Amongst the rest of the bags contents was a scrap book of each child. Ellis couldnt help but smile at the photos. Her breath caught at Mark's graduation and again at his wedding.
She smiled at the photo of Alex dressed for spring dance. Again, the graduation photo shocked her, yet warmed her heart.
She struggled through Merediths. There were many photos of Meredith in hopsital. She was shocked to see the lights on the roof top and Alex dancing with Meredith. There were no photos of Meredith ready for spring dance and her graduation photo broke her heart. Addison, Mark, Richard and Alex surrounded her. The only person missing was her.
Ellis curled up on the bed and closed up the book. She then looked at what remained in the bag. It was a collection of words, songs, poems and diary entries. Years worth of little black books.
Ellis looked at Richard who had stiffened at the sight of them.
"What are these?" Ellis asked Richard.
"Ummm... Mer... baby girl ... you've brought in your journals. Are you sure you want to let your mother read them?" he asked.
"She needs to understand Daddy." she sighed.
Richard nodded. He then noticed her rubbing her chest again. "Baby girl are you ok?"
"Still sore" she sighed.
"How sore?" he asked as he moved from his position by Ellis and stepped in front of her.
"It comes and goes." she moaned.
Richard looked at Derek who was looking worried.
"Her panic attack this morning was big and also would have been quite a strain." Richard explained. "Baby girl you should go sleep. You need to let your body repair itself not let it encounter further stress. Derek, can you take her to an on call room. Make sure she sleeps. Mer baby, if it still hurts after your nap i want you to go speak with Burke."
"But" Meredith whined.
"No baby girl, i only have doctors on my services who are taking care of themselves. We understand your limits. You need to. You also need to remember that you also have a baby growing inside of you. That's another person you need to consider."
"Fine" Meredith grizzled.
"That's my girl." Richard replied before helping her stand. He gave her a light kiss in her temple. "Go sleep."
Derek stood behind her and nodded to Richard and excused himself.
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"Why didnt you tell me?" Derek asked as he removed her shoes before then removing his. He sat them al down by their lab coats and other accessories.
"It passed earlier. I didnt think it would be back. It doesnt usually last." she sighed.
Derek sighed.
Meredith laid back and reached for Derek.
"Lay with us." she invited.
"Us" she said quietly running a hand over the slight bump that was forming.
Derek forced a smile and laid down next to her. His hand rested protectively on her stomach.
"Hold me." Meredith asked.
Derek looked at her and could see that she was feeling insecure.
Derek nodded and pulled her into his arms.
"Next time i'll tell you." she whispered. "It's just"
"Your insecurities?" he asked.
"Yeah" she sighed.
Meredith lifted her head and lightly kissed Derek. "I do love you Der." she told him. "I'm learning to tell you these things. I really am."