I haven't been in the mood to write much lately and I've been so busy with school but I finally did so I hope you like itttt:)
Santana pulled herself out of the blonde's arms and forced her mind back into functioning rationally. She knew she wanted to be with her no matter what but there wasn't a way for it to work last time, so what was different now?
Dani saw her thoughts flying a mile a minute but resisted the urge to reach out and grab her hand. "What's wrong, San," she asked, scanning the girl's face.
They sat through another short silence as Santana attempted to hold back the tears she felt welling up. She couldn't go through this break up again and she knew that. It broke her the first time but a second time? There was just no way. She shuffled words around her head until she decided on the right ones, but even then, she stuttered. "H-how are we going to do this Dani? I mean realistically? You still have the second half of your tour and you live 3,000 miles from New York. I d-don't think I can do that," in saying the last sentence, her voice cracked.
"I only have 11 more shows to my tour. And I know that sounds like a lot but when you do four a week it flies by. I um…could come back to New York City in three weeks and we could figure it out then? I know we need to work this out San but I just can't let you go again. It'll kill me. I mean it when I say I'll make it work," she trailed off unsure of how Santana would take what she wanted to say. "Can we just watch a movie right now? I-I just miss you."
Santana took in the insecure caramel eyes that belonged to the girl sitting in front of her. They really needed to figure out how this relationship was going to work…but it could wait for now. "Sure, ba—Dani," the Latina caught herself.
Dani smiled hearing the word that almost fell from the darker girl's lips before getting up to go through her movies. She rummaged through them until she found the one she set out to find. Safe Haven. The two had seen the movie together in theaters when it first came out but also bought it later on and watched it together at least four times. It reminded her of when she ran away from home after her parents caught her and yelled at her. She had dyed her hair and struggled from bus to bus before finally scrapping up enough money to find a place to stay. She had wandered around the big city of New York from dump to dump trying to find a job anywhere she could. All these aspects brought back a very ugly past accompanied by bad memories. Dani remembered how every time they watched it, Santana was always comforting and gentle with her. The Latina would hold her and rub circles on the back of her hand. That was the whole reason you watched it so many times dumbass, Dani giggled to herself at her thought. It was true. It was also the reason why she was picking this movie right now.
As Santana watched the shorter girl turn back around after putting in the movie, she reached for the remote. She turned on the TV and fast-forwarded through the previews. Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Dani sitting on the other end of the couch. Without shifting her gaze from the screen, she teased her, "What are you doing sitting all the way over there you loser? Are you scared of me or something? We did spend a year and a half dating ya know. Not to mention the fact that we've kissed like six times in the past two days." She finally looked over, only to see the shocked expression on the girl's face. This caused her to laugh which only made the blonde look down to her lap, embarrassed.
Dani opened and closed her mouth trying to formulate a response but no words came. Santana was right. Why was she getting shy all of a sudden? She had literally just kissed the girl a few minutes ago. After what felt like forever she looked up to meet the brunette's gaze.
When the lighter Latina's head lifted, Santana opened her arms and held them out in front of her. Dani beamed back at her, slightly blushing, and moved to lie next to her. Santana pressed play then set the remote down on the coffee table.
After only a couple minutes, they found themselves cuddled together with absolutely no spare room between their bodies. Dani's back was pressed against Santana's front and the brunette's head rested gently on the other girl's. Just as Dani remembered, Santana had their hands intertwined, rubbing circles on the back of her hand.
This is what Dani missed most. It wasn't the kisses, or the sex, or the homemade dinners. It was lying so impossibly close that there was no room for anything but the love they had for each other. She felt safe lying there. The Latina always made sure she knew she was protected and worthy of someone's love. Just cuddling with Santana made her feel whole…and that's when she remembered something she had refused for so long to forget.
"Hey San?" Dani's words were quiet and soft-spoken.
"Yeah beautiful?"
The blonde turned in the embrace so she was facing the darker Latina. "Do you remember that necklace you gave me?"
Santana's eyebrows furrowed in confusion as to why she was bringing this up. "Of course I remember, but why?"
Dani's lips didn't move a centimeter to answer the girl's question. She simply pulled her hand from between them and reached under her shirt, pulling out a silver chain.
The second Santana saw it her eyes filled with tears. She clutched to her version of that necklace for days, weeks even, after Dani left. You'll always have the other half to my heart, she flashed back to her thoughts the night they broke up and tears started running down her face.
The lighter Latina wiped the girl's cheeks before gently kissing them away. "Hey," she whispered, "hey don't cry baby." Without realizing what she said, she placed another kiss on her cheek then rested her hand there. "I never could bring myself to take it off. I mean I had to sometimes for promo reasons and stuff…but I wear it every concert. I have ever since you gave it to me."
Santana opened the eyes she had clenched shut, willing the tears to cease, and looked deep into the brown eyes before her. "I never took mine off either. I'm just not wearing it right now because I came straight from work." She then leaned forward and captured Dani's lips. She tilted her head a little to the right, deepening the kiss. Their lips moved against each other perfectly. Feeling the girl's tongue swipe across her bottom lip, she reluctantly pulled away. She knew they needed to take this slower than they both wanted to. Resting their foreheads together and keeping her hands on Dani's cheeks, she spoke softly. "I really missed this too."
Dani closed her eyes savoring the moment. The way their lips moved together like no time had lapsed at all, the perfect way their bodies fit together, how the other girl's voice comforted her so much that she felt like it encompassed her in warmth; she noticed it all and didn't allow herself to take a second for granted. "We should really figure this out," she mumbled just loud enough for the Latina to hear her.
"Do you want to finish the movie first?" Santana brushed her fingers through the blonde hair.
Dani drew her bottom lip in between her teeth. "I think we should talk about it now."
Santana sat up pulling the blonde with her. She watched as the girl put a small distance between them and turned to face her. Folding her legs underneath her, Santana did the same.
"So I guess we should start with the fact that you live on the opposite side of the country," Santana said with a sad laugh.
"Yeah I can see how that would be a bit of a problem," Dani paused to take a deep breath then continued. "I do have to stay in LA while I'm recording, but I can talk to Sam about all the time I'm not and I could come up here. I won't be recording for a while seeing as I'm just finishing up my tour."
The Latina nodded her head taking in every word. "Speaking of your tour, where's your next show?"
"Chicago," Dani trailed off, then spoke in a quieter voice, "tomorrow…"
"Dani! What are you doing here then? Don't you have to pack and leave?"
The blonde laughed at the girl's reaction and reached out to grab her hand. "I'm supposed to be doing that, yes. But I told Sam I was coming to see you and convinced her to pack everything for me. It took me promising I'd be on time for every show for the rest of the tour, but she finally agreed."
Santana immediately felt calmer as Dani rubbed the back of her hand. "Isn't New York to Chicago like a 12 hour drive? Shouldn't you have already left by now?"
"The buses left already. John stayed here so he could come with me tomorrow on my flight. I was going to go with them but I knew we needed to talk. I wasn't about to leave you again, Lopez."
With that last comment, the brunette smiled wider than she had in a while. "Okay, okay. So after your tour ends do you want to come back here if you can for a few days or something? I can just text you or call you in the meantime and maybe we can Skype if you aren't too tired?"
"I would love that," Dani said smiling. Her smile soon faded with what she needed to say next. "We can figure this all out as it goes. There's a lot of last minute stuff with me now, San. There's no way I can tell you this will be easy."
The Latina smirked, "well then it's a good thing I don't want easy, I want you."