Hey everyone! I am SO sorry for taking so freaking long to update this, but there's been a shit load of things going on lately, so I never was really in the right mind set to write. But with 2 Broke Girls finally back on air, all of my Maxoline feelings came rushing back, and thought it about time I updated this fic. Again, thanks for all of the great feedback! Keep reviewing please guys, I really appreciate it and love to hear what you all think of it, and feel free to give me constructive criticism - good or bad, just let me know! And what you want to read more of, or things that shouldn't happen, anything! I like hearing what you all want to read about and such :) So yeah, here's chapter 4! (and yes, I'm too unskilled to think of chapter names, keeping them numerical is easier haha)
Max had been walking at a rapid pace for nearly half an hour now, not even sure where she was going. She took no notice of which direction her feet led her towards, all she was focussing on was getting as far away as possible.
From what though? Everyone at the diner? Caroline? My stupid brain? Turning into some seedy looking alleyway, Max leant against the wall and slowly descended to sit down, eyes squeezed shut.
Sighing, she opened her eyes and stared blankly at the wall opposite her, trying to make sense yet again of her thoughts.
She knew she had hurt Caroline several times throughout the last day as it was, and today only added to the pain.
Max was at a complete loss as to what to do. She clearly couldn't find the strength to talk to Caroline about it; proving all she could really do was run out on her whenever things got too hard.
She didn't exactly have any friends really, not ever finding anyone she could stand to be around longer than a few hours at most. Caroline was the exception; the only one that Max could be around for days on end.
Feeling her eyes well up, Max threw her head back against the wall, hard, cursing herself for allowing tears to form. No, no time for stupid crying. Think, woman. Get your damn head together.
Reaching out for her phone, she looked down to the screen as she scrolled through the names. Most of the numbers saved were random people she had met in bars, with no intention of ever calling them.
Others were a couple of her dealers, her Mother who she hardly ever spoke to anyway, people she worked with at the diner, Caroline, Sophie, and some random people she used to hang out with occasionally.
Max had never really been one to talk about her feelings and emotions with anyone, but she was getting desperate now.
What with feeling the need to smoke, punching walls to the point of nearly bleeding, crying, feeling her chest tighten at the mere thought of another person… this was not Max, this is not the person she was or had ever been. Ever.
The only problem was, Max had no idea who she could talk to about… any of this. She knew Oleg was always there for her and willing to help her out with anything, but she couldn't stand the thought of him knowing about her and Caroline.
Of course he would understand the severity of the situation, but just the thought of him knowing such personal things about her made her slightly sick. No, she couldn't confide in Oleg this time, not about this stuff.
Sophie? Perhaps. Although, Sophie had always thought Caroline was holding Max down, keeping her from greater things. Max could practically hear Sophie screaming at her if she tried to explain the situation, yelling at her that she told her Caroline would only cause her problems. That crossed Sophie off the list.
Max didn't need to hear how Caroline was bad for her, when she knew she was the best thing to ever happen to her. She made her happy… confused as anything, but happy. For the most part, anyway.
Earl! He was the closest person she had to a friend, excluding Caroline, and Max saw him as a kind of father figure - only the cool, awesome kind she was playfully in love with.
She admired and respected him, knowing he would go to hell and back for her. He knew basically everything there is to know in life, and Max knew he would at least have some answers or advice as to what the hell she should do.
Just as she was about to press the call button, Earl's name began flashing on her phone, and she smiled that he was calling her already. Maybe it was a sign he was the right one to talk to. He's the only one I can talk to. Not much of a sign there, universe.
Pressing the answer button, Max held the phone up to her ear.
"Hey, Earl."
"Max! What happened, girl? You ran out of here faster than… well, pretty damn fast."
Max smirked, hearing the tone of Earl's voice told her he was about crack some old school joke of his, but changed abruptly; making her realise even he knew this was serious. Too serious for even his wise jokes, making Max feel slightly queasy. Maybe she shouldn't confide in him after all.
"I waited a bit before I called in case you needed to calm down… please tell me you're okay?"
Max sighed, contemplating on how to respond.
"I'm uh… I mean, I'll be okay, Earl. Just going through some pretty crazy shit right now."
"It wouldn't happen to be matters of the heart, would it?"
Max tensed up. How could he know?
"W-what makes you think that?"
"I've seen that look on plenty of girls faces in my life, I know that look by now. And about a minute after you ran out, Caroline bolted out after you with her face
wetter than - well, she'd been crying hell of a lot. Is there something I should know? Should I be worried?"
Breathing deeply, Max tried not to think of Caroline's tear stricken face.
"I… I don't know what's going on Earl, I really freaking don't. Caroline and I… I just… I can't hurt her. And I have already. I hurt everyone I get… close to. I'm - I'm scared, Earl. I'm really fucking scared. And you know me! I don't get scared about... anything. Ever."
Silence.
"Max, you listen here girl, and you listen good. Anyone can see that you two girls care more about each other than anything else. If you hurt her, if she hurts you, what's that matter in the long run? You make each other happier than anything, and that is what matters here! Love is hard, love is painful, but it's all worth it! All of it. You understand?"
Max smiled to herself, glad that Earl didn't even pry for anything else - he simply stated the facts.
"Thanks Earl. I wish I could marry you. I'll um… head back to the diner soon, okay?"
"Maybe in about thirty years time, we'll get married. No rush, take your time and I'll see your gorgeous face when you get here."
Max lowered the phone and hung up, putting her phone back in her pocket.
Love. Was it really love that was going on with her and Caroline? She didn't know, she wasn't even sure she wanted to know. Regardless, Max knew she should head back to the diner, as much as she was dreading seeing the pain plastered all over Caroline's face.
Max stood up about to head off, when she turned her head and saw Caroline a few feet in front of her, walking slowly towards her. She had been crying a lot. The girl looked a mess. Still pretty though…
Watching Caroline walk closer to her, Max decided then and there that whatever happened… happened. Like Earl said, what's a little hurt matter in the long run?
Standing still, Caroline stopped a few centimetres away from Max, blinking back tears to look into her eyes. Max let her mind go blank, stopping all thoughts from creeping in.
She saw Caroline open her mouth to speak, so she abruptly lifted her hand to place a finger over those soft lips to stop them from speaking. Caroline looked back, confused, until Max dropped her hand and inched closer.
The scent of strawberries overwhelmed her again, and she let it engulf her entire body.
Max leant in and kissed Caroline, softly at first until she snaked her hand around to the girls neck and pushed her closer, crashing their lips together.
Max pried apart Caroline's lips with her tongue, savouring the taste before licking over Caroline's tongue to which she reciprocated.
Grabbing Caroline's shoulders, Max turned her and pushed her against the wall, smirking to herself as she heard a small moan at the back of Caroline's throat.
Her whole body was on fire, and she continued to not let any thoughts enter her mind. It was this and only this, Caroline, right now, nothing else.
Pulling apart from the girls lips, Max looked into her eyes, those beautiful glimmering eyes, then lowered her lips to Caroline's neck and began to kiss gently. Caroline threw her head back with a gasp as Max continued to nibble at her neck, licking and tasting her skin like nothing else in the world mattered.
She grazed her teeth over the blonde's collarbone, then darted her tongue out and licked frantically upwards back to her lips before crashing them together again. Eyes closed, all she could taste was Caroline and that's all she wanted to taste.
Not breaking their kiss, Max brought her hand down to Caroline's leg, under her skirt, scraping her nails up her thigh, higher until she was lingering over her underwear, feeling Caroline's heat already.
Max broke the kiss and looked into Caroline's eyes, who stared intensely back at her. She then dipped her hand into Caroline's underwear, immediately met with her wet centre, dripping for her.
She manoeuvred her fingers to rub teasingly over Caroline's clit, with barely any pressure which caused the girl to moan, closing her eyes and arching her head back up.
This was all that mattered, and Max latched her lips onto Caroline's neck, licking and biting roughly as she suddenly thrust two fingers into the girl. Caroline cried out, and Max smiled to herself, relishing in the sounds she was causing Caroline to elicit.
Max thrust her fingers harder and faster inside Caroline, kissing all over her neck and jawline, pushing her closer against the wall. She curled her fingers upwards when they were as deep as they could go, making Caroline thrust her hips as her breathing quickened.
Max flicked her thumb over Caroline's clit as she pushed deeper, curling her fingers back and forth as she continued the circling motions of her thumb.
Max felt Caroline's hands grasp and scratch at her back, causing her to kiss upwards and crash back onto the girls lips, forcing her tongue inside and tasting her again. Max heard that same moan in the back of Caroline's throat and began to use her thumb more forcefully, desperate now to hear Caroline cry out her name in ecstasy.
Breaking apart the kiss, Max leaned her forehead against Caroline's, looking into her eyes as their ragged breathing mingled together. Max thrust and rubbed faster, watching as Caroline bit her lip, felt her body tense up as one last flick of her thumb sent the girl over the edge.
Her hips grinding into Max, body convulsing through a moan of Max's name that sent her body on fire, nails digging into her back, Max didn't take her eyes off of the girl. When she felt her body relax, Max removed her hand and brought it up to her lips, licking her fingers clean and nearly moaning at the taste.
Caroline was entranced at Max's motions, sweating slightly and still trying to breathe properly. Max kept her thoughts silent as she crashed her lips against Caroline's again, softer this time as they massaged the others tongue with their own.
Max slowed the kiss down even more, slowly pulling away and tugging at Caroline's bottom lip clenched between her teeth until she let go, and opened her eyes to find Caroline again staring into her very soul.
Caroline went to speak again, but Max simply shook her head, unsure of what to do now. She couldn't handle hearing any spoken words, she didn't feel like running, but she couldn't stay; she felt trapped.
Smiling shyly at Caroline, Max took a small step away from her.
Caroline watched her intently, before looking down. What's she thinking? Max couldn't decipher what the look on her face was, until Caroline looked up again.
"I should uh, get back to the diner. You can go home. It's not that busy anyway. I'll um… see you later."
It was the simplicity of her tone that made Max's heart sink even further, but again, she was unsure as to why. Either Caroline had understood what was going on in her mind and knew she didn't know whether to stay or go, or yet again Max had hurt her. As fucking usual...
Caroline took a few steps closer to Max, and placed a small kiss upon her cheek before she whispered, "It's okay. I understand." She then turned and walked away, brushing her hand over Max's shoulder.
Max was frozen, trying to now calm her own breathing down. When she could function slightly better, she noticed her thoughts hadn't come crashing down on top of her yet, and was grateful.
Not wanting them to unexpectedly fall on to her again, she turned around and began to walk home like Caroline had said was okay.
Either things were beginning to sort themselves out, or it was the calm before the storm and soon Max would have to deal with all of... whatever was going on.
Whichever it was, Max allowed herself to grin slightly as she continued her walk home, remembering the way Caroline had moaned her name and how it set her entire body on fire.