„I can't sleep. I miss you. "Jade read that message over and over again; to be sure her eyes weren't fooling her. She thought about how to answer. Should she simply tell her to come over? Ask her what's wrong first?
"Fuck it." Jade said and began typing.
"I miss you too. I'm at my place. Come over if you want to." She typed and pressed the send button. There. Now it's all up to Cat. Jade watched her phone, waiting for a reply. The seconds seemed like hours to her. A minute later, she got an answer.
"Are you sure you want me there?" Jade began typing again, her fingers quicker that her mind.
"Yes, I am."
"Kaykay." And she didn't want anything more. Jade sighed at the situation. Not long ago, such messages weren't even necessary. They could simply come over to the others place without asking. One would always be there to cheer up the other when necessary. Cat cheered Jade up every time she had an argument with Beck in the past, or when her father told Jade that his girlfriend would move in with them. She would simply appear at Cat's place and tell her what's wrong. And now it came to a situation where both couldn't even have a normal conversation without feeling awkward or in Jade's case, guilty.
The knock on the door snapped Jade out of her thoughts. She went downstairs and opened the door, a sad smile appearing on her face when she saw the redhead standing there.
"Hi…" Cat weakly greeted, trying to look around, not to meet Jade's eyes.
"Hi. Come in." Jade stepped aside and motioned Cat to enter. They went upstairs and sat down on Jades bed.
"Why couldn't you sleep?" Jade asked softly. Cat raised her gaze from the floor up to her friend. She let out a heavy sigh and stood up.
"This is bullshit!" she yelled out of sudden, startling the Goth with the outburst.
"W… what do you mean?" Jade asked, confused at the statement and shocked at the cursing.
"This is fucking bullshit. All this!" Cat said again, beginning to pace in Jade's room. Jade kept her stare at her friend, not knowing what the next reaction could be.
"My best friend who I hadn't seen in fourteen weeks comes back and I can't hang out with her because of some stupid thing said on the phone and me reacting to it like an oversensitive bitch. Tell me if that's not fucking bullshit?" Cat asked, stopping in her pacing and looking directly at Jade, who didn't answer right away. This was the last thing she had expected. Cat shook her head and continued.
"All this time I try to be angry at the things you say; the way you act; the way you threat others; me. And every time I do so, I get mad at myself! Do you know why? Because I understand why you did all those things! I understand where they come from. I understand because I've been there every time something happened. I know what you have been through. I understand that you have no other way to deal with those things. And still, I can't just shrug your insults off like Tori does. I can't ignore them like Robbie always did. I can't forget any of those things you said although I know you didn't mean them. And because I have a bipolar, oversensitive mind I almost threw this friendship of 12 years away because of nothing! I almost threw it away because I always keep thinking about the bad things you have done. I never stopped to think about everything you have done for me. Every time my brother had to go to the hospital, you were there. Every time I was depressed, you were there for me. I never seem to remember those things, and I hate myself for that!" Cat finished as tears began flowing down her cheek. Jade jumped off her bed and placed both hands on Cat's shoulders, stopping her from pacing around anymore. Cat was looking down, tears freely falling. Jade placed two fingers under Cat's chin, lifting her up so she was looking at the Goth. Cat's tear filled eyes were met by a warm smile and a pair of green eyes filled with tears themselves. Jade shook her head.
"You are right. This situation is bullshit. It's bullshit because I did all these stupid things. And I used things from the past to do them. I did them to people who never hurt me once in my life. And I thought I had the right to do them. But I don't."
"Jade… I understand why you did them. It's okay…"
"No, it's not." Jade cut her off, her voice calm yet conflicted trough her resisting the urge to cry. "It's not okay. You have every right to be mad at me. You do. You didn't overreact. I was the one who made a lot of mistakes. But I want to change. I'm going to stop acting that way. I'm going to open up more to you guys. I won't make you pay for the things others did to me. You don't deserve to be treated that way. I meant all those things I said the other day. If you give me one more chance, I promise I'm going to do my best to make up for the bad things I've done. I'm going to show you more how much I appreciate you. I'm tired myself of acting the way I did in the past." Jade sighed, her gaze not once moving from her friend. "I'm sorry for what I did." Jade finished. For a moment, there was only silence. Everything had been said now. Jade felt Cat tremble under her hands. Cat looked up at Jade again, a small smile forming on her lips as closed the distance between them and embraced the taller girl in a hug. Jade gladly hugged her back, the weight of the world having fallen of her shoulder.
"Thank you." Jade whispered, happy to have her best friend back.
"How about we watch a movie?" Cat asked, her tears finally coming to a halt.
"Sure. Go pick one; I'll go get something to eat." Jade said as Cat went to pick a DVD. Jade went downstairs and took some chips and sodas. She felt her phone vibrate in her pocket and checked the message. It was from Beck.
"You not coming over 2nite?" She quickly typed a reply.
"No, Cat is at my place. We're having a sleepover. :')" She sent the message, getting the answer half a minute later.
"You kids have fun! :D 3" She put her phone back in her pocket and went upstairs to her room. She saw Cat lying on the bed. Jade laid down herself and placed the chips on the side.
"What movie did you pick?" Jade asked, looking at the redhead.
"Naked gun. I just want to laugh." Cat said with a small smirk.
"Me too. Let's watch it." They started the movie. After an hour, they both fell asleep. Their sleep was peaceful, for the first time in days.
Beck, Andre and Robbie were standing in front of Beck's locker, talking about a project they had. Beck had a smile on his face the whole time.
"What are you so happy about?" he turned around when he heard Tori talk to him.
"Oh nothing." He simply shrugged. "But if you turn towards that door you might find the reason."
Tori turned around with a confused expression on her face, happiness replacing it the moment she saw Cat and Jade walk into Hollywood Arts together, talking and laughing. They walked over to them.
"Hi!" Cat greeted them with her old enthusiasm. Tori looked at her and then at Jade.
"Did… did you two?" Andre stuttered.
"Mhm." Cat nodded.
"Finally…" Robbie uttered, making the others laugh. They did agree with his statement.
"Guys, look. Friday night, dinner at the restaurant we always go to during our ping pong tournaments. I'm inviting you." Jade told them, earning a stare from the guys.
"Jade, did you forget how expensive that place is?" Andre asked.
"Did you forget that I'm working on a Hollywood movie? Money is not an issue right now." Jade answered with a smirk. "So? What do you say?" She looked around.
"I'm in." Andre said, his mouth watering at the memory of the delicious food.
"Me too." Beck said.
"I already told you, yes." Tori said.
"I told you too." Cat smiled.
"Can I order the Caviar again?" Robbie asked with a grin.
"Don't push it, Shapiro." Jade told him with the old intimidation in her voice. He simply shrugged as he turned around and walked to class, Andre, Tori and Cat following him, greeting Jade as they left.
"So… You have time for a date tonight?" Beck asked her, happy to have her for himself for a moment.
"Oh, and what type of date?" She teased.
"Let's just say, I have a surprise for you." Beck said with a grin. He gave her a quick kiss and left. Jade walked outside, thinking about what surprise Beck could have planned.