He is sensible and so incredible
I couldn't help but smile as he swung me in his arms. His laugh was so pure and sweet and I hated the fact that I didn't love him the way he loved me. I hated the fact that I didn't smile the way I did when I was with her.
"Aiden! Put me down!" I flailed my legs as he spun me around.
"Alright! Alright!"
Gently he lowered me to the ground.
And all my single friends are jealous
He was the perfect guy. He really was. I knew people were jealous of me for having him. Madison always told me, "Girl you definitely traded up from her. Look at him, those are good abs on a boy as sweet as he is."
And I always felt so guilty. He was the perfect guy, but as cliche as it sounds. He wasn't the perfect guy for me. Hell I didn't even want a guy.
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He pulled me against his body and I felt myself collide into his hard body. I missed the softness of Ashley's body. His abs hurt her when he collided into her, Ashley's never did that.
He opens up my door and I get into his car
His car pulls up in the driveway and as I'm running down the pathway I see him get out of the driver's seat and pull open the passenger seat. Smiling shyly I scooted into the comfortable leather seat of his Nissan. He closed the door and I watched as he jogged his way around to his side. Yet all I could think about was how much I missed Ashley picking me up in her Porsche.
And he says, you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine
Slipping into his seat he leaned over to kiss me, turning away I offered my cheek to him.
"You look beautiful tonight Spence." He smiled to me and I smiled back as he started the car. I could smell his after shave and in a way it comforted me but at the same time made me miss Ashley all the more. As he rolled out of my driveway my mind began to wonder back.
But I've been screamin' and fightin'
(flashback)
I stumbled down the stairs of her mansion and flung my arm to get her to let go.
"Spencer baby I'm sorry. You know I didn't mean it like that."
"Well then why say it at all?" I yelled back as I continued to storm through her living room. Once again wrenching my wrist free from her grip I grabbed my purse from the counter top and stormed out the door into the pouring rain.
And kissin' in the rain
As the rain pounded at my body I felt her grab me by the hips again and spin me around. Pushing my body against her Porsche her lips crashed into mine in a passionate kiss. Our lips moved in a passionate rhythm, molding our bodies closer and closer. Her hands went from tangled in my hair to pulling at my drenched top.
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
"Fuck Ash." I moaned, I could feel myself getting wet in more than one way.
You're so in love that you act insane
Her lips travelled down to my neck where I felt her begin to mark me and I grinded my hips into hers getting the message of what I wanted across to her.
And that's the way I loved you
"I Love You Spencer." She declared before biting down on the sensitive spot on my neck making my whole body buck into hers.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
The rain fell down on her face masking her hair to her, making her white tank top see through. She pulled my shirt over my head, her nails were quick to scrape at my stomach.
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
I felt the familiar lurch in my stomach as her hands traced unknown patterns across my torso. Moving up my sides, across my shoulders, they tickled at my collar bones and I watched her eyes darken in lust as she lowered them towards my chest.
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
Her hands moved across my bra, my nipples were quick to respond as they stood erect behind the material. But not long after that she had discarded that next to my shirt on the floor. The rain was pounding at my bare skin and I never felt anything better than this. As her touches burned through me the rain cooled me down.
"I Love You Ashley."
He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
"You okay Spence?" Aiden's voice brings be back to the present. I smile and nod to him because I don't trust my voice. He simply nods deciding not to push her any further.
He's close to my mother
My mind wonders again but to Aiden. My mother is so happy. She had gotten around to the idea that she couldn't seperate me and Ashley. But when she saw Aiden. God, she practically fell in love with him. He's the perfect boy she always wanted me to date.
Talks business with my father
And my dad loved him. Aiden taught my dad how to make his Grandma Dennison's world famous turkey soup. They bonded over everything. From basketball teams, to colleges that were good, to the perfect way to bake a cake.
He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable
I looked over to him again and again have that nagging feeling of guilt well up inside me. He was the perfect boyfriend and all I could think about was my ex-girlfriend. Reaching over I took his hand that wasn't on the steering wheel in mine. When he looked at me I smiled and squeezed his hand a little. Smiling back at me her looked back up and continued to drive. I could see how happy he was me, simply holding his hands and it increased my guilt by tenfolds.
But I've been screamin' and fightin'
I closed my eyes and again my mind travelled back to Ashley.
Her hands moved to my revealed breasts, her lips were set on mine again as she flicked my nipples in her hands.
And kissin' in the rain
I felt her tongue sweep at my bottom lip and I was more than willing to grant her permission. And our tongue's duelled passionately. I felt the water droplets slip down my body. I felt the drops from our faces pool together.
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
She dropped her head and began leaving a trail of kisses towards my breasts. I threw my head back and let out a loud moan. "Oh fuck Ash!" I screamed into the cold night air. I arched my back Had it not been rainig the neighbors would have definitely heard us by now.
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
I felt her take my cold nippple into her mouth. The contrast from how cold the air was and how hot her mouth was make me shiver in pleasure. Her tongue flicked at my nipple inside her mouth as her other hand rolled my other nipple between her fingers. I pulled at her hair urging her impossibly closer to me.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
My breath hitched as I felt her other hand inch downwards, her mouth swithed to give the other nipple equal attention.
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
I gasped as her fingers glided along my wet stomach and I desperately grasped at the hem of her shirt.
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
Pulling her shirt over her head she broke our contact to let me pull it off. Our lips collided again and her hands settled and began to work on the button on my wet jeans.
He can't see the smile I'm fakin'
I looked at Aiden again he was still driving silently, stealing a few glances at me. I was majorly spacing out. He looked over again with a worried expression and I faked a smile to let him know I was fine.
And my heart's not breakin'
I didn't love him. Not the way he loved me. And as much as I wanted to feel heart broken over the fact that I couldn't be with the perfect guy. It hurt me that life would be so much easier if I could be with him.
'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all
He stopped at a red light and turned to me squeezing my hands. I turned to him my head to him and he leaned in to kiss me. And I let him. His lips weren't as soft as her's were. He left a quick peck and I felt nothing. There was no spark, there was no love. There wasn't anything. The light switched to green and he turned his attention to the road and continued to drive. I looked down at my lap and let Ashley take over my mind again.
And you were wild and crazy
I remember when she used to sneak into my house to see me at night. She had found a way to climb up to my window. And a few times my mom almost caught the two of us in bed. The first time Dad caught us she was spooning me and we were sleeping. He didn't tell me he knew until the next morning.
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
It always frustrated me. Ashley always hurt me even when she never meant to. And I forgave her too easily but she is the hardest person to be mad at.
Got away by some mistake and now
I don't even remember how we split up. We had a big fight and Aiden came along. He was everything I wished for in a boyfriend. And when Ashley saw the two of us she just lost it. My mind travels again back to the fight we had in the rain.
I'll be screamin' and fightin'
My hips jerked to the movement on her hands as she undid the button on my jeans. Her breath was hot against my face. I bit my lip as her hand slipped into my jeans.
And kissin' in the rain
She teases at center running her fingers delicately along the folds as she leans in to kiss me again. She pushes me down on the hood of the car and it's hard to stay on from how slippery it is but she holds me in place.
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
"Fuck Ashley I need you inside of me." She loved it when I begged. And beg I did, with that she slammed two fingers into me making me squeal in pleasure. The rain continued to pound at our skin.
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
My body slides down the car but she uses that as a way to fuck me harder, pushing my slick body up the hood of th car and letting me fall back down hard on her fingers.
"More baby I need more of you in me." I demanded loudly. No one heard us the rain was pounding so hard on the side walk. She easily slipped a third finger in me and I could feel myself stretching.
"Oh fuck." I grabbed onto her digging my nails into her bare back. She still had my whole body falling down on her hands. Her thumb brushed lightly against my clit making my hips buck into her almost throwing her off the car. She could tell I was close because her thumb was making rapid circles around my clit, tapping it occasionally in random patterns.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
"Come for me Spencer." Her husky voice filled my ears.
She dragged her fingers across my g-spot and I let it all go. Screaming into the night air.
"ASSHLEEEYYY!!!" She continued to pump into me drawing out my orgasm as I fell limp on top of her car.
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
I could feel her kisses along my neck, my cheeks, across my eye lids. She covered me with kisses as I recovered from the orgasm.
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
I opened my eyes looking into hers we searched in each other's eyes. We simply lay there on her car in the pouring rain swimming in each other. It wasn't until half an hour later when we were both shivering that she wrapped me in her arms and carried me back into the empty mansion. She made me a bubble bath and we lay in each other's arms. Later on that night we fell asleep our naked bodies entangled.
And that's the way I loved you
The car jerked to a stop and I realized he had parked outside a fancy restaurant. I was beginning to feel empty all this thinking about Ashley had be depressed and I wanted nothing to do with Aiden right now. He ran over to my side to open the door for me again offering his hand and I took it.
I never knew I could feel that much
We entered the restaurant and he approached the waiter, "Dennison, table for 2, 7 o'clock.
"Ahh yes. Mr. Dennison right this way please."
Allowing me to go first I smiled politely, as soon as he wasn't looking at my face I let the comfortable blank expression take over once again.
We were brought to a table, and there she was. Just next to us. It looked like she was on a date but she too had a blank expression upon her face.
And that's the way I loved you
As if she sensed my presence she looked up from her glass of water. I saw the joy flash across her face before confusion and sadness took over. It was then that my hand burned in Aiden's and I snatched it away as if he had hurt me.
Her date continued to talk to her but she looked at me and cocked her head giving me a questioning glance.
I looked at Aiden where he watched confused as we held out a seat for me to sit in. And back to Ashley her date had finally followed where she was looking and was now staring at me in disgust.
"Spencer why don't you sit down." Aiden was still confused, I had yet to tell him that the beautiful brunette sitting there was my ex-girl friend.
I sat down in the seat he offered and continued to steal glances at Ashley, I saw her excuse hereslf to the bathroom. I wanted to follow but her date was giving me the stink eye and Aiden took my hand in his and started talking. I had to force myself to listen to him and nod along.
"...and you're a really special girl Spencer. I've never felt this way about anyone before."
My heart broke a little more.
The waiter came back and handed us our menus, at the same time that I saw Ashley return to her table.
Opening mine I gasped at what I found inside.
There, written unmistakably in Ashley's handwriting was:
"Here's a little something I wrote for you:
I'll be screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
I'm so sorry Spencer. I Love you.
Leave with me please?"
I looked up but she was no longer in her seat she was right next to me.
"What do you say Spence?"
It felt so good to hear Ashley say her name again.
"Umm, who are you?" Aiden questioned from behind Ashley unsure as to who this woman was crashing his date with Spencer.
"I'm so sorry Aiden. You're the perfect guy, the perfect boyfriend. But I Love Ashley." Spencer stumbled to her feet. She walked over and kissed Aiden on his cheek.
"You're going to make some girl the happiest girl ever Aiden Dennison."
And with that she took Ashley's outstretched hand.