Derek took in a deep breath. He had just finished talking to Erin, and now he wasn't sure what to think. What she had told him could do nothing but make his concern grow further.


"This patient Derek is taking a great risk to see the pregnancy through, especially if she is working a job with long hours. I'm not sure if she will be able to handle the strain on her heart." Erin had told him. "Nonetheless, i would prefer to do some tests myself."

Derek had sighed at the thought. She had then continued by telling him that she would be flying out here to do a consult on the patient.

This could do nothing more but stir his concern as he had not told Erin that it was Meredith they were consulting on. Let alon tell Meredith that he had called Erin.

Derek ran a hand through his hair, before moving towards the elevator. Erin had said that she was boarding a plane as they spoke.

Not really thinking about where he was going, he pushed a button and closed his eyes, as he moved to rest his head on the metal lining. He didnt know what to do or even where the boys had taken Meredith. There was just too much going on, and right now, he wasnt sure he could handle it.

He heard the elevator doors open, but did not look up as he was too worn out.

The person didnt talk to him, they just seemed to watch him as he was on the verge of breaking down.

His body began to shake with emotion, and he tried to hide it from the person on the elevator.

He waited for them to step off at the floor that they had indicated, before pushing the button for the roof.

He needed to breathe, he needed Meredith, and he didnt know where she was. So he figured he could solve the first need.

The doors to the elevator opened and he stepped off and headed out to the roof.

The wind hit his face, and he took in a deep breath. He knew that he should probably be looking to see where Meredith was and how she is, but after talking to Erin, he didnt really know what to say to her.

"I got told you were up here." A voice came from behind him, and he turned to see Richard. He was pushing Meredith in a wheel chair. He could see that she wasn't too happy about being in the chair, and yet, he could see that something was bothering Richard too.

I nod at them before moving again to look out across the sea.

"I also recieved an interesting phonecall moments ago." Richard continued. "It seems that a Dr Erin Hargraves has decided that she needs to fly in and consult on a patients that you had enquired about."

Richard sighs as he closes his eyes, and Derek runs a hand through his hair.

"I cant do this now." Derek tells him.

Richard looks at him puzzled. "Whats wrong with Dr Burke?" he pressed.

Derek took a moment to think of how he should word his response, and yet, it didnt matter how he was going to word this, he would still look like a bastard.

"Whats wrong is that he is playing with my fiance - your daughters life. Whats wrong is that he was going to put her life at risk to make sure she could have this baby. Who gives a fuck about a baby if its mother is not around." he said as he turned away again. "I cant do this alone. I dont want to live my life without her, thats why i called for a second opinion, because if i have to sacrifice our baby to ensure that its mother is going to be around for the others, than i will do it. I dont want to be left alone."

"You wont be." Richard told him as he studied him closely, his eyes moving over the man who would soon become his son in law.

"You cant be sure of that." Derek answered before turning to look at Meredith. He could see the tears in her eyes despite the fact that she had stayed silent. "I love you, and i want to marry you, but i dont knw if i could survive life without you."

Meredith searched his eyes before running a hand over her chest. "Der" she said softly.

"Look, i... i just wanted a second opinion.... i promis... i was just...." he tried to find the words to describe how he was feeling.

"You're scared." Meredith whispered, and Derek nodded.

Meredith wheeled herself a little closer to him before reaching for his hand.

Derek looked down at her, not sure what she thought about the whole thing.

"Ok" she said quietly.

"Ok?" he asked.

Meredith nodded. "It's ok" she said again as she then began to look out at the sea. "It's ok to be scared."

With that Richard turned, figuring that he needed to give them some time alone, and also maybe do some damage control before Dr Hargraves arrived.