time I don't know what I'll do." Suddenly a small figure stepped out of the shadows. It was a large bear sized dog. Not like his uncle Padfoot. No this one was made completely out of shadows. The animal began to speak.

"I don't know either. Maybe just end it? I'd miss you though. So would your friends." His brother sighed.

"I know. But you and they will be the only ones. My brother and parents will probably dance on my grave if they get me one. Which I doubt they will. I only have one more chance and I was hoping to do this subtly."

"What's that?"

"The end of the school year." Harry said with a note of finality. What was he talking about? Get what? End what? Ross' musings were cut short as his brother took out a pocket knife that he got for his seventh birthday. Harry rolled up his sleeve to reveal scars, some still an angry red. Ross gasped. He had read in a muggle newspaper his mother still got about kids who had committed suicide. He wondered if his brother would be one of those kids he saw in the paper.

Harry brought the knife to a small blank spot and cut, hard. He heard the boy give a gasp of pain but he had a smile on his face.

"Why do you do that?"

"I've told you a million times Lucifer. I like the pain that it gives me. It distracts me from the emotional pain." Ross began to feel sick. He ran from the hall down to his parents chambers. He swung open the doors and fell to the ground. He started to throw up.

Lily P.O.V.

After Harry's song she was fuming. How dare that little rat! She heard the door to the sitting room of her and James' chambers burst open. A dull thud and a person heaving were heard shortly after. She rushed in to see her son Ross on the ground in puddle of vomit.

"Ross! What happened? Who did this? Are you sick?" He shook his head. No one did this to him. Then he nodded. He was sick. "I'll go get a stomach soother. James!"

"What happened? Ross are you okay?"

Ross got up and steadied himself. Lily banished the mess just as Sirius and Remus walked in to hear what the commotion was. "I saw something disturbing."

"McGonnagal in a bikini?" Sirius questioned. Ross shuddered.

"N-no worse, I fallowed Harry-"

"Why were you fallowing your good for nothing brother?" Lily asked. Ross glared at her which surprised her. Why was her son glaring at her?

"I followed him because I wanted to ask him about the song he sang. Anyway I followed him to the Astronomy tower and he sat on a window ledge. He started talking to someone but no-one was there. Then a dog came out of the shadows. It looked like Padfoot but it was made from shadows." Lily was trembling. Her oldest could make shadows in the shape of animals. "Harry said 'If they don't get it this time I don't know what I'll do.' Then the dog said-"He was cut off.

"It talked! How is that possible?"

"I don't know but it said 'I don't know either. Maybe just end it?'-

"It wanted Harry to kill himself!" Remus cried outraged. Everyone looked at the usually quiet man. "Sorry but I don't want my godson to die!" A/N. Remus is Harry's godfather because James wanted his best friend to be the godfather of the Chosen One.

Ross continued. "'I'd miss you though. So would your friends.' So it must be sentient because how else would it have feelings. Then Harry said 'know. But you and they will be the only ones. My brother and parents will probably dance on my grave if they get me one. Which I doubt they will. I only have one more chance and I was hoping to do this subtly.' Are we that horrible that he thinks that we'll like him better dead? He must because he thought we'd just dump him in a landfill! After that Harry took out that pocket knife that Sirius gave him and-and-." He then broke down in tears. 'What happened?' Lily thought. Remus was looking pale.

"Please tell me he didn't do what I think he did." Ross looked up. He did not speak but rolled up his sleeve. Remus looked crushed. He put his head in his hands and shook his head. Lily was confused.

"What did he do?"

"He rolled up his sleeve and he had scars all along his arm. Some were still red." Ross took a shuddering breath. "He took the knife and cut his arm. The dog asked him why he did it. And Harry said- He said-"Ross ran out of the room and to the bathroom. The sounds of him vomiting again filled the silent room. Lily felt like she wanted to join him.

"Remus why did you know what Harry did?"James asked shakily.

"I caught him once on his tenth birthday. It was the same knife." Remus said into his hands. Ross walked in and sat down between his parents.

"You don't have to continue, baby." Lily said. She was already feeling sick and did not want to hear more. But Ross shook his head.

"He said 'I've told you a million times Lucifer. I like the pain that it gives me. It distracts me from the emotional pain.' I guess the dog's name is Lucifer."

∞∞∞∞∞Time Skip End of the year feast∞∞∞∞∞

Harry P.O.V.

Dumbledore held a vote for the best singers to compete in the end of the year final karaoke night. He had gotten wizards disguised as muggles to judge. Some were surprising. Simon Cowell and Randy Jackson. The other not so much i.e. Lady Gaga. The kids had voted as such:

1 Cody Jackson singing Perfect Simple plan A/N.I ran out of songs!

2 Ariel Wills singing This is just a dream.

3 Harry Potter singing Missing Evanescence.

He had chosen that song because that was basically his life. He knew Ross had seen him that night. He could see in the dark like a cat. He could make the shadows into any form he wanted. Darkness shall bend to his will.

∞∞∞∞∞Time skip that night∞∞∞∞∞

Third person P.O.V.

"Good evening everyone. As you know this is a voter's choice night. The singers who the voters shall sing a song of their choice. Our judges shall decide the winner. Our judges are Mr. Simon Cowell," Cheers were heard as the man waved with a bored face.

"Mr. Randy Jackson," The man waved as cheers were heard again.

"Finally we have Miss Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta." You could hear a cricket chirping. "Or as you know her Lady Gaga." Now cheers were heard as the woman waved.

"The contestants will be judged on a scale of one to ten. One being the lowest and ten the highest. First we have Cody Jackson with Perfect by Simple Plan. "

Dumbledore stepped down as Jackson's song began to play.

Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for
You can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's all right

'Cause we lost it all
And nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
And nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cause we lost it all
Nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Everyone began to cheer as the music ended. The judges looked at him until Stefani spoke.

"That was an amazing song. It spoke so much to the soul. I give you a seven."

"Man that was tight! You have an amazing voice! I give you a ten! Plus your name is sweet."Randy Jackson chuckled.

"I think that your voice is great as well but you were a little pitchy. I give you a five." Cowell said

"BOO! YOU SUCK!" The girls yelled. Jackson just stepped off the stage and ignored the judges and sat between Alex and Trinity.

"Now we have Ariel Wills Singing Just a dream. By Carrie Underwood."

Ariel stepped up to the stage. She was dressed in wedding dress. Complete with veil, gloves and bouquet.

It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
All dressed in white, going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in her shoe
Something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

The white dress began to burn away. People screamed as Ariel was engulfed in flames. The teachers shot up to help but were stopped as the flames dissappered. Ariel was now dressed in a black funeral outfit. She began to sing again.

Baby, why'd you leave me, why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance,
Standing in the background

Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now,
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up
And sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag

And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could've been
And then guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby, why'd you leave me, why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance,
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now,
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream, (yeah, yeah)

The Hall was filled with deafening cheers. Once they died down the judges looked upon the girl befor them. Stefani spoke.

"That was amazing I couldn't do better myself. A ten!"

"I have to agree with Stefani. A ten!"

"I for one think it was a bit much. But I like your voice a nine." Of course this brought cries of outrage but Dumbledore quieted them.

"Finally we have Mr. Harry Potter singing Missing by Evanescence."

Harry stepped up to the stage. He was wearing a green t-shirt and black pants.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.

Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

When Harry was done there was not a dry eye in the school.

Stefani broke the scilence.

"I-I think that was an amazing song. Ten."

"Dude! Why'd you have to go and make us cry? Like I say if you can sing you can see anything. That defiantly applies to you."

"Thanks that means a lot." Harry said smiling.

"Ten. Plain and simple. That was amazing."