AUTHORS NOTE: This isn't a Tobias and Christina story. I'm sorry I don't ship it. I just love Fourtris a lot. Maybe I will ship Tobias and Christina in the future but not now.
Christina rolls her eyes and pushes me out the window.
"CHRISTINA!" I shout.
"Relax you're only a couple feet in the air." Christina laughs. She is so dead for this. Tris appears in my reflection of a window. Am I imagining this? This feels too real... Tris smiles at me and let's go of the pole and so do I. Tris is gone but she's everywhere. Christina lands beside me.
"See? How hard is that?" Christina smiles.
"Do my eyes deceive me or is this the day Four get's over his fear of heights?" Zeke laughs, patting me on the back.
"Tobias." I say.
"Grief has changed you bud. Don't let it." Zeke says, looking at me in the eye. I look at Christina and she shrugs, then runs after Zeke. I follow. When we step inside the Hancock building it's the same as usual.
"Hey guys!" Someone says behind us. I turn around, it's Caleb. Christina gives me the "Try not to strangle him.", which she often gives me nowadays and I always give her the same response. I make no promises. Caleb looks at me for a second deciding on whether to shake my hand or not.
"Caleb." I say.
"Hi Tobias." Caleb says nervously. I don't want to hate him. I shouldn't, Tris decided to sacrifice himself for him on her own. Caleb wasn't the one who shot her, David did that. I give him a forced smile, maybe one day that will turn into a real smile.
"Okay guys! Shall we?" Zeke says, as he walks toward the elevator. We ride the elevator to the 100th floor. I don't want to be afraid. So instead I watch Caleb be afraid. I stare at my reflection in the elevator and Tris appears in my reflection. Tris walks over to Caleb and comforts him. So what am I supposed to do? Hold his hand? I walk over to Caleb and try to make conversation.
"You Nervous?" I ask him. Caleb looks up at me, confused. Then he finally says
"Yeah... aren't you? Don't you have a big fear of heights or something?" Caleb breathes.
"Yeah... but I don't let me fear take over me." I say.
"What's that supposed to mean? No one's fearless." Caleb sighs, as he sinks to the floor. Coward.
"What I mean is that fear doesn't shut you down... It wakes you up." I laugh, pulling him up from the ground.
Caleb nods his head and mutters "Thanks." Christina smiles at me and Zeke looks at me like an alien. Zeke mouths
"You forgave him?"
" You forgave me..." I mouth, which I shouldn't have because I know deep down inside he will never forgive me. Zeke nods his head and says
"Fair enough."
"You two are hysterical." Christina laughs. We finally reach the top floor, I look out onto the horizon. Sometimes I still like to see the factions or at least whats left of it.
"So? Who's going first?" Zeke asks. Christina forms a line as Zeke sets up the equipment. I'm after Caleb which leaves me in the back and Christina in front, as usual. I watch Zeke out Christina in the harness and set her free. She goes in a different way Tris did. Christina faces the sky when she's released. Caleb pauses in fear , he looks like he's about to cry. I grab Caleb by the shoulder and whisper into his ear
"If you can't do this for yourself. Do it for Tris. Do it for closure."
"Okay." Caleb says nervously as I push him towards Zeke. I don't watch him get strapped into the harness. Why can't I bolt? I look out the window of a not-so-far- away building and look into my reflection, hoping Tris will be there. She isn't.
"Come on big guy." Zeke teases. I roll my eyes and let him strap me to the harness.
"You ready?" Zeke laughs. I realize I'm in the very same way that Tris was the last time she went zip lining. Zeke starts to count.
"one..." No. No. No. No.
"Two..." Why did I agree to do this?
"Three..." I look into my reflection of a window in some building. Tris is in MY reflection.
"Go!" Zeke screams as he pushes me toward my doom. This isn't so bad. I feel the wind brush against my face. I know what I must do. I spread my arms wide in the air, like a bird