A/N i meant to put this up yesterday but i fell asleep before i got to do it, im sorry you can shoot me now.

To those of you who celebrate it happy Easter and to those of you who don't, happy Sunday or whatever day it is where you are!

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"Morgan you might want to wake her up" Rossi said.

"Sure." He looked over at Garcia, He could see tears running down her face and landing on JJ's bed.

"No" She whimpered.

Morgan walked over to Garcia and put an arm round her.

"Baby girl, c'mon wake up, it's just a dream…"

"Leave her alone…please."

"Baby girl." Garcia still didn't walk up "Penelope wake up."

"JJ" Garcia sat up eyes wide open in fear.

"There you are baby girl." Morgan crouched down by her side and wiped away her tears "it was just a dream."

"It felt so real Derek." Garcia let out a small sob.

Reid got up from his spot by the window and joined the rest of his team by the bed.

"What was it about Garcia?" He asked.

"erm…w…we didn't save her in time…he killed her." Morgan pulled Garcia into a hug.

"But we did Pen." Emily looked up from JJ over to her red headed friend "We did save her and she's safe now."

"What if she doesn't make it?"

"She will, we have to believe that. I have to believe that bac…" Emily stopped as JJ's machines started to beep out of rhythm and a slow trickle of blood came from JJ's nose, then something happened that put a new fear into all the people in the room.

JJ's body started to convulse.

"Oh my god." Garcia stood up.

Reid ran to the door and flung it open "CAN WE GET SOME HELP IN HERE!"

"Reid what's going on?" Rossi asked but the look on the young agents face told them it wasn't something good.

Hotch and Rossi both ran into the room closely followed but Dr. Cain and some nurses to see JJ fitting on the bed.

"Everyone out." The Doctor told them but none of them moved, they just looked at JJ scared "NOW!" quickly Emily, Hotch, Rossi, Reid, Morgan and Garcia were pushed out of the room and had the door slammed in their faces.

"What happened?" Rossi asked panicked

"I don't know we were all talking then she started fitting…" Reid listed in his head all the possible reasons for the seizure.

20 minutes later the Doctor walked out.

"What happened…" everyone said almost at once.

"Agent Jareau is stable again. We believe the pressure on her brain caused the fit. We've upped some of her medication so it shouldn't happen again."

"And the nose bleed?" Garcia asked.

"It was all part of the pressure on her body. I read in her file that this type of thing has happened before so I'm not too concerned at the minute." He looked at Garcia and could still see the worry so he elaborated a little "The pressure needed to be relieved some way and that's how it did it. You may go back in now. Get a nurse to page me if you have any more questions"

"Thankyou." Hotch followed the rest of the team back in and they all sat or stood in the places they were before.

An hour of silence later Rossi remembered the convocation he was having with Hotch before Reid came running out of the room.

"So…What's in the file?" He turned to Hotch as did the rest of the team upon hearing Rossi's statement.

"What file…?" Morgan stepped forward

"Why did he give you a file?" Reid took a seat on one of the empty chairs.

"When the Dr was taking Emily and me down to take blood…I asked if he could get me a copy of the file for evidence." He threw the file down on the table in front of everyone "It has everything in it. Pictures and in depth notes of all the injuries JJ has sustains."

"Oh…" Reid seemed kind of gobsmacked.

"Have you read it yet?" Emily whispered.

"No."

They all just stared at the brown folder waiting for someone to take the first move and after another few seconds it was Rossi that went to reach for it.

"Do you really want to read that?" Hotch asked and put his hand on the folder stopping Rossi from opening it.

"Someone has to…"

"I want to read it. I need to know what that bastard did to her" Morgan asked from the door "I want to know what were going to have to deal with when she wakes up."

"No…" Garcia said standing up and taking the folder from Rossi.

"Garcia's right." Emily didn't look up from JJ "It should be up to JJ if we read that file or not. We can't betray her trust not after everything she's already been through."

Emily now looked at Hotch pleading with her eyes. Hotch knew she was right.

"Garcia give me the file please." She handed it to him cautiously "It stays closed for now but if I believe we need to know what's in this to help JJ through then we will." It was a statement said from a boss not a friend.

They all sat for another hour and when the sun had finally set Hotch instructed everyone to go home and get some rest. With some persuasion and facts that 'they would be no good to JJ if they became sick' most of the agreed to go and Hotch would stay by JJ's side and call them all if anything changed.

"I'm not leaving Hotch." Emily stated as the others grabbed their coats.

Hotch open his mouth to argue with her but she beat him to it "No, I'm not going anywhere. Go home, you haven't seen Jack in days, if I go home I will just sit up and worry. Go there is no point in both of us staying."

Hotch sighed Emily was right he did want to see Jack and he knew there was going to be no changing Emily's mind on this one "Ok but call me if it gets too much and I'll come and join you."

"Ok…" Emily looked back down at JJ as the others left the room for the night all promising to be back first thing in the morning along with Peter and Sophie.

"How's she doing?" Morgan asked handing out the 7 cups of coffee he had on a tray and looking over at the bruised blonde on the bed. It was three days since JJ had been rescued and she was now strong enough to breath on her own.

"No change since last night. Thankyou." Sophie said taking the cup from Morgan.

"Are their any leads as to who the other unsub is?" Emily asked. She hadn't moved from JJ's bed side since she was found. She had been begged and threatened to be thrown over Morgan's shoulder to go home and get some sleep but she point blank refused and promised Morgan she would chop his manhood off if he even tried.

"No, were going through old acquaintances, but nothing so far." Hotch said sitting in one of the seats.

Just then Dr. Cain walked in with a smile on his face. It pissed Morgan, Rossi and Emily that he was so chipper when people's lives were on the line.

"Good morning everyone!" He exclaimed earning some grunts and gowns from everyone in the room "Ok… I have Agent Jareau test results from yesterday and she is doing amazing well. The CT scan shows that the bleed has reduced tremendously."

"Dose that mean she'll wake up soon?" Garcia asked.

The Dr sighed.

"What is it?" Peter asked.

"Honestly, there is no medical reason as to why Agent Jareau didn't wake up a few days ago. The bleed to her brain is still concerning but it is not as bad as we first thought."

"So why isn't she waking up?" Rossi asked.

"I did a paper on this type of thing when I was a college. I believe Agent Jareau isn't waking up because her subconscious doesn't want to."

"I'm sorry what?" Morgan was getting frustrated.

"He's saying JJ isn't waking up because she doesn't want to." Reid piped up from his spot by the window "If you've been through everything she had, as JJ and Shelby would you want to wake up and face it all."

The doctor walked out of the room silently. He knew it was all a lot for them all to take in and that his presents wasn't needed in the room anymore.

"That's why she said she was sorry…" Emily whispered to her self but was overheard By Garcia.

"What was that cupcake?"

"When we found her she said she was sorry. But we all thought it was because…well because she blamed herself for getting into that mess…"

"But it's not her fault" Garcia sniffed with slight anger in her voice.

"No its not, but that wasn't why she said sorry. JJ said it because she was sorry for giving up… she wanted to die." Emily said as she and Sophie cried where as Garcia sobbed into her hands.

"It makes sense." Hotch agreed.

"But she can't leave, we need her." Morgan wrapped his arms round Garcia.

"She'll come back to us baby girl, just you wait and see."

Just then Emily jumped up from her seat "Someone go get the doctor!"

"What is it, what's wrong?" Just as Peter joined Emily by the bed JJ machines started to beep out of rhythm.

"She squeezed my hand!" Emily stated not looking away from the battered blonde.

Reid ran out and returned with the doctor a few seconds later.

"Ok, I want you all to stand back from the bed or get out." They all stood back against the far wall out of the doctor's way not wanting to leave the room "Agent Jareau can you hear me?" He placed his hand in hers and she gently squeezed "That's…"

"No" JJ groaned out. Her voice sounded rusty and dry.

"Its ok Agent, you're in the hospital." He looked up at the monitors and saw her heart rate was getting iritic "Can you get me the sedative." He asked the nurse that had joined him and she just nodded.

"Do…Don't touch…Me…Please stop." JJ's eyes were tightly closed and her hands were clenched as tight as they could be.

'Screw that damn doctor' Emily thought 'JJ needs us'

"Shhh Jayje." Emily reached JJ's bed side and stroked the blonde's hair "your ok, your safe now, its all going to be ok."

JJ's eyes shot open.

"NO, STAY AWAY FROM ME." JJ horse voice broke, she tried sitting up but was restrained by Dr. Cain. Sobs broke out as she struggled under his hold.

"N…no…no plea….please."

"Let her go your hurting her!" Sophie yelled at the doctor.

"I can't do that it will cause her more damage." As the doctor spoke a red blood stain started to seep through one of the many dressings on JJ's shoulder "Damn she's ripped open some stitches." Just then the nurse walked back in with a syringe in her hand and injected the liquid into the tube in the back of JJ's hand.

It took a few seconds but her struggling did stop and her sobs turned to whimpers as she drifted off to sleep.

"Re-stitch that and put a new dressing on please." Dr. Cain told the nurse and left the room holding JJ's records in his hand.

A/N... sooooo how'd i do? tell me please and dont hild back!

It looks like my muse has come home so im back to writing again so you MIGHT get more updates!

AJ xx