Iodine ch.6: Worse and then bit better.

I don't own South Park or lyrics appearing in this chapter.

I say I wanna be healthy, but I turn up the noise
The IV drips a steady stream of poison
I think I'm just in love with the feeling
Break my bones so I can feel them healing

After short while and shower of love confession, Kyle somehow convinced Eric to sit on passenger seat. By this time the both were soaked. Sitting in his spot Kyle started engine and drove to Cartmans.

"I'm...sorry. You... have to..." Eric muttered looking at window. Still drunk as hell.

"It's not a problem. I'd have to leave soon anyway." Kyle assured other with smile. Now Cartman looked even better with his hair wet from rain that was falling stronger and stronger with each passing minute. Rest of the ride Cartman stayed silent. It wasn't long but still Kyle would prefer if Eric was talking, it was somehow calming him down.

Making Cartman leave car was easier than making him get in. Except seat belts. When Kyle tried undoing Cartmans belt he got hugged. And more love confessions flowed on him. Kyle ignored it knowing that Cartman wasn't aware of what he was doing. Blushing heavily and completely soaked Kyle finally managed to get Cartman to open door and locked it behind them. He didn't plan driving to Denver during such rain. And someone has to watch Eric.

"Let's get you to bed, shall we" Kyle smiled at Eric who at this point was leaning on door. "Eric?" Jew asked getting no response. Then loud snoring informed him that his companion fell asleep. Sighing Kyle picked Eric up and carried him.

Cartman was really light. Kyle was wondering what kind of died other went trough for this change. At first he planned to just leave Eric in bed but, leaving him in wet clothes was bad idea.

Sighing Kyle slowly unbuttoned Erics vest and then shirt to carefully take them of. As he was done Eric subconsciously hugged him. Looking down Kyle noticed irregular scars painting others back. His eyes went wide at sight. 'What the hell.' he thought tracing outline of biggest scar.

"Kyle..." Eric muttered burring his face in gingers chest. Kyle smiled a bit hearing his name. He got no idea in what intention Cartamn dreamed about him, but hearing his own name said like this made him feel warm inside. Who knows maybe Cartman really changed, today's dinner sure showed him from nice side. Quickly freeing himself from Cartmans grip he just put blanked on other too embarrassed to take off his pants, he jut took off belt and unbuttoned only button.

Smiling at sleeping man Kyle went downstairs. He was still unused to Cartmans new look. It.. was weird. Cartman was supposed to be chubby. Not like he was. Picture or Cartmans torso appeared before his eyes. With bones slightly visible and sticking out. He was mad at himself for letting Cartman leave those five years ago. And his back... If he hadn't left he wouldn't have those scars... If he stayed... Kyle shook those thoughts off. No use regretting now...

Acho... Well he'll have to stay anyway now. With how it was raining he got no choice but to go to his car and get clothes he wore while visiting his parents. Sighing Kyle looked outside. It was raining even more now. Already regretting not taking it in earlier Kyle walked outside to get soaked even more. Having his bag he send SMS to his mother saying he's staying at Cartmans tonight and went to take shower. Liane wouldn't mind. Walking past Cartmans room he looked inside. Eric was still sleeping, and he already managed to kick his pants off. Smiling at how peaceful Eric looked Kyle locked door and went to take shower.

…

Waking up with groan Cartman felt awful. Looking around he noticed that he's home. His wet clothes were lying on floor. He hadn't came over by himself and not with his mom. Remembering what happened earlier he looked at clock. 8 pm. He sighed. Perfect timing for supper. He sighed again. Looking around he decided it wasn't Jack who brought him here, this bastard would either be around or left some perverted note. His hair was in quite bad state. Groaning he stood up and got some fresh clothes, just underwear and sweatpants thought.

After shower he went downstairs. In living room he encountered big surprise, namely Kyle sleeping on couch. Half lying half sitting. Sighing Cartman got blanked and put it on his guest. He assumed his mom is still at Broflovskich place, possibly staying night. Not that he complained, at least she won't worry about him. Feeling far to familiar sting of hunger Eric left Kyle and went to get something to eat.

Making his sandwiches Eric didn't notice Kyle walking in. For while Jew was staring at others back, more specifically scars. Then ginger walked closer and hugged brunette from behind nuzzling his face in crook of his neck.

"Kahl?" Cartman asked looking at other man. He was surprised by this action. Just then he remembered he's shirtless. "Stop it. Don't look at those." he asked trying to free himself from others embrace.

"Who did those?" Kyle asked. His voice cold and calm. He was certainly mad at something.

"It's not something I want to talk about." Eric opposed. "Just let me go, I have to eat, I... still have to take my pills." he added. Now Kyle let him go.

"Do you remember anything from when you were drunk?" Kyle asked.

"No. Have I said anything weird?" Eric responded starting to eat.

"Not really, just proclaimed your love to everyone but Jack and said he's despicable person. And you promised to tell me why when room stops spinning." Kyle said nonchalantly. His voice still somewhat cold.

"He just is. Don't get too close with him." Cartman shrugged avoiding telling real reason behind his words from that moment.

"And why's that?" Kyle continued questioning. He wasn't going to give up. "Don't lie Cartman. I know you too well to not notice." he added, tilting his head to side.

Eric said nothing. "It... during those five years many things happened, Kyle." He started hesitantly. "Things I'm not proud of and things I certainly don't want some people to know about..."

"Just tell me. I can bear it." Kyle said crossing his arms on his chest.

Cartman sighed. "That's not the case, Kyle. I just don't want you to know it..."

"I won't hate you or judge you. Just tell me." Kyle wasn't going to give up. Cartman knew this.

"Fine." He gave up. No use arguing while hungover, right? "But I've got to eat and take my medicine first." he added. "And it's a long story."

"We have time." Kyle noted when thunder roared outside. "There's no way I'm driving to Denver in this weather." he added. Cartman decided to not ask any questions. He just ate, cleaned up and went upstairs. "Wait here, I'll come when..."

"I'm going with you." Kyle protested. Kyle could be quite persistent if he wanted something. Sighing in defeat Eric said nothing just going straight to his room with glass of water and Kyle trailing closely after him.

Still under careful observation Eric takes his medicine box and just like usually takes his pills, injection and iodine. Kyle says nothing but Cartman is sure he's got hundreds of questions.

"Those are vitamins and antidepressants, here I have insulin since my body refuses sugars in any other form. Iodine is for metabolism so my weight won't jump like crazy." Cartman explained. Kyle just nodded.

"Still want to hear it?" Cartman asked, he knew answer, just wanted to make sure.

I can't make reality connect
I push till I have nothing left
But if we want to wake up,
Why we still singin' these lullabys?
I'll run in circles till I crash
One day these steps will be my last
But if we want to wake up,
Why we still singin' these lullabys?
And Eric said everything like he told his mother. Whole time Kyle stayed silent as Cartman was talking, voice monotone and bored, knowing whole story too well. When he finished about first two years he stopped, of course he skipped part about being unable to forget Kyle.

"That's not all, right?" Kyle asked, Cartman just nodded. "That's all I told my mother." Cartman said. "Now really bad part starts."

...

During first two years Jack was just a total ass hole. No surprise here, he always was and always will be. But when my weight problems stopped he already got himself goal. Namely, spending night with everyone from our department at our year. It included me. Getting everyone else to do it with him was easy for him. He did it in just year. Then he tried getting me... That was when weight jumbo finished, beginning of third year.

At first he tried just talking me into it like it was experiment, something that should be done at this age. I was always saying 'no'. He hadn't stopped. After this failed he tried seducing me. Another fail there, his attempts to get me drunk also failed sins I almost never attended any parties.

At one party he decided that time for drastic measures came. Then he tried...to rape me. For first time. People around quickly noticed what he's doing and stopped him. It was ignored since everyone but me was slightly drunk. Same with next two attempts. Always someone stopped him and blame was put on alcohol.

Fourth time was different. I was alone in house I shared with Nico and Steph. He came saying he needed help with something. I agreed knowing that Nico was coming home soon. And I doubted he'd try anything while sober. I was wrong.

He started as soon as we sat in living room. I tried telling him that Nico was coming. That there already is someone I like. He hadn't listened. Fight occurred. It didn't took long foe me to practically win. With all experience I got from old times. At one point I pushed him. He hit door frame. But before it happened he managed to push me. He just lost consciousness, I fell on coffee table with glass top.

Just then Nico came. I was quite lucky, shards didn't pierce too deep. All that happened to me were stitches on my back and week in hospital.

Jack got one twisted arm, broken leg. One or two sore ribs and concussion. He was out of collage for month.

I didn't go to police. But I have told him that if he ever tries this kind of stunt again I won't hesitate, I practically told him that next time he'd be dead in stead of being in hospital for month.

...

"After this he stopped." Cartman finished. Kyle was silent for while. Eric could not tell what other was thinking. Then Kyle just hugged Cartman tightly.

Cartman was shocked. He hadn't expected it. Rage and shouts. Yes. Sudden hugs – not really.

"I won't let anyone, anyone else do anything to you." Kyle said. "And no one. Not my family, not Stan, not anyone will ever take you away. I won't let you leave me ever again" Kyle said and finished kissing Cartman straight on.

Eric closed his eyes and didn't really wanted to open them. He was afraid it would end. Feeling Kyles tongue on his lips he hesitantly opened his mouth and started kissing back.

Just as Erics hands found Kyles body, his phone called. "Pick it up." Kyle said sitting back. He was visibly irritated by fact that he was interrupted.

Cartman grabbed thing and felt relieved. It was just Steph. Hopefully he can finish talking quickly, and Kyle might be still in mood...

"Eric! How is my favourite friend doing?!" Steph shouted cheerfully. "Hows your health?"

"Great, for both. My head just hurts a bit. Actually I was about to go to sleep." he partially lied. "You two finally there?" he asked feeling Kyles hands dragging him back and forcing him to seat down. "I have to end... No I'm just tired...Yeah... Say 'hi' to Nico from me." And he was done just as Kyle started kissing his neck.

"Who was it?" ginger asked.

"Friend." Eric said enjoying how close other man was.

"Good." Kyle purred. Cartman was starting to worry that he'll wake up and it'll be just one of his dreams.

"It's not a dream, right?" Eric asked.

"I assure you it's not." Kyle said, Catman could practically feel him smile. Then faster than he could blink Cartman was lying on his bed with Kyle hovering above him and leaning for another kiss. Not that he was complaining.

So if we want to wake up,
Why we still singin' these, why we still singin' these lullabys?

Next time, most likely some crappy lemon written personally by me like whole story. I already set warning – it's going to be crappy.

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