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So I've been travelling and wrote this, when I had time to spare from chores, sightseeing and such.. Result is that this chapter is probably more than just a bit choppy and whatnot, but I thought I'd post it anyway to give you something now. Might edit later, when I return to civilization ie. off this boat :D
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Bo shifted in her seat and she let out a soft happy sigh. The brunette's eyes were once again drawn to the blond sitting next to her. She, Kenzi and Lauren were in the movies watching a special showing of Alien.
Bo didn't really care for scifi or the Alien movies, but Kenzi had mentioned the film being shown at a local theater to Lauren a few days back and the blond had almost jumped for joy. Bo never knew that Lauren was a science fiction nut. She loved to find out new sides to the blond. Kenzi and Lauren had proceeded to bond talking about Aliens, Star Trek and Star Wars. That discussion had had both Bo and Tamsin sighing in boredom. Bo had perked up, when Kenzi had asked Lauren to see the Alien movie with her. Kenzi had given Bo a teasing gaze just waiting Bo to beg, if she could come with. Bo had already opened her mouth, when Lauren had flicked her hazel eyes to Bo's asking, if she wanted to come too. 'Yes' Bo had breathed very hastily. And here they were. Sitting in the dark movie theater.
"Bo. Stop staring at her." Kenzi suddenly hissed in Bo's ear making her jump slightly.
"You okay?" Lauren asked Bo, when she felt the brunette jerk next to her.
"Oh.. I'm fine." Bo murmured meeting Lauren's concerned eyes. "I.. got spooked. Scary stuff." She motioned sheepishly towards the screen.
"It is pretty intense." Lauren said softly dropping her eyes on Bo's hand resting on the brunette's lap. She hesitantly took a hold of Bo's hand and then lifted her eyes back to Bo's giving her a small smile.
"Lauren.." Bo murmured squeezing the blond's hand gently.
"Hmm.." Lauren hummed her eyes finding Bo's lips. She leaned in closer and felt Bo's breath caress her lips. A little whimper escaped the succubus' lips.
"I'm right here, you know." Kenzi groaned making the women spring apart. "Don't make me come and sit between you two. So shush. Watch the movie!" She ordered shooting a glare at Bo and then a slightly softer one at Lauren.
"Sorry." Lauren offered, but kept Bo's fingers interlaced with her own.
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After the movie Bo and Kenzi drove Lauren home. They had said quick goodbyes in the car, before Lauren exited sending a smile at the brunettes one after another. Lauren was walking towards her house, when Bo scampered after her. The brunette had shot a quick look at her smirking friend in the backseat. 'Shut up' Bo mouthed slamming the door closed.
"Lauren?" Bo called out softly succeeding to stop the blond.
"Yeah?" Lauren asked turning around and Bo jogged the few steps separating them.
"I.. Um.. I'd like to say goodnight. Properly." Bo fidgeted feeling uncharastically shy and nervous.
The succubus was usually very assertive and confident with.. this kind of thing. But Lauren was different. With Lauren it all always had been different. Bo always felt more human with Lauren than with anyone. And that was the reason she was now stuttering nervously with her heart pounding from just wanting a goodnight kiss from the blond.
"Okay?"
Bo smiled softly and tugged the blond to her body. She exhaled in mixture of relief and excitement once Lauren's arms circled her middle. Bo buried her face in Lauren's neck. Feeling bold she placed a little kiss there and then another one, when Lauren didn't protest, but instead gasped quietly. Next kiss landed on the doctor's jaw. Lauren released a small sigh. Bo's heart was beating restlessly as she gazed in Lauren's hooded eyes. She slowly brought her lips to Lauren's giving the blond time to pull away, if she wanted. Lauren didn't. Their mouths molded together tentatively as they softly explored each other. Lauren hummed approvingly, when Bo deepened the kiss. A soft growl soon escaped Bo's lips and she shuddered a little and forced herself to slow the kiss ending it great difficulty. Bo rested her forehead on Lauren's. They both took ragged breaths, before opening their eyes.
"Goodnight." Bo whispered softly against Lauren's lips, before pulling away completely.
"Okay..Thank you.." Lauren exhaled dazed. "I mean.. Goodnight." She gave a little wave as she watched Bo make her way back to the car.
"I think I'm in trouble here.." Lauren whispered shakily to herself as she unlocked her door with unsteady hands.
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"Bo.. Are you wooing her now?" Kenzi chided, when Bo plopped back in their rental car, but the goth sounded slightly playful. She had climbed on the front seat Lauren had vacated minutes ago.
"I'm in so much trouble." Bo groaned sighing heavily, but her lips were tugging up. Kissing Lauren was the best. Bo was tingling all over. Only a few months ago she didn't think she'd ever get to kiss Lauren again.
"I thought you were continuing as friends?" Kenzi smirked cheekily.
Kenzi knew Bo would go after Lauren and everyone just had to wait and see how that would turn out. Kenzi reckoned there wasn't really anything anybody could do to intervene the two lovebirds. She was dreading how things would unfold, but Kenzi had faith in Bo. She believed everything would work out. Those two loved each other and it would all work out. Maybe it was stupid and childish to believe such considering the situation, Kenzi realized, but held onto hope anyway. I never knew I was such a sap, she grinned a little shaking her head.
"Yeah.. But.." Bo started to defend her actions.
"I saw you! At the movies ogling her. Holding hands! And just now you were sucking her face like your life depended on it!" Kenzi gestured to Lauren's door with a flourish of her hand.
"Yeah.." Bo sighed dreamily remembering how it felt to kiss Lauren. How good it felt to feel her respond and kiss back.
"Oh shut up!" Kenzi squealed noting Bo's glazed eyes. "So you are going after her. And 'just friends' is out." She said as a statement nodding her head.
"I can't help myself.. She's so.." Bo closed her eyes. "I love her."
"Our lease is up in a few days. We've been here for almost two weeks. We should either pack or continue our lease." Kenzi reminded.
"Or get a real place?" Bo suggested not looking at Kenzi. She had giving this a lot of thought, but wasn't at all sure what Kenzi was going to say.
"You want to stay right?"
"I don't think I can go away. I've missed her so much. I wanted to have family with her, before I.. messed it all up. I want her in my life. I want a family with her.." Bo admitted meeting Kenzi's eyes. "I have to give this a try. I can make her happy. She makes me happy. I know it's.. a mess, but Lauren.. She's the only thing in my life that makes sense. She makes me want to.. do better."
"You're willing to live two separate lives? A human family life with a succubus life on the side?" Kenzi pointed out seriously. She knew that Bo must have thought about that, but wanted to hear it for herself.
"I am, if that is what it takes to be with her." Bo said resolutely. "But I have talked to Evony about this too. The succubus stuff and my options."
"Options?"
"On what to do. How to do it. Evony was surprisingly.. helpful."
"Oh. So you are serious about this." Kenzi patted Bo's hand clutched around the steering wheel. "What if Lauren doesn't.. want a life with you after all?"
"Kenzi.. Why would you say that?"
"I don't want you to get hurt. You are just starting with Lauren. What if it doesn't work out between you two?"
"Then it doesn't, but I'm gonna try Kenzi. If Lauren doesn't want me or need me, I'll walk away. But not before I've giving us a real shot. I won't let her slip away. I can't."
"What if Lauren and Cam get back together? You know she's still around right? Lauren went out to dinner with her a few days ago." Kenzi pushed on.
"I don't know.." Bo closed her eyes and slumped over the steering wheel. "Do you think they will try again? Cam is familiar and.. safe and everything.." She whispered in a small voice.
"No. I don't think they will." Kenzi rubbed Bo's back soothingly. "Lauren's nuts about you."
"You think?" Bo sighed.
"Yeah. Cam's toast." Kenzi said sounding very sure.
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Lauren ventured in to her quiet and dark house. She let out a shuddering breath as she pushed the door closed behind her. She shed her jacket and draped it carefully on the hangar. She listened to any movement in the house, when she didn't hear anything she guessed that both Tamsin and Toby were sleeping peacefully.
Lauren wasn't sure she could sleep at all. Her thoughts were rattling around inside her. How could a kiss affect me like this? Bo and I were supposed to be friends, but here we are.. Kissing on the doorstep after holding hands at the movies, she thought her heart fluttering. Remembering the kiss and the previous soft touches made Lauren's skin tingle all over. There's no way in hell I can be just friends with Bo, Lauren swallowed and shook her head. I need a cup of tea, she decided and turned to make her way to the kitchen.
"Hey."
"Christ!" Lauren screeched putting her hand on her thumping heart. "Jeez. You scared me. What are you doing skulking about in the dark?" She hissed shooting a scorching glare at Tamsin, who was hovering behind her.
"Waiting up for you of course." Tamsin said.
"How was Toby?"
"Tobster was on his best behavior." Tamsin smiled warmly. "I didn't even have to call your mother. Me and Toby had a very pleasant evening. Playing peek-a-boo and all." She grinned.
"Good." Lauren chuckled softly.
"So... I saw you. And Bo. Just now." Tamsin dove right in.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Lauren shrugged evasively reaching for a mug from the cupboard turning her back on Tamsin.
"I saw you. I spied on you through the window." Tamsin smirked at Lauren's horrified face, when the blond turned to face her.
"Well. Fine. You caught me. We kissed."
"And?"
"And.. it was heavenly." Lauren sighed quietly.
"Then why do you look like that?" Tamsin asked gently.
"Maybe me and Bo should be just friends? It might be for the best, but.. I don't want to! And I'm not even sure I can be her friend.. She lives in Toronto. I can't ask her to move here for me for god's sake. We barely know each other still.. But I want to get to know her.. Bo is so great and I'm falling for her.. It's too quick isn't it? Maybe it's a phase? But what if it's not.. And then there's Cam.. Shit.." The doctor rambled anxiously.
"What about Cam? You've been out with her a couple of times in the last few weeks haven't you?" Tamsin asked.
"I like her. She's great. And I love her.. as a friend. I just.. There's no spark, you know. Not anymore. We broke up because we wanted different things. Maybe we would have broken up anyway or.. maybe not. I don't know.. But Bo.. She's something else isn't she.." Lauren trailed off.
"Obviously." Tamsin nodded as she eyed her fretting friend.
"Why is this so complicated?" Lauren groaned.
"And you don't know the half of it.." Tamsin started before snapping her mouth shut.
"What?"
"I mean.. It's complicated. Like you said." Tamsin shrugged evasively. She didn't want to interfere with Lauren's ramblings too much.
"Maybe I should let Bo go?"
"Maybe." Tamsin said softly and thought how history just might repeat itself. Lauren leaving Bo and moving on. Though Tamsin knew it was a long shot, because Bo was now new and improved. Lauren had no reason to push her away. Other than the distance between Toronto and Vancouver, which really wasn't an issue at all. Not for Bo. Tamsin guessed that the succubus would be more than ready to make Vancouver her home, if it meant being close to the doctor.
"But I don't think I can!" Lauren screeched. "I can't push her away Tamsin!"
"I don't know what to say."
"If Bo keeps being so sweet and perfect.. I won't be able to let her go." Lauren whispered. "Tamsin I'm really falling for her.. And she's gonna go away and break my heart isn't she?"
"I hope.. not." Tamsin said softly. She knew Bo wouldn't go anywhere. Or at least the succubus would not totally disappear from Lauren's life.
"I like her."
"Oh?"
"I realize it's fast, but I really.. really like her Tamsin." Lauren admitted quietly giving Tamsin a pointed look.
"Well shit Lo." Tamsin countered meeting Lauren's eyes. The valkyrie was a little surprised that cool headed Doctor Lewis seemed to have developed feelings for Bo so quickly. On the other hand knowing their history, was it surprising at all. There was always something deeper going on, Tamsin mused.
"Indeed." Lauren sighed. "I need to talk to Cam."
"What are you gonna say?"
"I honestly don't know. But I know I can't get back together with her or even keep dating her with all these feelings I have for Bo. Even if me and Bo won't ever be more than friends.. I just can't do that to her."
"Lauren... You two are already more than friends. Friends don't kiss each other like that."
"I know.." Lauren sighed. "But it's.."
"Complicated. Yes."
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Lauren was fidgeting with her pen. She twirled it around with her fingers occasionally thrumming the desk with the tip. She was waiting for Cam to come see her in her office. She'd been back at work for a few days. Her ribs were healing nicely and caused only slight discomfort. But waiting for Cam was painful and Lauren knew telling Cam would be nerve wrecking. This was not a talk she wanted to have, but she knew it was necessary. Cam needed to know what was going on. Though Lauren suspected that her ex already knew that something was up. The few dates they had, had been more than slightly awkward. A soft knock on the door made Lauren jump.
"Come in." Lauren called out after taking a deep breath. "Hey Cam." She smiled hesitantly at the latina entering her office.
"Hey Lauren." Cam sighed. "Just.." She started, but then fell quiet.
Camila looked sad, Lauren noted. She knows. She knows, what I want to talk about, Lauren realized guiltily. "Cam I.."
"I know what you're going to say. You don't want to keep seeing me." Cam said bluntly, but Lauren regocnized the hurt in her eyes.
"I think.. We shouldn't date anymore. I just feel, that it's not.. working."
"It's Bo, right? You and her.." Cam met Lauren's eyes. "I sensed something between you two at the hospital."
"Bo's.. I don't know." Lauren lowered her eyes exhaling.
"You feel something for her don't you?" Camila prodded.
"I guess..." Lauren sighed. Stop stalling. Tell her! She chided inwardly. She lifted her gaze to Cam. "Um.. Yes. I do feel something for Bo. Something quite.. strong and it's got me reeling. It might not work out or go anywhere, but I wanted to be honest with you. I have feelings for her. And.. I need to try.. I want to try with her. I'm sorry."
"Okay." Cam nodded hanging her head.
"I.. I hope we can be friends Cam. I.. I care about you."
"I know. I care about you too." Cam swallowed thickly. "But I don't think I can be your friend."
"Oh." Lauren swallowed feeling tears pricking her eyes.
"Not yet. I need some time."
"Of course." Lauren nodded slowly. "I.. I never wanted to hurt you and.. I am so sorry Cam."
"Me too." The latina said quietly not meeting the blond's eyes as she was exiting Lauren's office.
"Shit.." Lauren sighed tearfully resting her head on the table top. "I'm such an asshole."
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A/N Those following Just like heaven, I might be able to post 'something' in a day or two (I have little over 1000 words already written).
Next chapter for Explosions up probably in a week or two.