Meredith was on information overload. She couldn't take it anymore. She had a brother that she didn't know. Her mother was back, and now her twin had gotten her best friend pregnant.

She had been standing looking over the city wondering how she was supposed to deal with each of the situations that had been occuring.

"You've spent quite some time up here." A voice came from behind her.

She sighed, but did not turn to face the source.

"So what brings you up here? I've heard one story, but i'd like to hear it from you." he spoke and she could feel him move closer to her.

She holds out her hand and invites his touch.

He takes her hand and moves to her side, sliding his free arm around her waist.

"Word is that you yelled at your mother." he sighed as he moved to nuzzle her neck.

She tilted her head and welcomed him.

"But i feel that there's something else that has you up here." he whispers as his hand moves to run over her stomach.

Meredith leant back into him. "There's just so much going on that i can't comprehend." she sighs.

He moves a little and wraps both his arms around her. "Maybe we could work on comprehending them together?" he encourages.

"I wouldn't know where to begin." she whispers.

He breathes her in and drops a kiss on the top of her head.

"I can't work out how how anyone could keep their child away from it's father." she sighed. "I could never have done that with you. It would have hurt me to even think of hurting you."

He drops his head and rests it near hers. "Our situation is different." he sighs. "Your mother had ran away from the life she had. I can't make an excuse for her, becuase i can't imagine having left in the first place."

She shifts slightly and tilts her head to look at him. "How would you have felt?" she asks.

"I can't imagine Mer. But i know it would have felt like you had ripped my heart out." he answers.

"I think that is how dad feels." she sighs.

He moved a hand from her waist and uses a finger to trace her cheek.

"How do you feel about it?" he asked. "You have a little brother that you didn't know existed until the other day."

She waits a moment, thining his question through. "I dont know. I feel sorry for Richie..." she trails off.

"I want to know about you." he pressed.

"Angry" she sighed. "The boys and i have formed bonds already. They're strong and that's partly because of all that we have been through. I don't have that with Richie. We dont have a song. I'm angry because we didn't have a chance."

He leans in and kisses her. "You have a chance now." he tells her. "We can invite him to dinner tonight if you want. The boys and Addie can come too. Your dad aswell. We'll have it out at our place." he offers.

Meredith sighs. "I'll think about it."

Derek nods and moves to look out over the city again. "What else is there?" he asks.

Meredith is quiet for a while, beofre she finally opens up again. "A friend of mine is pregnant, and was talking about an abortion. I know who the father is, and she told him that she's pregnant, but not that she is thinking about having an abortion." she says quietly.

"I don't know how he feels about things, but i don't think she should have an abortion without discussin it with him."

Derek nods " so tell her that."

"She doesn't know that i know who the father is." she sighs.

"Oh" he replies.

"Yeah and it doesnt help when the father is my twin brother." she whispers.

Derek groans and holds her tighter. "I can't really tell you what to do mer."

"They're both going to want to talk to me about this." she tells him, "and i dont want to be that person for them. im too involved."

"So tell them that" he whispers.

She turns to look at him. "Why does it have to be so hard?"

"Nothing in life is really easy Mer. It's only shaped by the decisions that we make."