The gallery to O.R. 1 was closed off as Derek worked on removing the tumor that was pressing on Ellis's optical nerve.

Ellis had been quiet when Bailey had come and collected her and movd her to the pre-op section.
Miranda had recognised Meredith's journal that lay open on the bedside table. Ellis watched the young woman closely and had read her badge. "She gave them to me to read." Ellis advised
Miranda nodded. There wasn't anything she could think to say to her. To the woman who was technically her aunt.
"I didnt realise that my leaving would do that to her, to him, to them."
Miranda looked her over. "You didnt think about leaving before you did and you didnt think of them when you did it."
Ellis sighed.

"I think Meredith broke Ellis's heart today." Bailey told Derek as he focused hard on the surgery.

"The journal Ellis had been reading was left open on a crucial page. A page Ellis should not have read. I knew what was on that page without having to read it because i was the only person she ever gave permission to read them. I didnt read another word in her Journal for a long time after that. Ellis, i dare say will be the same."

Derek looked up confused.

"I'm just saying if Ellis wants to fix things with my family that i hope she came into surgery with the right frame of mind."



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Meredith, Alex, Mark and Addison sat in Richards office. Alex had an arm around Meredith who had been extremely quiet.

"Do you have a CD player?" Alex asked, finally breaking the silence.

Mark shook his head, while Addison nodded.

"Mine is in my office." Addison told him.

"Meet us up on the roof. I'm just going to grab out CD." Alex instructed.

Richard sat alone in Ellis's room. He couldn't identify exactly what he was feeling. He stared blankly at the bedside table until he realised that Merediths journal was sitting there open.

Richard had never dreamed of ever reading it before. He stood and walked over to the book.

Tempted he may have been to pick it up and read it. He couldn't bring himself to do so.

"Dad, we are going to the roof to dance." Alex told him as he ducked 

his head in through the door. "Come with, you can't sit in here all night."

Richard looked back at the book and then at Alex.

"I've thought about it too." Alex told him. "But if she wanted us to, she would have given them to us."

Richard nodded.

He walked over to Alex and put a hand on his shoulder. "Let's go."

Alex plugged Addie's CD player in and ran a line from the roof. He then took their CD and put it in the player.

Meredith stood off to the side waiting.

Mark stood with Addie. His arms wrapped around her,

Richard looks on.

Alex skips to their song.

Alex walks up to Meredith and takes her hand. He leads her to the middle of the helicopter launch pad as the music introduced the song.



Blue jean baby, L.A. lady, seamstress for the band.
Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man.
Ballerina, you must have seen her, dancing in the sand.
and now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand

Alex danced with Meredith, her head resting on his shoulder.

Mark led Addie out to join them, while Richard watched them.

Jesus freaks out in the street
Handing tickets out for god.
Turning back, she just laughs.
The boulevard is not that bad.

Piano man, he man, he makes his stand.
In the auditorium
Looking on, she sings the song.
The words she knows, the tune she hums.

Alex sang to her with ease. He held her tight. Both knew that they were escaping their fear as they moved around the roof.

But oh how it feels so real
Lying here with no one near
Only you and you can't hear me
When i say softly, slowly

Hold me closer tiny dancer,
count the headlights on the highway


Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today.

Hold me closer tiny dancer,
count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today.

Mark twirled Addie and brought her back close to him. She snuggled up to him, her arms wrapped around his neck.


Blue Jean Baby, L.A lady , seamstress for the band.
Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man.
Ballerina, you must have seen her, dancing in the sand
And now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand.

But oh how it feels so real
Lying here with no one near
Only you and you can't hear me
When i say softly, slowly

Hold me closer tiny dancer,
count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today.



Hold me closer tiny dancer,
count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today.

As the music came to an end Richard approached them. "May I?" he asked Alex.

"You know what song." he then tells him. Alex nods and returns to the CD player.

Addison and Mark clear the spot and go stand by Alex, letting Richard and Meredith have their moment.

"Daddy daughter moment." Addie said with a smile.

"I guess they'll dance to this at her wedding." Alex finished

We will fly, way up high, where the cold wind blows
Or in the sun, laughing having fun with all the people that she knows
And if the situation, should keep us seperated, you know the world wont fall apart.
And you will free the beautiful bird that's caught inside your heart.

Can't you hear her, oh she cries so loud, casts a wild note over water and cloud.
That's the way its going to be little darling, we'll be riding on the 

horses yeah yeah
Way up in the sky little darling, and if you fall I'll pick you up, pick you up.

Richard kissed Meredith on the top of her head.

You will grow and until you go. I'll be right there by yourside.
And even then, whisper the wind and she will carry up wour ride.
I hear all the people of the world in one birds lonely cry.
See them trying every way they know how to make their spirit fly.

Can't you see him, he's down on the ground
He has a broken wing looking all around.
That's the way it's going to be little darling
You'll go riding on the horses yeah yeah
Way up in the sky little darlin
Oh and if you falll i'll pick you up, pick you up.

"How's your heart baby girl? Richard whispered in her ear.

"It's ok daddy, the sleep worked." she replied.

"Good baby girl, you took some big hits today with your mom. I'm proud of you."

"Just doing what was needed."

"You ok?"



"I'm not dead." she said as she cuddled up to him.

"No baby girl, you're not dead."

Thats the way it's going to be little darling
You'll go riding on the horses yeah yeah
Way up in the sky little darlin
Oh and if you falll i'll pick you up, pick you up

Thats the way it's going to be little darling
You'll go riding on the horses yeah yeah
Way up in the sky little darlin
Oh and if you falll i'll pick you up, pick you up

Richard continued to hold Meredith close. "Thanks for dancing with me Daddy." she whispers

"My pleasure Baby girl."

Meredith hugged him tighter.

"I'm proud of you Mer."

"Thanks"

Richard kissed her lightly on her head. "Love you." he whispered.

"Love you too daddy."



"My turn" Mark insisted as he split the pair up. Richard stepped back from Meredith and let Mark cut in.

Mark nodded to Alex, sho pressed the play button

Well the good lord is such a good lord
with such a good mother too
they have blessed me
they have blessed me
in the good graces of you
now i... have heard a hundred violins crying
and i... i have seen a hundred white doves flying

but nothing is as beautiful
as when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
in me.

"I love that you each have a song with Mer." Addie commented to Alex and Richard.

They both nodded.



"Chin up Mer, Derek will do his best, and well, Mandy is Mandy." Mark tried to reassure her.

"You trying to convince me or yourself?"

"Both i guess"


How good it must feel to be so young, young and free
and a song that pleases a queen, will always please me
now i... i have heard the wisest of wisdom
and i... i have dined in palaces and kingdoms.

but nothing is as beautiful
as when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
in me

"I wont run from her Markie. But i dont know if i really want her here anymore."

"I guess we don't really have a choice."

"We will have to see what she decides to do after this."



"and again we have to cop it on the chin."

"We'll be ok?"

"Sure"


Now all of life, is just passing the time
Until once again, your eyes look into mine
now i... i have been adored by a stranger
and i... i have heard the whispering angels

But nothing is as beautiful
as when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
when she believes
oh when she believes
in me

"Believe Mer... believe that we can survive another hurdle."

"I'll believe you... when you believe it yourself."

"I got told i would find you up here." Derek interupted them.

Meredith held onto Mark as they moved back towards the family.


Derek smiled awkwardly.

"Things went well, i was able to get it all."

"Her sight?" Richard asked.

"We wot know until she wakes up." Derek told him.

"I'll take you guys to see her." Derek offered.

Derek nodded and reached for ehr hand.

Mark gave her shoulder a squeeze. He leant in and whispered to her "Nothing is as beautiful as when she believes."

Derek looked between the two confused.

Richard rested a hand on Alex's shoulder.

Mark pulled Addison to him when Meredith was snuggled into Dereks arms.

The 5 of them walked with Derek as they made their way to the one person who had turned their worlds upside down.