Still Human
9. Your answers lie inside you. The answers to life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
He loves technology because it gives him all the answers.
Donnie can easily surf the Internet to find information he needs to build something, or take something apart, or finish with his retro-mutagen. Any questions his brothers have that he doesn't know the answer to, he looks up and finds the solution.
It's harder, though, when it comes to the more philosophical questions.
He's not as good when it comes down to that fine line of what is morally right versus wrong, what he can do as a ninja and what he can never do as a sentient being. He gazes at Timothy constantly, wondering if what they've done to him (by accident, but it was their fault nonetheless) can ever be undone.
If any of it can really be undone.
Donatello shudders and breathes deeply, tears welling in his eyes as he sinks into his chair and gazing at his retro-mutagen notes. The mutagen they've managed to collect from the giant tank that Baxter Stockman had at his lab could make enough doses to cure about half of the mutants they currently know about, as soon as he manages to synthesize it, but at the same time he doesn't know who should get it. Should he give it to as many mindless animals as possible, like the Squirrelanoids, or should he find as many sentient humans as possible and ask them about it first (like with Splinter…)?
It's not fair, this game he plays, the line he walks. No one, nothing at all, can give him the answers he needs.
He huddles on the floor and wonders why he can't figure it out for himself.
(He will, eventually, because he knows deep in his heart what he should do. But there's always the doubt that hangs over him like a cloud, and he can't shake it off.)
(It scares him.)