Meredith stood looking through the door to her mothers room. She could not bring herself to enter the room. She wanted to believe her father when he said that she was here to stay but she really couldn't.

Derek spotted her and felt his heart ache acknowledging the pain and confusion that she must be going through.

He walked towards her, christina following close behind. He hated that people were going to learn the truth about Meredith's mom.

Meredith could feel Derek's eyes upon her, but she did not look up. She could feel him closing in on her. She knew that he would be rounding on Ellis soon.

His warm arms slipped down her side and she leant back into his embrace. She did not say anything, and he didn't really expect her to.

"You ok? He asked, and meredith simply nodded her head in reply.

"I just have her to go... then we can have lunch." He told her.

Meredith again just nodded.

Christina didn't say anything.

"Do you want to come in?" he asked her, and this time received a sigh in response.

"Come on." He said as he kissed her head. He then gave her side a bit of a squeeze before letting her go.

Meredith moved out of his way and he moved to open the door.

He then pushed the door open and slowly moved into the room before looking back at meredith.

Christina looked at her curiously before moving into the room.

Meredith was havin an inner battle wiht herself. She knew that she should probably go into the room and see her mother. Knowing what she should do and what she wanted to do... she continued to falter on the boundary between the room. She could feel all eyes on her and all she knew was that she could either take a step into the room or she could stay on the outside away from it all.

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Meredith continued to linger on the edge of entering the room. She knew what the right thing to do was. It was just a matter of doing it.

She knew that her father was watching, and waiting while Richie expected her to cross the threshold. Christina on the otherhand was quite curious as to Meredith's hesitancy. She had yet to realise that she was in her mothers room. Plus it was not like her to linger outside of a patients room.

Meredith looked back down the hall way. She needed something, but she wasnt sure what. She knew that her brothers were both busy. She was sure Mark had said something about letting Alex scrub in on a surgery with him. She figured that was what she needed. She needed them beside her. Not only to help her cross the line, but to be there to catch her when she knew she was going to fall, after all, it was bound to happen.

Meredith felt a hand rest upon her shoulder, and she looked back into the room to see that Derek was standing in front of her. "You can do this Mer." he whispered and leaned in to kiss her cheek. This of course caused eyebrows to raise.

Meredith sighed as she reached for his hand. He gave it a quick squeeze before pulling her across the line and into the room.

Derek moved quick to slip an arm around Meredith's waist and to pull her close to him. She moved to rest her head upon his shoulder and burrow in. He sighed as he then shuffled forward with her in his embrace.

"Back to what i was saying." he said as professionally as he could.

He heard Meredith whimper slightly, and he ran a hand down her back.

"This surgery is going to take a while, i want to make sure i get it all, there should be no reason for me to go back in." He told them.

"And you can get it all?" Richie asked him nervously.

Derek nodded slightly. "From the scans i sent for this morning, i should be able to get it easy. But You do understand that Ellis wont be walking for a few days, to maybe even a couple of weeks. This surgery is going to take a lot out of her." He informed them.

They all nodded and then he smiled lightly. "Yang will be prepping you for surgery, and i will see you in the OR at 3." He finished.

Again they all nodded, and then waited to see if he was going to say anything further, but when he didnt their attention moved to Meredith.

"Is she ok?" Ellis asked. Wanting to know if Meredith was just simply sulking or if there was something going on.

Christina looked to Meredith. She knew that there was more going on besides what she had been told. "Do i need to get Alex?" She asked Meredith.

Meredith shook her head. "He's in surgery with Mark." Meredith told her.

"I know that, i always know..." Christina started but then stopped and looked around awkwardly.

"You always know where he is?" Ellis asked her.

Christina looked around nervously. "Ummmm..." she said as she tried to find her way out of it.

"I know." Meredith told her as she looked up.

"What?" Christina hissed.

"I know, about Alex, i know." Meredith said quietly as Derek wrapped his arms around Meredith and continuosly rubbed circles around her back.

"Oh" Christina said awkwardly as she brought her hand to rest on her stomach. "I... I cant be here." she said nervously as she went to move out of the room.

"Chris" Meredith called out to her as she reached the door. "Dont run from this, because he wont." she said as she watched her friend falter.

She saw Christina nod in acknowledgement before moving out of the room.

"Interesting" Ellis said as she eyed Meredith.

"Dont" Meredith said quietly as she buried her head back into Derek. "You dont have the right so dont."

Ellis looked to Richard who had been watching everything curiously.

"I guess i better have a talk with my son." he said as he moved to stand.

Richie was watching on warily, he knew he didnt have a place or a say in things just yet.

"Come on Mer let's get some lunch." Derek told her as he kissed her forehead.

Meredith sighed, but let him lead her from the room.