A/N PLEASE READ! I took this part out of the last chapter and i have re written it. i got a review from the brilliant starie78 giving me this idea and my muse grabbed onto it and wouldnt let go. So i have re written it and hopefully you ill like it.

Their might be a few more mistakes and errors than normal but concidering i've only just finshed writing this (it took me a few hours i couldnt get my muse to stop) i hope you dont mind plus you get 2 chapters in a day LUCKY YOU!

This fic is NOT over yet!...

The case the rest of the team had been on was a lot easier to solve than they all thought it would and they were home within 4 days of leaving. It doesn't mean to say it was any less horrifying then any other because it was, men being dragged of into the woods and slaughtered was horrifying. All their cases were nasty but some unsubs weren't as smart as they liked to think.

Emily walked through the front door just as the clock struck 2am, they didn't normally leave so early but everyone wanted to get home and rest, it was just as they were getting of the jet that Hotch informed them all that they didn't have to be in the office for a few days.

She dropped her go bag in the hall and went to find JJ and Garcia.

She walked into the front room to see Garcia sleeping on the couch with the credits rolling to some movie they had been watching and popcorn all over the floor from the toppled over bowl but there was no sign of JJ in the little scene that would normally make her smile

JJ not being there worried her slightly as there were no other sounds she could hear in the apartment. She checked the kitchen and no JJ then Emily checked the study and again still no JJ. By now she could feel her heart rate start to rise a little and feel the panic building.

"Calm down Prentiss shes just upstairs." Emily told herself.

She made her way up the stairs and stopped listening for any noise. That was when she heard what she though was a sob and a cough. Emily followed to where she thought the noise was. She walked into JJ's dark bedroom. Their were pictures scattered all over the bed and the room looked like a mess. The only light that was visible was the light coming through the crack in the bathroom door.

That was when she heard the noise again. JJ was gagging. Emily quickly made her way round the bed and to the door. The smell of vomit was evident even before she opened it.

She did open it and hated what she saw.

JJ was hunched over the toilet vomiting whatever was left in the stomach. Her hair looked slightly damp with sweat and was sticking to JJ's pail and clammy skin.

Emily walked over and crouched down next to her pulling JJ's hair back and making the blonde jump in the process.

JJ started to fight off the unknown source next to her and pulled away.

"JJ it's me, its Emily, your ok…"

JJ turned round and looked scared at Emily. She didn't want her to find out about the baby she was still struggling with the idea and didn't want her best friend to be disgusted by the news.

Just as she was about to ask Emily to leave a new wave of nausea came over her and she threw herself over the toilet again.

When JJ looked at her, Emily's heart broke for maybe the 100th time in just a few weeks. JJ's eyes were dark again and not bright like they were when she left. Her cheeks were sunken in a little and the bags under the blondes eyes made her look 10 years older than she was. She had tears running down her cheeks mixing in with the sweat.

JJ threw her self over the toilet forcing up what was left. It took a few minutes but the retching did finally stop and JJ sat back not looking up to meet Emily's look.

Emily got up and grabbed a couple of clod cloths from the sink pressing one against JJ's forehead and sat back down cleaning JJ up a little.

"JJ look at me." Emily whispered.

JJ shook her head "Please leave Prentiss."

It hurt that JJ used Emily's last name but the brunette knew JJ was trying to distance herself from the situation and it was one way she could do it.

"I'm not going to leave you in this state Jayje. Now please look at me."

It too a few seconds but JJ did look up at Emily.

JJ took a deep breath to steady the shaking feeling all over her body and to seem stronger than she felt "Please Emily I'm fine, i…it just a bug…"

"JJ stop…" Emily sighed "Its 2am and your sat on your bathroom after vomiting for god knows how long and your unable to stop the silent tears. I don't think you know your even crying JJ."

And Emily was right JJ didn't realise it and now it was like Emily's words caused the flood gates to open. She buried her head in her hands and sobbed. Her breath got stuck in her chest and she could feel herself panicking.

Emily knew JJ was struggling but she also knew that JJ was getting better. She was coping a lot better with everything and this…breakdown didn't make sense to her.

She pulled the hysterical blonde into her arms and gently ran her fingers through her hair, silently trying to figure out what was going on.

After a minute Emily had a thought that made her own stomach turn. She didn't want to think it true but it made sense, the vomiting the crying the incident with Garcia in the kitchen.

'Oh god please don't be true.' Emily thought to herself.

JJ was starting to hyperventilate in Emily's arms and she knew it a matter of moments it would turn into a full of panic attack if she didn't do something fast. Emily pulled back from JJ.

"JJ I need you to calm down for me ok." She watched as JJ tried to take a few deep breaths but it didn't work and she started to panic even more.

Emily put her hands on either side of JJ's face.

"Jayje I want you to close your eyes for me." JJ did as she was told "That's it. Ok now listen to my voice. Try and take some deep breaths again." It took a few tries but JJ's breathing slowly came under control and she opened her eyes.

"I need to ask you something and I need you to tell me the truth ok. What every you say, it'll be ok I'll be right here beside you."

JJ knew what Emily was about to ask her. The brunette was a world class profiler after all and she hadn't been able to hide much of her emotion since Emily had gotton in the room.

"JJ…" Emily could feel her own eyes tearing up and she watched JJ's do the same "JJ…are you pregnant?"

Emily didn't need an answer JJ's reaction was enough to tell her everything. The blonde let out a strangled sob.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." Tears slipped from her eyes as did the same with Emily.

"Oh Jayje…" There were so many emotions running through Emily in that moment. Hate, anger, regretted, dread, doubt… the list could go on but the one that sat high up the top of that list was fear. She was scared about what this was going to do to JJ.

After the minute it took for the shock to wear of Emily sat up against the cabinet and JJ rested her head on the brunettes lap and that's how the pair stayed for a good hour.

JJ silently thinking about…everything. What was she going to do? How was she going to get through this? Was she ever going to get out of this nightmare?

Emily silently praying that everything will be ok and that this wouldn't push JJ completely over the edge. And what about the team, what was she going to tell them? Was she going to tell them? Emily had loads of questions than needed answering.

"JJ…" Emily whispered not sure if the blonde had fallen asleep or not and still running her fingers through JJ's now dry hair.

"Mmmmmm…." JJ responded quietly.

"What are you going to tell the rest of the team?"

JJ sat up next to Emily and brought her knees to her chest.

"I'm not…"

"JJ you have…"

"Em, I can't." JJ knew Emily was about to go on about the fact that the team needed to know but she couldn't handle anyone else knowing right now "I haven't even come to terms with it. If you hadn't walked in here and seen the state I was in I wouldn't have told you either. I don't know what I'm going to do Em, I don't know how their going to take it. Are they going to think I'm a complete slut or…"

"JJ…" Emily shifter so she was facing her friend "They would never think that, they will be right behind you every step of they way just like I will be."

"I can't Em not yet please…" In her eyes Emily saw how much JJ just needed time and that was what she was going to give JJ time.

"Ok, but it doesn't mean I'm going to pretend like nothings happened, you do realise that."

"Yeah." JJ gave Emily a small smile "Everything hurts Em." JJ saw the confusion and worry in Emily "Not physically but emotionally. My head hurts all the time the flashback and nightmares are awful and my heart too. I don't know how much more of this I can take." JJ looked down at her lap ashamed of admitting she felt weak.

"It's ok JJ and it's to be expected. You've been through so much. Not just in the last months but in your whole life. You've been through more than a single person would go through in 5 life times. But you know what's amazing?" JJ looked up at Emily and shook her head "Your still here and fighting. Life has thrown you some nasty hurdles but you made it over them and look at you your amazing, smart, strong, beautiful and completely kick ass." Both woman giggled slightly "And this" Emily rested her hand on JJ's non existent baby bum "Is another hurdle for you to cope with and you will" Emily put her other hand on JJ's cheek "With me right by your side."

A/N... Im going to admit im quite proud of myself! i do like this chapter and i didnt want JJ to have to suffer all on her own.

please tell me what you think and if there are any questions you want answered.

AJ xx