Chapter 3…
The song Amy is talking about is California King Bed by Rihanna :)
Disclaimer: I do not own TBBT; all belongs to its rightful owners.
"Ames, you have to get out, live life." Penny pleaded at the bulge under the bed covers, while at the same time holding a cup of hot peppermint tea.
"No, Penny, my life is not worth living, my mom was right, I'm pregnant with the baby of someone who just left for the other side of the world." Amy mumbled from under the covers, sniffing loudly.
"Amy, your mom is just in shock, I'm sure she didn't mean that, plus in just a couple of weeks you have your second doctor's appointment and maybe we'll get the chance to find out the sex of the baby." Penny said trying to sound as cheery as possible.
"The foetus is not developed enough for that until the 20th week, currently I am 4 weeks pregnant and the next appointment is in 4 weeks therefore it will not be time yet." Amy said flatly.
"Amy! Stop being so clinical just say baby." Penny snapped. Amy was just so detached from the baby and mostly because Sheldon was gone and she was going to have to tell him through long distance that she was carrying his baby.
Penny still remembered Amy calling her during her Cheesecake Factory shift, a complete wreck. She was crying so hard Penny had trouble making out what she was saying. She had rushed to Amy's and had realised what she was talking about. She never even knew that they had had sex as that very week Sheldon had told the group that he was moving. The next day was a battle to get Amy to go to her appointment because she was so depressed. They came back and she went straight to bed, she hadn't left her apartment since. That had been two days ago.
"Come on Amy, you have to do something productive, even the doctor said that this depression you're in is not good for the baby." Penny tried again hoping that would get Amy's attention. She had already gone through denial because when they were at the doctor's Amy kept muttering "This is not happening".
Suddenly, Amy shot up from under the bed covers, "I'm not telling Sheldon!" She had reached the stage of anger.
"What?" Penny asked confusion visible on her face.
"Yes, that's right," Amy spoke quickly, shoving the covers away from her angrily, "he left me, he proposed we end the relationship so he is not going to know, I want him out of my life for good!" She sat next to Penny quietly and stared off into space.
Penny didn't know what to say. "Ames, listen I know you're confused and angry but you can't do that to him, he is the father, he has the right to know." Penny knew that the chances of making Amy change her mind were slim to none.
"No Penny, my mind is made up." She looked down at her flat abdomen. "The baby will not need Sheldon, it has me."
"And Aunt Penny, the baby will also have Aunt Penny!" Penny was jumping up and down with excitement.
"Thanks Penny, for all your support." Amy said, her eyes filling up with tears. "Now that Sheldon and my mother have left me you've been the only one there for me." Penny's eyes also started filling up with tears, "But Ames, Sheldon would have been here if you would let him."
TBBT
The months went by slowly for Amy, Penny and Bernadette came to see her as much as they could but never had she felt so alone.
Some days she got so close to calling Sheldon and telling him everything, but something would always hold her back. Penny has been telling her that Leonard and the boys have been asking about her, but she doesn't want to see them because it reminds her too much of Sheldon; because she's afraid they will tell him about the baby.
She still thought about the day after their anniversary, Sheldon had been so caring and thoughtful and a true gentleman. He had been awake before her and it seemed as if he had been staring at her for a long time, he seemed to be thinking about something so hard. Amy could see a tinge of panic in his eyes but Amy felt that herself too. When she awoke she wrapped her arms around his bare chest and he put his arms around her too, they didn't speak but just felt the moment.
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she listened to the same song for the 100th time, she lied in bed looking at a picture of Sheldon hugging her, the day he bought her the tiara. Their smiles were so big and Amy wondered if those moments could still exist for her. She absentmindedly let her fingers roam over Sheldon's face on the picture.
My California King...
Her fingers trembled as they traced the contours of his pale face, hot tears running down her cheek and onto her pillow, darkening the fabric.
Slowly her hands moved down to her 5 month bump, still staring at Sheldon's face.
She wished so hard that he was still there with her. But she knew that he was on his way to achieve his life dream and she couldn't stand on the way of that.
She was at her lowest just last month, at the appointment when she and Penny were going to find out the sex of the baby, she felt more happy than usual that day because she had managed to keep thoughts about Sheldon at bay, until the doctor said...
"Congratulations, Dr Fowler, you're having twins, a little boy and a little girl!"
She broke down right there and then. Her life was going to be a constant reminder of what she had and lost. Penny tried her hardest to comfort her but nothing was going to help her.
She hated Sheldon so much for leaving her but then she hated herself for being so selfish, knowing that if it was her who was close to winning a Nobel Prize, then Sheldon would have been very supportive of her decisions.
She was 7 months pregnant and feeling a bit more positive about life, when Penny came to her and told her that Leonard had proposed and she wanted her to be one of the bridesmaids, she agreed but only after making sure that Sheldon wasn't going to be there. Penny had said that they had sent him an invitation but he had graciously declined saying that he had a lot of work to complete.
She had to dance with one of Penny's cousins, she had fun that night but she couldn't help but wish that it was Sheldon's arms around her when they waltzed. All the boys had seen Amy pregnant and had been gobsmacked when they found out the truth but they had all promised not to tell Sheldon, for Amy's sake.
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It was July 16th, 4:36pm when Tyler Robert Fowler-Cooper was born and five minutes later Marie Annabelle Fowler was born, after a very, very complicated labour, she decided to get over Sheldon because her babies were her priority now. The first three months of the twins' lives were the most frightening of her whole life.
Penny had stayed over at her house for the first week after the babies returned from the hospital seeing as Amy had not spoken to her mum since she had told her she was pregnant.
The first few nights were the worst, not only did her whole body ache from the labour but the constant crying meant that she was getting at most 2 hours of sleep every night. She had taken a sabbatical from her job but the babies made her work so much harder than her whole career had ever had.
The first day back from the hospital, the whole gang had come to see her and cooed over how adorable the babies were, but none of them ever mentioned Sheldon and for that Amy was grateful.
The nurses had taught her how to feed both babies at once and with Penny's help she was getting better and better at it.
Now it was the first night alone with the twins because Penny had left her apartment but had promised to come as quickly as she could if she needed anything.
"Come on, Tyler it's time for your bath," Amy spoke softly at her 3 month old son. He reminded her so much of Sheldon, he had his brown hair and was skinnier than his sister, but Marie had her father's stunning blue eyes.
Amy carefully laid Marie in her bassinet after she had finished dressing her. She started to undress Tyler for his bath.
Just as she was laying Tyler down next to his sister her phone rang, she ran to it to avoid it from waking up the twins.
"Amy, Sheldon just called Leonard." Penny's high voice filled her ears and Amy's stomach started to twist into knots.
"And..." Amy prompted.
"He wanted to know how you were." Penny said slowly.
"And what did Leonard say?" Amy's heart started to beat faster and she could feel her ears getting hotter.
"He told him that he hasn't seen you enough to be able to answer that, so you see he tried to keep it vague but Leonard is not so good at that." Penny replied.
"Good." Amy let out a shaky breath she didn't realise she had been holding.
"But... Sheldon thought that was odd so he said he was going to call you to make sure you haven't been eaten by a bobcat," Penny said quickly.
"What? No! He didn't call me for the last 9 months so what gives him the right to call me now?" Amy was getting angrier by the minute.
"Amy, you know he didn't call any of us, he was too busy, that you can't hold against him plus he did send you a card for your birthday." Penny said trying to calm Amy down.
"You know what Penny I'll call you tomorrow, thanks for everything but I just need some time to think." Amy said sighing quietly at the end.
"Alright Ames, take as long as you want, just call me if you need anything, 'kay?" Penny said. She was genuinely concerned about her bestie.
"I will. Bye." Amy said.
"Okay bye, give my babies a kiss from their aunt Penny!" Penny said quickly.
Amy couldn't help but smile at that.
"Okay, bye Penny." She hung up the phone, put on her pyjamas and got into bed, willing sleep to take her away whilst she stared at her bedside clock, 8:24pm... 8:43pm...