Thank you so much for all of the followers to this story and the reviews! I really appreciate it! Well here's Chapter 6 ENJOY
It's almost a dream to be kissing her again but it's happening. It's all Castle could think to do when she didn't say anything to his confession. Obviously the only "logical" choice. He doesn't regret it one bit, because she is currently biting his bottom lip with a moan that he has only heard one time before in his life. The first time they kissed to be exact.
Not that he had the whole kiss burned into his memory from beginning to end or anything. No, nothing like that at all. That would just be weird, obsessive really.
His brain feels like it's going to explode with the amount of emotions rushing through it. Kissing her is like nothing he has ever experienced before. It's everything he's ever wanted. Like they're soul mates, made for each other.
The feel of her arms coming up to wrap around his neck only makes everything more real. The reality of the situation dawning on him. He is in the middle of a sidewalk making out with Kate Beckett like it's what he was brought to this world to do. Like it's his lifeline. The only thing that matters.
She's pulling away though, why is she pulling away. His heart tares just a little as she separates her lips away from his.
"Castle" Her voice is hoarse, husky, aroused. Hearing her voice like that, Rick doesn't trust his own. So he answers her with a simple.
"Hmm?" When she doesn't answer he opens his eyes.
She's looking at him like she doesn't trust herself, what she's going to say. Like she doesn't know what to do. Hell he hasn't a clue what to do either. He'd be quite dandy with settling for another kiss or two or maybe even three for that matter.
"We shouldn't have done that." It's a whisper, like she doesn't actually believe what is coming out of her own mouth. Because she knows that what they just did is something she has been wanting since day one.
"I think we should've"
It surprises her that he's being so bold. Like he has nothing to lose. It also surprises her the giant warmth that crawls down her at the sound of his voice. Rough, manly really. Like a man who knows what he wants. She'd be lying to herself if she said it didn't turn her on.
"Rick, I-I" Before she can say another word his lips have hitched onto hers again. A demanding frenzy of lust, want, and love. It's all too much for her but she takes it anyway. Because though she hasn't said it yet, she does love him to. She knows deep down she couldn't live without him. Not that she would ever tell him that. No she would never give him the satisfaction of that information. But he does disserve more from her. He disserves someone who can fully give herself to him, and right now she can't. Whether she likes it or not she is currently in a relationship with someone else, even if that relationship is a joke to even herself. She knows Josh could never be as worthy to her as Castle is, but she keeps him around anyway. Mostly to forget about Castle in the beginning, but now it was more of an excuse not to be with him.
Kate Beckett isn't afraid of many things but she is afraid of Richard Castle, because he can do things to her heart that no one else has ever been able to do before. It scares the crap out of her to. She hasn't acted on it, the truth of the situation really being because she doesn't want to ruin what they have. Terrified things wont work out between them. That they aren't ready for each other. Then again she doesn't know if they will ever be ready to jump into a real relationship together. Kate doesn't know what scares her more but right now she can't think straight with his lips moving over hers like that, and his hands….
"CASTLE!" it comes out as a screech. Her eyes have finally opened to his baby blues.
"Look we need to-to stop." Beckett tries to compose herself by putting her hand on his chest to push them apart. When they finally part they're staring into each others eyes. Whether it be involuntarily or not they'll probably never know, but the wave of feelings going through both of them is unexplainable, overwhelming to say the least. Kate shuts her eyes hard and fast because she hates that she is still dating Josh. It makes making out with the man that she is madly in love with on the street of her dead Captain one of the stupidest things she has done, because she doesn't want to have this guilty feeling in her stomach.
"Rick we can't do this right now. Even if-" She's about to say what she has been hiding from herself and him for so long but saves herself and just says what will make why they need to stop make sense. "I'm still with Josh, I need to figure things out."
Rick can see the apologetic look in Kate's green orbs and understands. Even if it kills him that they can't just come together now, he knows she's right. They shouldn't start anything when she is still with… Doctor motorcycle boy.
'Josh Davidson'
Castle internally glared at the thought of him.
"You're right, we'll uh figure this out?" He hates how he's always like a puppy dog with her, but he can't help it.
"Yeah" The small smile that comes across Kate's face lightens his thoughts on everything. This woman will be the end of him. He feels the goofy smile that spreads on his own lips but doesn't care. He loves this women, loves her inside and out.
"So uh so I'll see you at work partner?"
"See you at work Partner" Her voice is warm, welcoming. Something she doesn't use often. At the moment she can't control it. She might actually have a future with the man that is standing in front of her and the thought is doing things to her insides like no other.
She doesn't know why he hasn't walked away yet or why she hasn't walked away yet even. Realizing they are standing there looking at each other like they're the most precious things in the world to each other.
"So I'll uh-" She stops her sentence once she feels Rick's strong arms come around her waist, embracing her in the most passionate hug she has ever encountered. It dawns on her then that he is comforting her about everything else that has happened within this week. It swells her heart to know this man knows exactly what she needs.
She slowly but surely brings her arms around his neck and hugs him back. Her eyes begin to burn from the tears building up.
"Thank you Rick, for understanding"
She doesn't just mean about the whole Josh situation she's talking about everything else. Everything she has put him through everything they have went through together. She wants him to know how grateful she is.
"Always"
Is what he finally answers with, something that means everything to them. It's their word. Just a six letter word that holds so much more power behind it. It lets them both know that they will always be there for each other. They will always understand. They will always love each other no matter the obstacles. It's not just a word to them, it's everything.
Suppa playa hataz haha, So I can continue this story or I can just leave it the way it is. Or maybe make a sequel thing… hmmm. I don't know, you tell me what I should do! ALSO I really am happy that a lot of people have enjoyed this story and if you like this story a lot you should go check out some of my other ones ;D