"I'm going to miss you." Fiona said as Imogen's fingers curled around hers. She immediately regret saying it the moment it left her lips, knowing that Holly J was probably listening from the adjacent room. But seeing Imogen smile at her words made her own lips tug into a smile. She knew that this situation was pretty screwed up and she had no inkling of what would happen while she was away. For all she knew, Holly J could change her mind, or Imogen could find someone else. Either or both of these things could happen. Not knowing is what made it so difficult for her to decide what to do.

"I'll miss you too, Fiona. Who will I hang out with all winter long? I was looking forward to making snow angels with you and building igloos and catching snowflakes on our tongues." Imogen giggled softly, but the disappointment in her eyes told more than her words ever could.

"We'll talk all the time. We can skype, text, talk on the phone...maybe I'll finally beat you at Draw Something." Fiona suggested with a smile. She was startled when Imogen stepped closer to her. The younger girl leaned up and kissed her on the cheek.

"You promise? We'll do all that and more?"

"Uh huh." She meant it. If she would be spending all this time with Holly J, she needed to spend some time with Imogen too, to figure out exactly what she wanted. Exploring her options wasn't wrong...was it? "So are you going with us to the airport?" Fiona broke the silence that had developed between them. Imogen shook her head.

"Nope. I just...wanted to stop by and say goodbye. And remind you of what you'll be missing!" Imogen exclaimed before going in for a kiss. Fiona didn't step away or avoid the kiss. Her hands fell to Imogen's waist and the smaller girl kissed her intensely, her tongue carefully sliding into her mouth. As Fiona felt the butterflies in her stomach, she pulled away. Trying to play it cool, she brought Imogen's hand to her lips, kissing her knuckles softly.

"Don't forget about me." The curly haired girl demanded, her blue eyes locked on the other girl's. Imogen let out a laugh.

"As if I could even do that, Fiona Coyne." She assured her, pulling her arms around her friend and hugging her tightly for the last time. Imogen wasn't sure if she'd even see her again and she could feel the tears coming to her eyes. She couldn't cry in front of Fiona. It would be too embarrassing. Instead she willed the tears away, still holding the older girl close. "Take care of Oinkers, okay? Just squeeze him if you get lonely." Imogen pressed her lips to Fiona's temple before pulling away suddenly, stepping away and feeling odd at the loss of contact. "Goodbye." She sighed, looking at Fiona as if her heart was breaking into a million pieces.

"Imogen..." It killed her seeing that look in her eyes. "I'll call you when the plane lands. And every day while I'm gone." Fiona told her, stepping forward. Imogen nodded, her dark eyes brimming with tears. She stepped out of the room and walked hurriedly through the loft, desperate to get out the door before her tears started flowing freely down her cheeks.

Holly J Sinclair sat on the couch, listening to the words exchanged between Fiona and Imogen. She could feel her heart aching at the conversation, due to how painfully obvious it was how much both girls cared for one another. She wondered if she was being selfish keeping Fiona from Imogen like this. She'd had her chance once. It was only fair for Imogen to have hers. Her head was swimming with thoughts, guilt, pain, confusion. She was still getting used to the idea of being interested in girls - it was a revelation that hadn't been easy for her. She knew that Fiona loved her, probably more than anyone else would, and that was terrifying. It was a lot to live up to. Holly J never understood why Fiona felt the way she did. There was nothing that special about her and it was a lot of pressure. She felt like all she ever did was disappoint her.

Reminded of their first kiss, Holly J replayed the moment in her mind. She remembered both of them being extremely happy about the outcome of the trial with Bobby, and how Fiona had thanked her. In a moment of excitement, her best friend kissed her. It was a little weird, yes, but she didn't really think that much of it until later when she found out that Fiona was in love with her. Immediately upon finding this out she felt awful. Had she been leading her friend on? Some of the things she said, some of the things they'd shared, could come across differently to someone who wanted that. Knowing she couldn't reciprocate Fiona's feelings made her so angry. If anyone deserved to be happy it was her best friend.

Now here she was, a year later. She had the chance to make Fiona very happy. But she wasn't the only one with that chance. Holly J toiled with this in her mind as she listened to the girls in the bedroom. She was ripped from her thoughts, however, when she heard footsteps in the living room. Looking up she saw Imogen, wandering toward the door with a shattered expression on her face. She thought she heard a sob as the younger girl walked past and she stood up, wanting to console her. As she tried to search for the right thing to say, Imogen found the door and was already stepping out of the loft. Holly J watched her exit, startled when she felt a hand on her shoulder. Turning around, she faced Fiona and sighed.

"I feel like I just kicked a puppy." Holly J admitted guiltily. Even though Imogen didn't know about what had transpired between herself and Fiona just moments before her arrival, it still made Holly J feel like a terrible person.

"You didn't even do anything. Imagine how I feel." Fiona murmured. "What time is it?" She asked absently as she remembered the plane that herself and Holly J were going to be boarding.

"It's..." Holly J glanced at her cell phone. "Really time for us to go." It was only 9:30, but there would be traffic and their plane was leaving in exactly an hour. The girls scrambled up and grabbed their luggage, pulling their suitcases through the loft. As they exited the building, Fiona wondered if she would ever live here again. Pushing away those thoughts, she loaded their stuff into the trunk of the rental car, slamming it shut before sliding into the passenger's seat. Holly J started the engine and pulled out of the parking lot, driving toward the airport as she hummed along to the radio. Fiona watched her as she drove, a small smile forming on her lips.

"So..."

"Yeah?" Holly J asked from beneath her sunglasses.

"Before Imogen came, we had a moment. Do..you want to maybe talk about it?" Fiona was still thrilled about the kiss they had shared and Holly J's big reveal about her recent discovery of her sexual orientation. Holly J was glad her eyes were unreadable right now, and she kept them on the road as she drove.

"Not really. I...I'd rather forget it happened." Holly J lied, thinking back to the look she'd seen on Imogen's face. She couldn't break this girl she didn't even know by letting Fiona settle for her instead. No, Fiona had to return to Toronto. She would just push away her feelings and do what was best. Besides, Fiona had a year left at Degrassi, she should at least be able to finish her senior year. It was only fair.

"Oh." Fiona couldn't manage much else. Hearing Holly J say that she'd rather forget what had happened, well, it hurt her. She thought that the kiss had been reciprocated, something special between them, a signal of more to come. But she'd read it wrong somehow. Just because Holly J was bisexual didn't mean she returned her feelings. Her inner monologue of negativity took over and she spent the rest of the car ride staring out the window, trying not to cry.