I will tell you my thoughts on the movie a the bottom of this...okay? I really want to thank you for all the reivews! I definitely think it was the most ever and it strokes my enormous ego and encourages me to put out more and more of this stuff!!! Special thanks to Bethaboo for betaing this on her afternoon off and JDSK & DT for now knowing the "real" me as they sat next to me twice at the movie and will still talk to me. I'm sorry about the fail last time....uhhhhh...I promise it won't happen again...yeah...

Cake-Ruby See's All & She'll Come Back to Me

"Edward, hand me that cable." I heard Emmett's voice buzzing around in the back of my head. We were in Emmett's garage, working on his car and making last minute preparations for the race on Saturday.

"Edward! Dude!" Emmett shouted this time and I snapped my head in his direction. I reached for the cable and threw it over to him, not bothering to get up. I was sitting on the work table and I quickly settled back into my thoughts.

It had been two weeks since Bella walked out of school.

Two weeks of nothing. She wouldn't talk to me or answer my calls. She avoided me at school and at her house. She wanted nothing to do with me.

I wanted everything to do with her.

That afternoon I waited at her house afterschool, in her driveway, but she didn't return until much later when Alice dropped her off. Again, Bella let Alice run interference when I tried to talk to her. Then when I called her dad wouldn't give her the phone. I spent the next two weeks giving her the space her silence requested. I knew I had done something but the list was long as to what it could have been so I was clueless how to fix it.

So I sat here, in Emmett's garage, a zombie over some chick. This is exactly why I didn't date. I let her in and now I couldn't shake her. She had infiltrated my soul.

Jasper walked over to the table and was messing with some materials. I glanced his way, looking to see what he was doing. Not that I really cared anymore.

"Look man, you've got to snap out of this" he said finally, picking up some tape and tossing it between two hands.

I shrugged, not responding. I was not talking about this to Jasper or Emmett.

"The race is on Saturday, we need you to be ready. I know Emmett is driving but you're our number two. You have to be prepared." He continued, looking at me directly now, as I ran my hand over my jaw, rubbing the beard that had grown out over the last couple of days.

"I'm fine Jasper," and I jumped off the table and walked over to the hood of the car to prove it.

We worked in silence for a while, the way guys do, listening to the radio, occasionally asking for a part or making a suggestion. Emmett was strangely quiet as well and for once not on my back. He hadn't spoken to us about Rose in weeks either so he probably thought if he left me alone I would do the same for him.

We finally hit a groove when Jasper became fidgety and I heard him take a deep breath. Emmett and I looked over at him to see what was going on.

Jasper sat down on the old couch Emmett had in the garage, which was there so girls could come and watch us while we worked. All of us had brought a girl or two here before, although not recently.

He leaned back and finally said, "Alice told me what was going on with Bella."

I turned away from him and ducked back under the hood. This is what I'd been waiting to hear for weeks but, now, I wasn't sure I could handle the truth.

"Oh yeah?" I answered him, trying to keep my voice calm and disinterested.

Jasper paused for a minute, "And I'm not supposed to tell you but, fuck, bros before ho's, right?" he laughed like he was trying to convince himself.

I pulled out of the car and ran my dirty hands though my dirtier hair, "What are you trying to say Jasper?" I asked, irritated.

"Apparently Bella overheard that chick Jules in the library," he started and I could feel the blood drain out of my face.

I saw Jasper's eyes flick towards Emmett who was now listening intently, not even pretending to work on the car any longer. They were waiting for me to respond.

Good luck with that.

Jasper seemed to realize I was not going to comment so he continued, "And Jules was telling some girl about a picnic you two went on…" those were the last words I heard him say as I slammed down my tools and walked out of the garage.

I put my face in my hands and groaned loudly, stifling the actual scream that was building up inside me.

It was worse than I thought. There was no way I could fix this or make it better. If Bella knew I took Jules up to the meadow I was totally screwed.

I walked over to a pile of rocks on the edge of the garden and picked up a handful, throwing them one a time at the shed behind their house. Each one hit harder than the last but my rage was only building.

I never specifically told Bella she was the only one who I had taken up there. And she wasn't, but she was the only girl I had taken there and told her that I loved her.

I was nice to the girls I used and abused. They came back for more and my reputation flourished with this behavior. They knew I wasn't going to commit but I never treated any of them badly.

But comparatively, I treated Bella like a goddess. She was my goddess and I couldn't get enough.

I sighed, trying to figure out how to fix the stupid mess I had gotten myself into.

I heard a car pull up behind me and I glanced over my shoulder. I grimaced when I saw it was Rosalie and Alice.

Great. Just what I needed.

Alice was the first out of the car, smiling at me weakly as she went straight to the garage obviously looking for Jasper.

Rosalie was busy looking at herself in the rearview mirror so I turned my back to her and again started throwing rocks at the small building.

I heard the gravel crunch behind me and her voice say, "You look like shit Cullen."

I picked up the largest rock and hurled it at the shed, missing by several feet.

I took a deep breath and threw another rock before quietly asking, "How is she?"

Her feet shifted behind me and I could hear her walking away. I twisted around and asked again, "Rose, really, Bella?"

She stopped at the door, hand on the window, never looking a back at me, I guess struggling with her own battle of Ho's before Bros, or something and said, "You broke her heart, how do you think she is?"

As she pulled the door open and slammed it behind her, I threw the rest of the rocks listened as they showered across the lawn.

I walked back inside and ignored the others as they shot me questioning looks. I grabbed my keys and left.

EmPOV

The garage was silent after Edward slammed the door behind him and walked outside. I don't think I have ever seen him so angry or upset. I looked over at Jasper who was still lounging on the couch and wondered what the hell he was thinking bringing all that shit up.

"Dude, what the fuck?" I asked him, as quietly as I could manage.

Jasper shrugged and stretched back and answered, "Look, someone had to tell him and I guess it had to be me."

We both looked towards the window as we heard loud bangs against the shed outside. We both rolled our eyes as we realized it was Edward throwing stuff again. Typical pissed Edward. I hope he didn't break a window, my mother would be pissed and I'd have to clean up that mess.

The last two weeks had been a complete nightmare. Make that the last two months. Rose still wouldn't talk to me and I had no idea if the rumors were true or not. I wanted to be with her through all of this but she didn't know how to let me in. She was closed off and insisting on doing this alone.

But she wasn't alone, and this wasn't only about her.

I head a car pull up and seconds later Alice came bounding in the garage, immediately wrapping her arms around Jasper on the couch.

I shook my head towards them and wondered how these two knuckle heads were so happy. I suspected it was because Alice was a secret pervert. She had to be to put up with Jasper and his shit.

I looked up when the door pushed open, expecting Edward, but instead locking eyes with Rose, looking gorgeous as usual.

I opened my mouth to speak but I was interrupted by Edward storming into the room and grabbing his keys of the table and marching back out without a word. We all looked at each other, searching for an answer to his sudden departure.

Alice finally spoke, "Where's he going?" which caused Rose to snort.

"I think I can guess" she said, tossing her long blonde hair over her shoulder, which caused my breath to hitch. I was completely captivated by this woman and it was taking everything I had to stay in my place.

She finally looked at me for the first time since the drive-in and I noticed her face was not as harsh, or stressed. I started to open my mouth to speak but she broke in first saying, "You. Outside."

I obeyed, as she knew I would and walked out the door, feeling my stomach drop. She was going to tell me. She was going to tell me I knocked her up. That I'm going to be a dad. That my life as I know it is over and that she hates me. It was coming and I couldn't stop it.

Rose stopped before me and began twisting her hair, making me wait longer for the words to come out.

"Damn it Rose. You're fucking killing me. Say it." I begged.

Finally her mouth spread into a slight grin, "I'm not pregnant," she whispered as though she was afraid to say it out loud.

I stopped. My body was poised to bolt, jump in the car and take off. Instead I froze.

"What?" I asked.

"I'm. Not. Pregnant," she said slowly, and I swear to God she licked her lips after the last word.

I felt relief spread across my face and I reached out and grabbed her, pulling her into my body and clutching her. I thought she would resist but she sank into my arms letting me hold her.

For quite a while we stood outside the garage and she let me hold her. She eventually pulled away and told me that the first test came up positive, two weeks ago and that today, she went to the doctor and told her it was false, she was not pregnant nor had she ever been.

"Rosalie, why couldn't you come to me? I would have been there with you all the way." I spoke to her softly, still clinging to her hand since she hadn't let go. I was beyond excited, I was about to burst out of my skin and all I wanted to do was kiss her.

She hid her eyes from me as she answered, "I don't know. I had to work this out on my own. But thank you for trying. It's not your fault, you know?"

I rolled my eyes at her and asked the question I had to know, "So what about us? Are you ready to try again? I bought new condoms. Assured not to break!" I laughed, and she took a swipe at me but I could see the smile on her face.

"You wish Emmett McCarty!" she huffed at me, but her body language told me she wasn't angry.

I took a chance and wrapped my arms around her body, lifting her up to my face and gave her a quick, hard kiss, that thankfully she returned.

"I do, Rosalie Hale. I do," and kissed her again.

Xxx

EPOV

I drove past her house once to see if she was home and alone. Her dad's car was not in the driveway so I quickly parked and ran around the side of her house. I knew if I went to the door she wouldn't open it so I climbed up the slick tree and made my way to her window.

I could see her form moving around inside, cleaning her room or something. I wanted to climb through the windows and grab her, inhale her hair and warm my body with hers.

I shifted and almost lost my balance, causing the branches to scrape against the house as I reached for the limbs above me.

"Shit," I mumbled under my breath. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to talk to her. I just wanted to see her, without her bodyguards or her dad in between us.

I saw her push the curtain back and peer outside. I felt my mouth instinctively turn into a small grin but I dropped it quickly when I saw her expression.

She was pissed and her eyes were sad.

Damn. I can't take her sad eyes, staring out at me from behind the glass, hating me. Why was I up here, risking my life to see her when she clearly wanted nothing to do with me?

Love.

I grimaced at the thought and then realized she could see me and I pulled my face into the best crooked smile I could muster, but I knew it wouldn't be enough.

She flung open the window and wrapped her arms around her body as the cold air hit her.

"What do you want Edward," she asked, emotionless.

Okay, she was pissed but she was talking to me. This could be progress.

I wanted to glide down the branch, get closer to her but I knew if I did she would retreat back inside. So I slid back on my feet a little and actually leaned away from her.

I had no idea what to say to make this whole thing better so I said the first thing I could come up with. "I'm wanted to tell you I'm sorry."

She rolled her eyes at me and sighed. Crap. That was the understatement of the century. Bella was smarter than that. She was smarter than me and a little 'I'm sorry' wasn't going to fix the shit I had caused.

"Yeah, that was lame, I know," I told her and at that moment I decided to go with honesty. Smoothing things over was no longer an option and if I had been more honest in the beginning maybe we wouldn't be here.

She actually laughed a little at my self deprecation. God, her laughter, even tinged with hatred, was the best sound my ears had heard in weeks.

While I was figuring out what to say next when she said, "Edward, its cold and I have things to do. So if you have something to say please spit it out." I could hear the pain rising in her voice.

She hated me.

I took a deep breath and began, my stupid voice wavering, "Look Bella, I fucked up. I know I did. I know saying I'm sorry doesn't fix it." I took a couple of steps forward while she was looking down, refusing to meet my eyes.

"I told you I couldn't do this. That I would fuck it all up and make a mess for the both of us." I moved closer still, because I needed to be near her, feel her next to me. She still wouldn't look at me but she wasn't leaving either. "I hate my past but it nothing I can do about it. I'm not defending myself but I didn't screw that chick up in the field. But I would have, and it wouldn't have been the first time. I have taken others there too, but God, Bella, if I had to make a map of everyplace I had been with someone else we'd have to move before we could be together." My voice shaking, telling her crap she never wanted to hear, but obviously needed to before we could move on.

Or, not, it was up to her now.

I sighed deeply, and shimmed the rest of the way to her window, leaning over to her. My hands were grimy from the cars and the tree but I had to touch her now that I had her so close. I reached out to her and pulled her face towards me, feeling her recoil but not enough to shake me off, I knew she wanted to feel me too.

"I could have any of them again if I chose. But you are the only one I want." I said quietly. I spoke to her eyes, although she was looking though me, not at me. I ran my finger down her neck and turned, beginning my decent down the tree.

I didn't want to hear what she had to say. I could tell enough by her expression. Her eyes were hurt and her face was twisted in disgust.

I dropped to the soft ground and made my way to the car. I went with honesty and unfortunately, the truth was ugly and obscene. But, I had made a decision, I was no longer going to be hiding who I really was nor would I spend my time chasing Bella Swan. I was willing to take her, all of her, and love her for everything she was. But only if she could accept me for who I am now, which included who I used to be.

Okay babies...I had to do that. HAD TO. IT's IN THE MOVE. I PROMISE. Sorry....NOW. About the movie. I had to see it 3 times. THREE times. And well, the first time was not perfect but Rob is glorious and I didn't care, but by the third time I realized I was so fracking dazzled by Rob I wasn't acutally paying attention and I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT. I mean I love it. I do. If you need me to tell you why or encourage you to love it pm me and I will tell you. Oh yeah, no fan girls. Not really. You guys must have gotten my message out and they stayed the hell away from me. They may have seen my knife. And now that the movie is, sigh, over I'm depressed. So send me a review and make me feel better.