Answer to lovelifegymnastics, Selene is 19.
Chapter 31
Silence
He wants me to be quiet so I will be. If he is the only one I can talk to then I rather not talk at all. He wants me to be some mindless puppet that he can use when ever he feels like it. My thoughts and feelings don't matter…
He's a monster. He takes and takes until there's nothing left. I only exist to amuse him. It doesn't matter to him what I want or need…
He found the picture I had managed to hide from him. Picture of Derek and Jason. He took it from me and said that I wouldn't get it back until I would start to talk to him. It doesn't matter, he had probably ripped it already…
Today he threatened to take my memories. He said he could make me obedient. It doesn't matter. I feel like a ghost of the person I once was. Soon I will be just an empty shell. That's what he wants. I'm not a person to him; I'm just a thing he wants to play with. I wonder what it will feel like to fade away. To lose all that makes me who I am. Maybe the pain will disappear as well…
I had a dream where I was swimming in the sea. The sun was shining and I was happy. It was strange. I can barely remember what happiness feels like…
Today I didn't want to eat. Why would I? He was angry and he forced me to eat. I hated him more with every bite I was forced to take. He said his patience is running out. If I know what is good for me I better start act normal…
He bruised my arm. He said he could easily make me talk or scream if I wouldn't do it willingly. He threw me on the bed told me to speak up if I don't want it. When I didn't speak he ripped my shirt off but didn't continue. He took all my own clothes and only left me some tiny lace underwear he had bought. He said I won't need any clothes since I'm not going anywhere until I obey him. If he wanted to humiliate me by forcing me wear nothing but that underwear he failed. It doesn't matter to me anymore…
He locked me in this room. It won't be long now. I'm not afraid. It just breaks my heart that I can't say goodbye to Derek and Jason or even hear their voice. But I can't cry, there are no tears left anymore. I can only hope that they will be happy and live a good life. I don't want them to be sad because of me. Maybe I will see them again, if not in this world, then the next one…
"What's that?" Kol asked.
Selene tried to hide a small notebook behind her back.
"Give it to me", he said coldly.
She didn't give it so he ripped it from her hands roughly. There was a glimpse of desperation in her eyes.
"You want this back? Then say it!" Kol shouted holding the notebook on his hand.
She didn't speak or move. Kol walked out angrily and slammed the door shut. He sat on the couch and looked at the notebook. It was some kind of diary. He read one page after another. It almost made him feel…what? Guilty? That was ridiculous. She had brought this on herself. It wasn't like he enjoyed treating her like this. All she would have to do was obey him. He could make her obey. For some reason he hadn't done it yet. But it didn't matter; she would sooner or later come to her senses.
Kol looked at the picture of Selene with her brothers. She looked so happy standing between them. They were all smiling. For some reason, that annoyed him. Why couldn't she be like that with him? Why would she need anyone else? He could be nice to her if she would just be obedient. He might even turn her. The thought had crossed his mind several times lately.
She was his and he wasn't going to let anyone or anything take her from him. Not even death. But first she had to understand who was in charge. He should check that she hadn't managed to hide anything else from him. Kol opened the door to her bedroom. She was lying on the bed wearing that sexy red lingerie he had given to her. He caressed her cheek.
"Selene? Wake up darling."
There was no reaction.
"Selene?" he repeated louder and shook her. Still nothing. "Dammit, Selene!"
He tried everything but she didn't wake up. Her pulse was normal though and she was breathing.
"Don't you dare do this to me! Wake up!"
For the first time in centuries Kol felt fear. He had no idea what to do. Hospital…yes, he should take her to a hospital. He quickly got some of her clothes and dressed her before carrying her outside.
"Is everything alright Mr. Smith…" the receptionist started.
"Get me a cab; I need to take her to a hospital!"
The receptionist acted fast and it didn't take long before they were in a cab. He held her in his arms stroking her hair. Kol carried her to the hospital and explained to some nurses what had happened. They asked him to wait in a lobby. Kol was walking back and forth until the doctor finally came to him. He was in his forties; he had dark hair and brown eyes.
"Mr. Smith? I'm Dr. Williams. Could I ask few questions about your wife?"
"What's wrong with her?" Kol asked tensely.
"Does she have a history of any mental illness?"
"What? No."
"Alright. Have your wife experienced something traumatic lately? Like a lost of a loved one, being a victim or a witness of violence, major life changes, anything like that?"
"Yes, there might be something like that", Kol murmured.
Dr. Williams looked serious.
"Thing is Mr. Smith, that physically there is nothing wrong with your wife, but for some reason she is catatonic. That usually happens when the mind tries to protect itself from any more damage…"
"What are you saying?" Kol interrupted him.
"She needs a psychological evaluation, so I am sending her to a psychiatric hospital…"
"No."
"I understand that this must be difficult for you but without proper treatment…"
Kol looked into his eyes.
"You are not sending her anywhere. She is fine and she will leave here with me."
"Yes, I'm sure you are right. She should leave here with you."
Kol marched straight to Selene's room. She was lying on a bed with her eyes closed.
"You think you can fool me? Well, guess again!"
He forced her eyes open.
"Open your eyes and stand up."
She obeyed.
"Now speak."
She didn't say anything; she was just staring in front of her. There was no expression on her face.
"Selene speak dammit, say something."
She was still quiet. He couldn't see anything in her eyes.
"Raise your hand", Kol said.
She obeyed. So her body was responding but her mind wasn't.
Soon I will be just an empty shell…
No… Shit! This wasn't what he wanted. There had to be a way to fix this. But he had no idea how.