Alex had headed for the roof. He needed air. He needed to escape. He needed to be and do many things. He wanted to stay and abuse his mother. Tell her how she had caused them so much pain.

He felt like he needed to explain what she lost, what her leaving caused.

Yet as much as he wanted to tell her all these things. He didn't really want to acknowledge that she was here. He didn't want to face her.

Alex walked to the edge of the building. Standing there looking over the edge. He didn't know yet if he wanted to yell or cry. So he just stood there and breathed.

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Mark was nursing his hand. He had put all his emotion in that punch. How could Derek have been so stupid? Mark looked down at his busted hand. He really needed to ice it.

Mark reached the nurses' station. "Ice pack?" he asked. The quickly redirected him to the freezer in the nurses lounge.

Mark walked blindly. He didn't know where he was going. He hadn't though much about much until he found himself standing back outside her room.

Mark didn't go in as he felt there was nothing for him to say.



He couldn't think. He spotted Addie down the hall. He quickly called out to her. He realised then that she was what he needed. "You busy?" he asked.

"No birthing Mothers just yet." she explained.

Mark nodded; he then grabbed her hand and dragged her into the on call room. He closed the door and latched the lock.

"Mark?" Addie asked, realising the tension that rattled him.

"I need you Addie" he told her with sheer determination and pressed her hard against the wall. He kissed her fiercely. All his need going into the kiss.

He pulled away and ran his thumb over her bruised swollen lips. He dipped his head again and kissed her. Again he pushed up against her. His hands began roaming her body and he grinded his hips into her, causing her to moan.

Mark hiked up Addie's dress and pushed down her panties. Adie gasped when she felt his thumb rub over her clit and further into her moistening folds. His thumb caressed her momentarily before he pulled his hand away.

Mark began to work furiously on untying his scrubs, and Addie assisted him in pushing down his scrubs and briefs. She stroked his arousal twice before he lifted her legs so she could wrap them around his waist. And without further hesitation he thrust into her.


Mark didn't give her a chance to adjust to him. He automatically just started pumping into her. He pumped hard and furiously. Driving into her like this could be there last time.

Addie moaned in what was a mix of pleasure and pain. Her body stretching to take more of him with every thrust.

Marks thrusts got faster. His need for a full release growing. He strived to get deeper. Mark moved his lips away from hers as he focused all he had on his thrusts and driving her to the edge.

Mark felt Addie's body shiver and then clench. He continued to thrust feeling her cum around him.

Mark was only a few steps behind her before he released inside of her. Crying her name out loud.

Some what sated he rested his head on the wall next to her.

Addie began to kiss his neck.

Mark groaned as he made himself withdraw from her. Letting both their bodies fall to the cold floor.

Mark pulled Addie into his arms. "Thank you" he murmured to her as he kissed her forehead.

"I love you" Addie told him as she rested her head on his shoulders.


"I needed to hear that." he confessed.

They both rested in each other's arms.

Marks pager sounded.

Mark groaned as he reached over and pulled it off his scrub pants.

"Its dad" he groaned. "Come with?" he asked.

"It could be about a patient" she offered.

"It's not" he told her as he reached for his brief as well as Addie's panties.

Addie looked at him curiously as he stood up and started to get dressed.

Addie stood and slipped her panties back on.

"Come with" he instructed as he held his hand out to her.

Addie fixed her dress and her bun before taking his hand. She figured that at least she will find out what triggered this moment.

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Derek sat nervously looking at Meredith who had gone quiet. She was curled up on her father's couch with her knees pulled to her chest. He reached over and ran his hand through her hair.

Meredith didn't flinch or pull away in fact she leant into his touch.

"Mer" he began "I'm sorry I didn't know."

Meredith looked up at him and then back in front of her. She was numb. For so long Ellis had been gone. There was a time that she had lived in hope that her mother would come home. Now she was back and she was sick. Now that she knew she wanted nothing more than to give her mother the same treatment that she had received. But she wasn't her mother and Meredith knew that she wouldn't be able to walk away from her.

Derek didn't know what to say or do. His mentor was his fiancés mother. A woman who had abandoned her family. A woman who had walked away from her sick child.

Derek and Meredith continued to be silent. Derek had no words to comfort, console or anything else. He had no idea what she could possibly be going through or feeling.

It wasn't until Meredith stood up and made her way to the door that Derek spoke again. "Mer?" he asked.

"I need to think." she told him as she walked out.



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Meredith reached the roof and walked across it. She had intended on being alone and just thinking. She couldn't talk to Derek about this because she knew he didn't understand. But when she saw Alex, she knew he needed her just as much as she needed him.

Meredith walked over to him and joined him. Sitting looking over the city. "I guess that pull to go in the room was a real pull." she told him.

"It's pretty scary that we could sense her after all this time. We just didn't recognise it because it's been so long." he said still looking forward.

"Derek does the first surgery tonight, and as much as I want to walk away from her... I can't" she sighed.

"How could he not know who she was?" Alex asked, frustrated and voicing his thought.

"I only told him about her leaving last night. I didn't say her name." she said with a shrug. "What is quite ironic is that he described her to me as his mentor and 2nd mother. I mean how crazy is that, she will technically be his mother in law. He has more of a relationship with her than her own 3 kids put together."

Alex put his arm around her. "I don't know what I want to do about this. I don't know if I can look at her, or even hear her voice."



Meredith sighed. "I don't really know what I want either. But I do know I need answers from her. I need to know where she's been and why she never came back."

"If you want me there I will be. You know we do these big things together. Well we used to anyway." Alex dropped his arm.

"We still do." she told him as she reached around and took hold of his hand. "I've just got the bad habit of pulling away. I didn't mean to pull away from you. You're the only one that gets me."

Alex and Meredith sat quietly. Both comfortable after sharing their thoughts. They rested against each other. Their pagers sounded together. Looking down they both sighed. "Dad" they groaned before standing up.

"I guess we better hear what he has to say." he told her.

Alex took her hand and helped her up. "Come on" he said. He kept hold of her hand as they set off.