A/N: Well hello there…I know, it's been a while, but I won't bore you with the details of my extended absence. I'll just let you know that I'm back and plan to update at least every 2 weeks until this story is finished. I hope this chapter makes up for the wait.
Ness sat curled on the couch in the living room, a blanket thrown over her lap, as she starred off into space. It was just after 3 pm, she'd come down from her room a short while ago after having spent the majority of the day in bed. She was trying desperately to snap herself out of it, she knew she couldn't mope forever, but she was mentally exhausted and it was so much easier to just shut herself off.
Her conversation with her mother the night before hadn't lasted long and Bella hadn't asked why Ness hadn't responded to Michael, but she could hear the unasked questions in her mother's voice. She knew she'd panicked and hadn't reacted in the best way. And it broke her heart every time she remembered the look that Jake had given her before he'd walked away. But she'd begun to feel as if she couldn't breathe, everything was weighing down on her shoulders and she'd needed some space. After he'd left, she'd made her way into the house, knowing she had to call Michael back.
They'd spent an hour on the phone; Michael immediately questioning Ness as to what she had been up to all day that had kept her from calling him. Ness had lied, claiming to have lost track of the time while shopping, and immediately hated herself for it. She'd never been a liar before, and now they were piling up, leaving a trail of destruction along the way.
After she'd apologized, Michael had let it go and moved on, talking about his case and when he thought he'd be able to come home. He'd also mentioned a few options he'd been considering as a make-up anniversary get-away. Ness had cringed internally at that, she couldn't imaging Michael coming home and going back to the way things had been; she couldn't pretend anymore. She'd hardly participated in the conversation after that, only interjecting every-so-often.
When the conversation came to a close, it had been a struggle to get the I love you passed her lips, but she'd managed. She'd known it was another lie, but it had been a necessary one for the time being. Michael didn't deserve to be told over the phone that she no longer wanted to be with him, she'd wait until he was home to do that.
Although the conversation had been difficult for her, it had strengthened her resolve. One of the reasons she'd started freaking out with Jake was because she hadn't been sure if she'd thought everything out before rushing forward. After talking to Michael, she was one hundred percent positive that her marriage was over. If she stayed, it would just cheat both of them.
But even though she knew she was right about Michael, she realized she'd handled things with Jake wrong. She'd been silly to think, just because she decided she was going to get a divorce, that things would go smoothly and she could just pick up and run off to Forks.
There were so many factors; Michael still loved her, she'd signed a pre-nup and he was a very successful attorney. She didn't want anything from him, and she'd be sure everyone knew it, but still…it wouldn't be an easy divorce. Was it fair to drag Jacob through all of that with her, if he were willing to stick around once he knew? Would it have been better if she hadn't come back for him? Should she just pack up her things and leave, as if she'd never been here in the first place?
Those were the things she'd been contemplating all day as she sat in bed. And as she'd been unable to come up with a plan, she'd decided it was a lot easier to just block it all out and not think about it; she was a coward.
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Jacob managed to somehow make it through the day. Although work had been slow, he'd tried to keep himself occupied. He couldn't stop himself from checking his cell phone every hour though to see if she'd called. And every hour he'd see the same thing…she hadn't.
It was the end of the day now and after locking up the garage, he got on his bike and headed home. He drove fast down the quite streets of the sleepy town, trying to keep his mind off of her. But the fast pace had its disadvantages and before he knew it, he was home. He made his way into the house and quickly spotted his father in the kitchen.
"Hey dad," he said as he walked down the hall and to his room.
His father's next words stopped him. "Hey Jake. Rachel thought we might like a nice dinner and brought over some enchiladas this afternoon. I was just heating them up…you hungry?"
He realized he was actually starving; he hadn't eaten dinner the night before and only had a small lunch. Turning, he walked back towards the kitchen, "Yeah, I could eat, thanks."
They ate in silence; Billy knowing his son well enough not to press him in his current mood and Jake not offering up any details.
Jake cleaned up after dinner and then went to his room. He pulled his cell phone from his back pocket and sat on his bed. No missed calls, he thought, setting the phone down on the bed beside him.
He stood and grabbed his laptop from his dresser, needing to keep his mind busy so he wouldn't obsess about Ness and why she hadn't called yet. He spent the next couple of hour's online, checking email and visiting his favorite website, car talk.
It helped to pass the time, it was now eight o'clock, but Jake soon grew bored and closed his laptop, tossing it onto the bed as he stood. He needed to get out, get some fresh air, so he grabbed his phone from the bed and his keys off the dresser before heading out of the house.
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Twenty minutes later, Jake sat astride his bike, stopped on the side of the road. He hadn't had a particular destination in mind when he'd left his house earlier…at least he hadn't thought so. But now, as he sat near the turn off that led up to Ness' house, he knew this was where he'd been itching to go all day.
He made up his mind then and turned his bike to the left, slowly making his way up the path. When he reached the driveway, he cut it off and dropped the kickstand. He ran his hands nervously through his hair a couple of times before dismounting. Once he stood, he knew there was no turning back.
His stomach rolled as he walked up the front porch and he wondered to himself if he was doing the right thing. She'd been such a mess the day before and she hadn't called him yet, if she was ready to see me, wouldn't she have called? He paused then, and for a second he contemplated turning around, getting back on his bike and leaving. But something inside of him stopped him, wouldn't let him turn around, and after a moment, he kept going.
Once he reached the front door, he brought his hand up and rang the doorbell. It was quite and he could hear it going off on the inside. He was confident as he waited for Ness to answer, believing that he was doing the right thing.
But as the seconds passed, and she didn't come to the door, his nervousness returned. What's taking so long? He thought as he rang the doorbell again.
He waited…and waited, but she didn't answer. Jake began to panic, where is she, why isn't she answering, she wouldn't leave without telling me…would she? Those thoughts bombarded him and he was seconds away from bringing his fist up and banging on the door. And then he heard something.
Less than a second later, the door opened and Ness stood in front of him. He let out the breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding as he looked her over. He was so relieved she hadn't left that he missed how tired she looked.
"Jacob," she said, but didn't add anything to it.
"Ness," he began, "I know you said you needed some time…but I was so worried. And you promised you'd call but you didn't and I-"
She reached for him, cutting him off as she pulled him into the house by his shirt. Once he was in, she pushed the door shut and pressed herself against him. "Hold me, please," she begged.
Jake complied, lifting his arms and wrapping them around her waist. He stroked her hair as he held her, not saying anything for a moment, just enjoying the feel of her.
After a moment he felt her hands, they started at his hips and slid slowly up his sides and then back down. She repeated the process a few times and Jake just closed his eyes and rested his head on top of hers.
She pulled back some after a second and Jake looked down into her eyes. There were no lights on in the entryway, the moonlight shining through the windows on either side of the door their only illumination.
Jake watched as she lifted herself and when she was just a couple of inches away, he brought his head down to meet hers.
Their lips met, and a spark ignited inside of Jake. He knew there were things they had to talk about but, at the moment, all he cared about was being with Ness, holding her, kissing her.
He let his hands slide down her back and stopped once he reached her ass, squeezing it with his palms and bringing her closer to him. He heard her moan into his mouth at the contact and he squeezed again before dropping his hands slightly and wrapping them around her upper thighs. He used his hands to lift her and she wrapped her legs around his waist.
Jake moved forward then, until he had Ness' back pressed against the wall. He broke the kiss and started a trail along her jaw and up to her ear, "You taste so good," he whispered and then ran his tongue around it.
The sound of his voice and the feeling of his breath on her ear sent shivers down Ness' body and she unintentionally bucked her hips against his. He caught her lobe in between his teeth and flicked it with his tongue before kissing back down her neck. She felt the desire rising up within her and she had to be closer. She used her arms and legs to pull him as close as he could get, but it wasn't enough, there was still too much separating them.
"Jake, let's go upstairs," she demanded.
Jake lifted his head to look at her, but it was too dark in the entryway and Ness couldn't clearly make out the look on his face. Hoping he wasn't about to deny her, Ness raised her hands up into his hair and used them to pull his face towards hers again. She resumed their kiss and cheered internally when she sensed no hesitancy on his part.
The lust had risen quickly within Jake, but he'd heard Ness' plea. Everything they were doing felt so good and he didn't want to stop, but a tiny voice in the back of his head was telling him to slow things down. As he looked at her, it was hard to tell what she was thinking in the dim light, but when she brought his head down to hers and sucked his bottom lip into her mouth, all coherent thoughts left his head and he let his desires lead him.
He moved away from the wall, taking Ness with him as he headed towards the stairs. They didn't break the kiss as they climbed, but he stopped when they reached the top.
Knowing he needed direction, Ness pulled her lips slightly away, "second door on the right."
They moved towards the room, kissing softly as they went, until Jake stopped by the foot of Ness' bed. He leaned down slowly and released his hold on her when she reached the mattress. Once she was on the bed, he stepped back and looked at her.
The wall of windows to his right allowed the moonlight to fill the room and it was much easier to see than it had been downstairs. Jake ran his eyes over Ness, from her head to her feet. As he watched, she lifted her arms and removed her shirt; tossing it to the floor as she starred back at him.
Jakes eyes left her face and focused on her breasts, now only hidden from his view by a lavender bra. The pale tops of her round breasts strained against the material and he felt himself twitch. Her hands reached up behind herself and he knew what was coming next. Realizing his throat had gone dry, he swallowed as he watched the straps of her bra slide off her shoulders and down her arms.
And then the bra fell away leaving her bare, nipples already hard in anticipation. Jake was growing harder by the second and he was beginning to feel uncomfortable in his jeans as he looked her over, but he couldn't drag his eyes away.
Ness felt the heat pulse through her body as Jacobs eyes roamed over her. No one had ever looked at her the way he was; it made her ache. All she was left wearing was a short pair of black cotton shorts and panties, but she wasn't ready to remove them just yet. Instead, she used her hands and legs to help scoot herself back on the bed. When she reached the headboard, she beckoned Jake towards her with her finger.
The simple action broke Jake out of the trance he'd been in. Hurriedly, he lifted his hands behind his back and removed his t-shirt, tossing it aside once it was off. He made a move towards the bed and then hesitated. His jeans were too restricting against him and he didn't want them separating him from Ness anymore. He reached down and unbuckled his belt; he then popped the button and lowered the zipper. Finally, he slid his jeans to the floor and stepped out of them, leaving only his boxers in place.
He started towards the bed again, going around to the left side and keeping his eyes on Ness's face the entire time. Her eyes were wide as they traveled up and down his body and just before he reached her, he saw her tongue dart out and lick her lips
Slowly, he climbed onto the bed and laid himself out beside Ness. He watched her chest heave up and down, her breasts calling him to them. He placed his palm on the bare skin of her waist and brought his head down to her chest.
When his lips made contact with her skin, shocks of pleasure ran through her body. His hand on her waist was squeezing as his tongue circled her taught nipple. After a minute, he switched, sliding his tongue across her body and to her other nipple. This one he took into his mouth, gently nipping and pulling with his teeth and Ness nearly lost it, letting out small gasps and moans.
He started moving his hand lower until it met the waistband of her shorts; pausing for only a second before sliding his hand under. He stopped when he felt the short, soft hairs and softly caressed her without letting his fingers go any further.
He was killing Ness, she wanted so badly for him to touch her but she was too shy to ask. Instead, she began to gently rock her hips up, hopping he'd get the message.
He did, and he took it, moving his hand lower. He let his fingers slide between her folds and he growled deep within his chest as he felt just how much Ness wanted him, "God Ness, you're so wet."
"Is – that okay?" she asked and then gasped as Jakes finger flicked over her clit.
"Fuck yes," he groaned. He moved two of his finger slightly lower and entered her, still keeping his thumb pressed against her clit. She was so tight around his fingers and Jake moaned, imagining how good she'd feel wrapped around his dick later.
When his fingers entered her, Ness started rocking her hips again, matching his movements. As she rose up, she felt Jake slide closer and she was able to feel all of him pressed against her. He felt so hard and hot and big, and she had to touch him.
Using the hand that had been trapped between them, Ness twisted her wrist and wrapped her hand around Jacob through his boxers. She squeezed and began moving her hand slightly up and down, never realizing before how much pleasure she could get from touching someone this way. She didn't have much experience and that, coupled with the things Jake was doing to her own body, made it difficult, but she hoped it felt good for him as well.
It did, and Jacob gave himself a minute to close his eyes as he concentrated on the feel of Ness around his fingers and the way she was moving her hand over his dick. He slowed down his movements and after another second, stopped moving all together.
Ness looked at him then and her hand held still, a question in her eyes. His eyes were dark and his breathing heavy as he starred down at her and asked, "Can I take these off?"
"Uh-huh," she replied breathlessly, removing her hand that was wrapped around Jake. She used her feet to lift her lower half slightly and was just about to pull her shorts off when Jake stopped her.
"I wanna do it." He looked into her eyes so intensely and Ness could only nod in response.
Jake rose up onto his knees and moved until he was kneeling in front of her. He used both of his hands to pull Ness' shorts and panties slowly down her legs. When he reached her feet, she lowered herself back to the bed and he was able to get them off the rest of the way.
She was left lying there, beautifully exposed to Jake and he let his eyes explore all of her for a moment. But he was pulled from his exploration when he heard Ness.
"My turn," was all she said before she quickly sat up. Jake was still on his knees in front of her which left her head at stomach level. She smiled to herself as she leaned forward and let her tongue dart out.
She licked, kissed and sucked on the contours of his abs and Jake felt his stomach clench in pleasure. He wondered how far she was planning on going and felt his dick grew impossibly harder.
Her hands came up then and she hooked her thumbs into the waistband of his boxers. She tilted her head up and locked her eyes with his just before she started sliding them down his thickly muscled thighs.
When she reached his knees, she could go no further. Jake brought up his left hand and softly caressed her check. He leaned down and brought his lips to hers, kissing her hungrily as he used his body to push her backwards.
Her back hit the mattress and she felt Jake settle on top of her; his weight felt so good. But he rose up quickly and it took Ness a second to realize what he was doing,
Using his right hand and his feet, Jake lowered and removed his boxers the rest of the way before pressing his body back against Ness'. He'd wanted to take things slow but they'd gone too far now. He needed her, needed to be inside of her, feel her, and he couldn't stop himself.
"I need you Ness." He whispered.
She wasn't scarred, she knew Jacob wanted her, but she hadn't been expecting the raw desire, the need she'd heard in those four little words. Even more shocking, she realized she felt the same and she nodded, "I need you too."
She felt him at her entrance as he settled between her legs; he was so close and she thrust her hips up slightly into his, giving him the green light. He took it and Ness felt him slide into her as she brought her legs up and wrapped them around his hips.
Jake tried to keep his eyes locked on Ness, but the feeling of her wet heat wrapped around him was too much and his eyes closed as he bit his lip and lowered his head to her shoulder. "Fuck Ness, you feel so good," he managed to get out through gritted teeth.
He was trying to hold onto control, he wanted Ness to feel everything he was feeling and that meant focusing on her first. He raised his head from her shoulder and brought his lips to hers, letting his tongue massage hers as he starting moving inside of her slowly.
He felt Ness respond; using her legs that were wrapped around him to lift her hips off the bed and meet his thrusts. He heard her moans, muffled by his mouth that was pressed against hers, felt her fingers gripping the flesh of his shoulders and he sped up.
Ness broke the kiss as Jake began thrusting faster, moaning as she said, "Yes – Jake." Her breathing was growing heavier by the second as the pleasure intensified and she felt herself racing towards the finish line.
Jake felt Ness pulsing tighter around him every few seconds as she flexed and he couldn't stop the groan that escaped his lips. He wasn't sure how much longer he'd be able to last, but he knew he wanted Ness to come first. Rising up slightly on his right arm, he used his left hand to trail down between their bodies; stopping just above the place they were connected to rub his thumb over Ness' clit.
She let out a gasp as she felt Jake rub her clit in circles. She was moaning incoherently, about to lose control.
"That's it baby, come for me," Jake said, urged on by her cries and pumping harder towards his own release.
Ness barely registered his words, lost in the moment, until it hit her, the crashing peak of ecstasy, and she flung herself over the edge as she screamed his name. "Oh God, J-ake, yes, yes."
Jake couldn't hold back any longer. Feeling Ness, seeing and hearing her as she came, was too much for him. He thrust hard and quick three more times before he reached his own climax.
He came hot and hard and Ness could feel him inside of her as she floated down from her high. She'd never known it could be like this, and it was at that moment that she knew she never wanted it to end.
A/N: Okay, so, this was my very first lemon. I wrote it and then came back a few days later to re-read it to make sure it was up to par…I'm very picky about my lemons. So I hope it meets all of your standards as well. Please please let me know what y'all think.