A/N ITS GONE! my writers block that is! yay ive missed writing this but i just got completely stuck!

I told you i would have one up by sunday and as it is sunday :P

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Morgan was woken from his sleep when the warm hand in his disappeared. He opened his eyes to see JJ struggling and crying.

He cursed under his breath and sat on the edge of her bed.

"Jayje, wake up your having a nightmare, its ok…"

"No…not th…the belt pl…please not ag…again." JJ sobbed

"Belt? What the hell?" Morgan let out a low growl, if the monster wasn't already dead there would be no stopping him wrapping his hands round his throat and watching the life leave his body "JJ baby girl c'mon wake up."

"Oh god, someone he…help m…me." JJ begged.

"JJ its Morgan, he's not here anymore, he can't hurt you now." JJ started to clam a little "That's it JJ, I'm right here, everything's going to be ok…"

"P….ple…please stop,I ca…cant take it an...anymore." JJ's fear filled eyes burst open.

"Hey there pretty girl." Morgan whispered.

JJ was looking dazed for a few seconds then she managed to focus on Morgan and burst into tears again.

"Its ok, its ok I've got you." This wasn't the first time Morgan had helped JJ after a dream in the past year and he very much doubted it would be the last for a while.

He gently swayed them both back and forward till JJ had clamed whispering reassuring words in her ear.

JJ pulled back, she was still shaking a little and very pale.

"You ok?"

"It felt so real Derek; every time he hit me I could feel it…."

The door to JJ's hospital room slammed open causing JJ to pale more and crawl back a little. A blonde woman came screaming in.

"YOU LITTLE BITCH!" The woman yelled.

"Mrs Merrick I suggest you leave now!" Morgan stood up and in between JJ and her mother.

"No" there was pure anger on the woman's face.

The others in the waiting room heard the commotion and came running in to see what was going on.

"It wasn't enough for you to take my baby away from me but you had to take my husband too!" Alice tried to side step Morgan but he was too fast.

"Mrs Merrick get out or I will have you removed!" Hotch came to join Morgan in front of JJ.

"No!" She spat at the two men and was grabbed from behind by Rossi and was being pulled out of the room when JJ's broken voice was heard.

"Why?" Everyone stopped in their tracks and looked at JJ; she had her knees to her chest and arms wrapped round them.

"Why what!" Alice growled.

"Why do you blame me for all of this?"

"Because it was your fault. I knew what he was doing to you all those years you dirty little whore and you loved it."

"WHAT!" Morgan yelled.

"And I didn't stop him because you deserved it. You drove you father away and that was your punishment for destroying everything." Tears were pouring down JJ's face "But you had to run away and force your punishment on to my baby and now you've killed both of them. You're a dirty little slut and you deserved everything you got. You destroy everything you touch whore!" If it wasn't for Rossi with a firm grip on the woman she would have launched herself at JJ.

Emily came out of her shock and slapped Mrs Merrick hard round the face splitting her lip and knocking her out of Rossi's grip and on to the floor.

"You are arrested for withholding evidence and threatening a federal agent." Rossi and Reid picked Mrs Merrick up off the floor, cuffed her and escorted her out of the room.

Everyone stood processing what they had just heard when they heard a sob. It was Emily that reacted first. She ran over to the bed and sat there holding a sobbing JJ in her arm.

"I d…didn't enjoy it, I I hated i…it you ha…have to believe m…e." JJ said through sobs.

"We know that Jayje and it never crossed our minds otherwise…" Emily held tighter and Garcia came over to join her two best friends on the bed.

"Why does my o…own mo…mother h…ha…hate me so much?"

"I don't know Jayje, some people aren't meant to have children and she's one of them."

"Take some slow breaths Shelby, this cant be good for your chest." Peter came and sat in the bed taking JJ's hand in his and slowly drawing comforting circles on the back of her hand.

JJ untangles herself from the arms round her and sat back taking a deep breath and slightly gasping in pain.

"Thanks…" JJ looked up at Emily and Garcia. Emily winked at her and Garcia gave her hand a gentle squeeze. She caught Peter and Sophie giving each other odd looks.

"What's going on?" She asked looking between her two councillors.

"Nothi…" Sophie started to say was stopped by peter.

"We got a phone call last night, the school needs us back." Peter sighed trying to read JJ's expressions. He could see the wave of fear and the sadness that had settled in her eyes.

"It's ok…" JJ said with a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes.

"They will be fine for a few more days…" Sophie came and sat on the bed next to JJ.

Hotch saw that the convocation was going to get personal and he didn't want himself or any of the other intruding on the moment "We'll give you guys some time alone." He said ushering the remaining BAU members out of the room.

JJ mouthed 'thank you' as he closed the door and in return she received one of his very rare dimple smiles.

"You two are their last hope…" the couple looked slightly puzzled at the statement "The kids at Horizon. You take them in because know one else wants to help them. As much as I would love you to stay and nurse me back to health" Peter and Sophie chuckled At JJ sarcasm, they knew she hated all the attention she was getting "Those kids need you more than I do. I can't imagine Horizon being the same without you two."

They both hated the idea of leaving the girl they both loved like a daughter but knew they had to get back to the other children.

"If you're sure…" Sophie relented.

"I'm sure, go before I change my mind." JJ accepted the older woman's hug and held on tight for a few seconds remembering the connection the two had. Sophie pulled away as a tear slipped. She wiped it away and then wiped away the one on JJ's pail cheek.

"You'll be ok" Peter asked holding her tight.

"I'll be fine" JJ reassured him.

"Shelby" Peter scowled he really did hate that four letter word but Sophie let out a small chuckle.

"Ok, Ok… I will be fine, in time"

Peter rested his hand on JJ's bruised cheek much like a father would his daughter and JJ slightly lent in to the warm hand.

"No more roof top stunts?" He whispered kissing the top of her head.

"No more roof top stunts I promise."

"We love you Shel, so much." Sophie wiped away her tears again and joined in the family moment.

"I love you guys too. You are the closest thing I have ever had to parents and I can't ever thank you enough."

"No thanks needed sweet girl." Both older adults held JJ tight for a few more minutes.

"We had better go then." Peter pulled away and held Sophie's hand as they walked to the door.

"You'll call us if you need anything?" Sophie asked,

"Yes…"

"I mean it any thing, anytime day or night."

"I'll call you…can you send Em in for me please?"

"Sure…Get some rest Shelby…" Peter opened the door and the couple walked out hand in hand taking one more look at the woman in the bed.

JJ was left on her own in the room for a few minutes, whilst talking to everyone she had tried her hardest to cover her true emotions and be strong but for a few seconds there was nobody in the room she needed to be strong for.

It felt like she was going to burst with emotion. Tears filled her blue eyes and she squeezed her fists tight and it all fell apart, the carefully constructed wall she had built came crumbling down in the silence of the room.

JJ cried. She cried and cried until a set of arms made her jump and let out a small whimper.

"I'm sorry JJ," Emily smoothed JJ's hair "Its me, I didn't mean to make you jump."

"Its ok…" JJ took a deep breath and composed herself.

"Peter and Sophie said you asked for me, is everything ok?" Emily sat next to JJ and held her still bandaged hand.

"How did you do it?" she asked quietly.

"Do what?"

"Survive?" JJ's voice was almost lower that a whisper now. She felt so guilty for asking Emily but she needed to know how it was done.

The both sat quietly for a moment while Emily though about the answer.

The brunette shifted on the bed and wrapped her arms round JJ and JJ rested her head in Emily's chest.

"It took me a while, no it took me a long time but eventually I realised that I didn't have to please everyone, I didn't need my parents to see me as their good little girl. I realised that I needed to put myself first for once and stop punishing myself when I wasn't good enough." Emily lifted a hand from JJ's back and ran it through the blonde's hair.

"And you did it right, you survived?" Emily could feel JJ's silent tears on her chest as she spoke.

"Yeah I did it, I survived. Some days, especially after really bad cases I want to hurt myself but I find other ways of dealing with the emotions. I talk with you or Pen. We go out or sometimes I sit and watch a really soppy movie and cry till my hearts content and if you ever tell anyone that I will deny it to the fullest." She felt JJ chuckle a little.

They both fell into comfortable silence for a while. Feeling safe in the others arms knowing that their best friend was there for the other no matter what.

"Em…where am I going to stay when I get out of here?" JJ whispered breaking the silence.

"Well that's up to you. You can either stay with me at my condo or I can come and stay with you until you're ready. Its entirely up to you." JJ untangled herself and Emily saw the look in JJ's eye as her mouth open "And before you say anything did you really think we would leave you on your own. It was either myself or our beautiful Pen that gets to stay by your side so…."

"You were thinking nobody should have to deal with a hyperactive technical annalist 24/7" JJ smirked at Emily out the corner of her eyes.

"Exactly." Emily chuckled "Right, you decide where you want to go and I'll go find your doctor and see when we can spring your sexy little ass out of here." Emily winked at the blonde and walked out.

JJ finally relaxed a little relived that they weren't treating her too differently.

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before i go for this chapter i just want to say thankyou so so so so so much for reading this and leaving reviews for thoes of you lovely people that have. it means so much to me that there are people in the world that likes the things i write and you are the reason i do it. i love you all and you all get a cyber hug!

AJ xx P.S I've changed my pen nme because my last name has changed but is still me hope it wont confuse anyone too much!