So uh yeah sorry that this took so long... had it half way finished about a week and a half ago... ive been working about 85 hours a week and by the time i get home im just passed out getting ready for the next day. im sorry that it took so long but i wanted to make it longer. im working another chap tomorrow because i have the whole morning off and im gonna need something to do so look for it most likely gonna be up the end of this week if not later tomorrow night. well steph owns... read on ily! xoxox

I sat there in the front row. Edwards hand on my shoulder as much as I didn't want it there I knew it was just to make sure that if I needed him to take the baby I knew he was there. It hurt me to feel all the emotions I was feeling at this moment. I looked over at the two coffins that were lying there in front of me. My Alice. Jasper's Alice. Makenna's Alice.

I looked down at little Makenna who had no idea why everybody was so sad. She was so cute in the little black dress I picked up the little black dress from baby gap. Alice would have been so proud that I picked out a cute dress. Esme complemented it, she had put on this beautiful service. Esme was Alice's mother. They both had amazing taste. Esme always counted me as daughter growing up. The flowers that she had picked were some kind of lily that Alice had at the wedding that she absolutely loved. They surrounded the two coffins which Alice and Jaspers "remains" went into. Before they had done anything with what I knew couldn't be very much of the bodies I put in each of their coffins a picture of Makenna, Edward and I the day she was born. When I was looking for what I wanted to put into them I started looking at the pictures around the house. Alice had tons of her and I. Her and Jasper. Jasper, Makenna and her. And even a few of Edward and I. I hated to see them when I came over. When I was looking around in the living room for the binkies I found a new photo album, one that I hadn't seen before. When I looked at it later that night I found pictures of the week before Makenna was born, when Makenna was born and the 2 weeks Jake and I were here after she was born. They made me smile so much and cry.

Jake and I were going over to see Alice just before she popped! I was so excited and couldn't stop talking about the "good ole times" with Alice and Jasper and how much things were going to be amazing and change and how we were going to go to the park and have Christmas like real people. Jake rolled his eyes at me as we drove down the highway but laughed at how excited I was. "Bells your so funny. You make it seem like you want a kid or something. You know their lives wont change that much. It is only Alice and Jasper." I just shook my head because I knew how much Alice wanted this baby and how she secretly couldn't wait. She might be a party animal but she secretly had always wanted a baby. She had trouble getting pregnant, I had always told her if she ever needed anything from me I would do it for her. She was my best friend. Kinda like my first love I would do anything for her! Jake had been pressuring me into kids lately. For me kids were great but I could still wait a few more years. Jake also was a few years older then me so he was more wanting to settle down and start the family where I wanted the same things but I wasn't ready yet. When he brought up kids I just ignored the whole thing and move the subject to something else. "Oh Jake things will change just you wait and see! They are going to be amazing parents!" we pulled off the exit that was going to lead us to Alice's! At that point I was so excited I was jumping in my seat and Jake just looked at me like I was high or something and just laughed at me more. We continued to talk about things back home and at work as if we didn't do it every day. We pulled up into the drive way and I shot out of the car before Jake had it in park, which made me fall and Jake to laugh and ask if I was alright. Which I was it didn't hurt but it was funny as hell. When I got up I ran into the house and started yelling for Alice and Jasper. I found them in the living room in a comparable position and laughed but was slightly horrified. So were they. I ran out of the room slightly embarrassed only because I walked in on them. It wasn't the first time I had and honestly didn't think it was going to be last. When I ran out of the room I went to the door and ran right into Jake. Knocking me almost on my ass again but he caught me just before I hit the ground. "Bells are you ok baby, really your kinda extra klutzy today. that's hard to say but Jesus!" I just smiled at him and gave him a kiss on his lips. It was a warm kiss and he always tasted like big red cinnamon gum but smelled so different. I loved when I kissed him. "Yeah babes I'm all good just really excited to see them! But uh do you want to go out and grab our bags?" he gave and a weird look and then looked down at the floor "Are you positive your not high or something? Did you smoke up when I wasn't looking?" he pointed down to the bags. "Oh uh no I promise I would have let you in." I gave him a wink and kissed him again. He pulled me into him, he felt so warm it was so comforting. Just as we stopped to catch our breath Jasper came out with a slight blush on his cheeks. "Uh hey guys thought you weren't going to be here for another hour or so…" I laughed "Jas I told you guys we got and earlier flight!" he looked puzzled for a quick second "oh yeah that's right well uh sorry about that back there." I continued to laugh and I heard the laughter that matched mine so well! Alice came waddling out into the kitchen with her camera and snapped a picture of Jake, Jasper and I. Both giving me a kiss on the cheeks. After a few pictures I gave Alice a big hug and a kiss. She was my best friend after all! I rubbed her belly and felt the baby kick. "Hey Makenna! This is your auntie Bella! I cant wait to meet you but seriously this kicking shit isn't going to last to long!" and then kissed where she had just kicked. Jasper and Alice both laughed because we all knew that they weren't going to be parents of the year and were going to swear in front of her for a few months at least. Who was it going to hurt! Alice took a picture of us and then I took one of her and Jasper. After we talked for a few minutes Jasper took us up to my room. They made sure that I had a room there because I came over so much even if it was just for a few a day or two. Alice made sure that I never felt that I had no place to go. I gave a big hug to Jasper and a kiss on the cheek and thanked him for letting us come and stay with them with all the stuff that was going on. He just winked back at me and went down stairs. I walked into the bed room and saw Jake laying on the bed. No shirt on with all of his sexy mussels laying out for me to look at and enjoy! I walked up to the side of the bed he was on and climbed on top of him and straddled him. I gave him a deep kiss as I ran my fingers along his abs and chest. Then I kissed his cheek, neck shoulder. I looked over at him he was watching me with a smile on his face I gave him one back. And continued kissing my way down his abs. I loved the way his body felt when I touched him and kissed him. Just as I kissed right above where his happy trail started and you could see that he was getting more excited I started to unbutton his pants when the door open up. I groaned out as well as Jake. I looked over my shoulder all I saw was belly! Alice came in and laid down next to Jake. He gave me an irritated glare, I gave him an apologetic smile and then kissed him one more time. I looked over at Alice. "what can I do for you my dear?" I gave her a smile and she gave me an evil glance… I knew what that ment… either we were going to get start some trouble or trouble was on its way for me. "Well I need to go to the store and Jas wont let me go by myself and I just want to get a few last minute things that I might need." I shook my head and gave her a smile "ugh your so lucky your knocked up or else I would have to kick your ass right now!" she giggled and moved to the side of the bed and wobbled off. "Better make it a quickie because were leaving in a few minutes!" and she walked out the door shutting it loudly behind her. "God that's so annoying that she does that! You don't do that to her!" Jake said irritated, I laughed at him and gave him another kiss, "Because she's my best friend and she can" with that I walked down stairs to say goodbye to Jasper and we were gone for a few hours. We talked all the time but we still always asked the same questions. How things were going. Mostly how I was with Jake. When we came home that night the boys had made supper for Jasper met us at the door to take the bags that he knew we would have. it's a good thing that Jasper had such a good job to make sure Alice could do all the shopping trips. I had gone upstairs to change my clothes seeing how I was still in the stuff that I flew over in. By the time I had reached the top steps my body was all electrified. I knew who that ment. The voices that I heard down stairs weren't the person I was expecting. I knew before I got down stairs. I didn't want it to be true. But it was when I rounded the corner I could smell him and my body was buzzing so much more that was when he turned and looked at me. I though I was going to die from all the power that I was feeling surging through me right that very second. "Bella" his lips spoke my name so sweetly. I glared at him and looked around him. That was when I saw the red headed bitch. I was instantly pissed. I gave him a nod and walked into the living room where Jake was already kind of tipsy. I took his drink from him and took one big swig of it. It was hard to swallow it burned my throat and my belly. He had been hitting the scotch while we were gone. I curled up into his side and wrapped his arms around me. I knew it was pointless and I couldn't feel safe at all. Jake tried to make me feel safe he really did but the only person that had ever made me feel so safe that I had nothing to worry about was the monster who was making me recoil now. That night I saw Alice get really defensive of me. I turned in using the excuse that I was tired from the trip and went to bed early. I had Jake come up later that night around 2 AM. He dropped in the bed and didn't bother to touch me like normally he would. I figured he was tired to so I rolled over and went back to sleep. I wanted to have some sex to just get my mind away from reality. But I guess what wasn't going to happen tonight and with that I had gone to sleep.

I sat there and thought long and hard about everything that had gone over my mind. That was when things started to get rocky between Jake and I. He stopped caring for me at that point I thought. He didn't touch me the way he use to and that had brought on fights and feelings that he said that he would never put me thought. I gave him a gall again that night. It rang 6 times and went to voice mail again. "Yo its Jake, leave your name and message and ill get back to you if your important" then it beeped "Jake it Bella. Where were you today? don't you get it? This is the hardest thing in the world for me right now and your haven't even called me back in a few days. I'm sorry about the fight. It was stupid anyways I just need you to call me or come out here. I need you." half way through the message I broke down. It was hard. Asking for him to help was hard. It took a lot out of me to ask him. I had been so pissed that he didn't come to the funeral. He was their friend. I thought he was that really burned my ass so much that he couldn't come support the people who helped give us money to get our apartment or that paid for half the plane tickets almost every time or that welcomed us into their home. My home. Well it is now. I laid my head down on the pillow that Alice had insisted was hers since we moved in together. It smelled like her so much. I buried my face in to just to bring back the good times of me and her. The few minutes that we spent in the birthing room together while Jasper got ready with his scrubs. Edward was giving him a pep talk out in the hall way.

"Are you ready Alice?" she looked at me with tears in her eyes I wasn't sure if it was because of pain or fear or happiness or maybe all of it. "Yeah Bells I am! I cant wait to get her out. I think she's my angle that is being sent here to punish me for all our crazy shit. I mean if I didn't have you who knows if she would even be coming today." she grabbed my hand "Bella I want you to take care of her if anything ever happens to me. I need to know that she's going to have a crazy other mom to be there and make sure she has a good heart and is strong minded! I can only hope she can some how get some of your geans just by being around you." I started to tear up when she said it. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and hugged her just as one of the doctors walked in the room "oh are you mommies having a moment! Let me get out of your way" we both looked at each other and laughed out loud as Jasper walked in seconds later.

Alice had a long labor 7 hours. But Makenna was beautiful when she came out! We call cried when she let out her first cry it was an amazing moment and I was so glad my best fiend let me in on it! Jasper cut the cord and they got the baby all pricked and prodded weighed and snuggled up in a blanket with a little pink hat that said GIRL. When visitors were welcomed in the room I was holding Makenna in the corner seat when Edward walked over to me to see her. His eyes looked so happy they were glowing and I knew mine were too he looked at me and I looked up and we gave each other a sad smile thinking about how we could have had this. With the blankets and the cooing. I saw a few flashes go off then we looked up Alice of course had her camera and was snapping pictures of our small little moment. I handed off the baby and walked out to get Jake to show him the little miracle!

I looked at that picture more looking at how much we looked so amazing together with a baby. I started thinking about how I wanted to have a boy and name him Edward Anthony Jr. I loved the name and couldn't think of anything better or Carlie Elizabeth. Both of our dads ment a lot to us. His dads name was Carlisle. And mine Charlie. We had come up with the name together. I stroke my finger down Edwards face. I missed seeing his face like that with a smile looking at me looking at Makenna. I heard same movement in the room and quickly shut the book. Edward was moving my way to me on the couch. "Bella listen sorry if I have seemed like an ass hole the last week. I'm just trying to cope with this baby stuff and no Jasper and everything…" he dragged his hand through his long sexy locks.
Here I was thinking about how much I missed him and wanted him back after everything that he had put me through not only in the last few days but the last year. "I heard your message to Jake. I'm sorry he isn't here for you. Really I am but I want you to know that I'm here. We have to do something about that baby in there. We need to talk like human beings not like the jack asses that we have been acting like. Its not good for her and not for us either. I'm putting my white flag up here imp giving you apology for everything that I have done to you to make you hate me so much. I cant take it back and I have come to realize that these last few weeks. I saw your face when you saw Victoria here and it killed me. I want you to know that I broke things off with her once and for all. And I'm not asking you to take me back but I want you to know that she wont be showing up here. I want to make things work out with the baby. And she's gets her ugly face in here and screws it up… everything." he let out a breath. I gave him a sad look. I missed him so much hopefully we could become the family that I think Alice would have wanted us to become for her daughter. I nodded my head yes and looked up at him. He looked sorry I had never seen this look in his face before he was truly sorry. I grabbed his hand from his hair and gave it a squeeze. "Edward fine." and with that I stood up and walked to my room where Makenna was fast asleep. I layer in bed and at some point the crying had put me to sleep.

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