Meredith and Alex hurried to the locker room and changed.

Meredith stashed her ring around a necklace that Derek had given her for graduation. Before joining the others on rounds.

Bailey shot Meredith a knowing look. She always knew things without a word being spoken.

Meredith tried hard to focus on rounds, but was too bubbly with her news. Alex was walking with Izzie and George while Meredith hung back so she could walk with Christina.

"Chris" she whispered, pulling her friends attention away from her chart.

Christina looked at her expectantly. "What's McDreamy done now?" she asked.

"Were engaged" Meredith blurted out.

Christina stopped. "You're what?" she asked loudly.

Their group stopped and turned to look at her. "I'm engaged" she sighed.

Bailey looked at the group, quickly stopping Izzie from gushing. "Grey, this isn't a tea party. Keep moving."

Meredith smiled at her cousin, thrilled that at that moment she had saved her.

The group passed room 636. The blinds were still pulled and Meredith looked at it curiously. She had to suppress the urge to go in. Alex had stopped and Meredith ran into him.

"Why do I feel a pull to go in?" Alex asked her confused.

Meredith shrugged. "I don't know but I am feeling it too."


Alex took Meredith's hand. "You happy?" he asked.

"I am, but I feel like there is a massive piece of me missing." she sighed.

"Dad said the feeling goes away. But it doesn't" Alex told her.

"I've thought about looking for her, but she left because of me." Meredith looked at Alex. "She left because of me, but you guys don't hate me. I'd hate me. Sometimes I do hate me." she confessed.

Alex pulled her into a hug. "I couldn't hate you. I hate her though. She left when we needed her the most."

Meredith sighed "We better catch up Lex."

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When they had finished their rounds Meredith wasn't surprised to have been assigned to Derek. "You can be on his service today, but tell him he has to share himself around." Bailey told her.

Meredith left to go find Derek. He beamed at her when she reached him. "You ready to meet my VIP?" he asked.

Meredith nodded.

"Ellie is a surgeon and has devoted years of her time aiding clinics in 3rd world countries. I met her in Bosnia. She's very much my mentor. She's also like my 2nd mum." Derek explained.

"Are you sure you should be doing this then?" She asked, worried that he was too close to the patient.

"I wouldn't have any one else operate on her." he told her honestly.

"Hmmm..." she sounded in understanding.



"She was thrilled to hear about our engagement. I'm sure you'll love her Mer." He told her as he stopped in front of the patient's door and brushed his lips over hers.