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HxH is not mine…
I'll be you antidote, you be my cure for this cold and lonely night
Put our problems behind us and just for this moment pretend everything is alright
Let me use you... And I'll let you use me
Let me use you... To forget these memories
"Use Me" by Digital Summer
Chapter 3
After that certain event; the event that cannot be considered as water under the bridge, the blonde didn't went out of his house except for the day that he told his boss that he will take a leave.
He didn't even bother to check his phone to look if someone calls or what. He just locking himself away from the world and everything that surrounds him is a complete mess. The place which had a nice ambiance before turned to a dark one.
Kurapika just came out from the bathroom after taking a bath that reached three hours and at the moment that he stepped his feet put of the shower room; a loud knock interrupted the dead air inside his apartment.
That made him annoyed because he was just about to get into his peace when some random person disturbed it. He immediately went for the door and opened it. "What do you-"
His words were cut when he realized that the person in front of him is…
"What are you doing here Kuroro?"
He was surprised to see no expression from the other's face; it is the second time the other went here but it seems like Kurapika knew him. "Hey?" he asked bitterly when the other answered.
"I'm worried…you're not answering my calls or my texts… What do you expect for me to do? It's almost two weeks." With that statement; Kurapika's heartbeats became rapid and he felt an alien feeling over his entire body.
But, He is the reason of our break up… I should hate him but… why is this feeling coming to me again? "You don't know me Kuroro… I also don't know you so, I am not obliged to answer you…" he said as he was about to step inside but then, the other caught his hand then pulled him towards him.
Why is he hugging me?! A part of Kurapika wanted to kick the other for doing this but another part of him is saying no… just be in his arms that confuses him a lot. So, the part insisting to stay beside the other overpowered him and he slowly snaked his hands to the body of Kuroro and tears ran on his face.
The other felt the tears of Kurapika that is also touching him so; he pulled the other inside, closed the door and settled on the couch.
Kurapika immediately pulled out when he realized the action that he did then apologized at Kuroro but the other just smiled then patted his head. "Hey… what's the problem?"
"Huh? Nothing…"
"Can you please trust me?"
"I can't Kuroro…"
The other felt disappointed at the other's answer. I can't Kuroro… that is too much but… he didn't stop and tried to comfort him again. "Alright… Anou… I know you don't want me here… I'll go after we clean up your place. It looks like a typhoon came here…" he teased.
That made the blonde let out a sarcastic chuckle then apologized again. "Alright thanks Kuroro."
For the first time, he gave the other a smile then started cleaning. The other was completely stunned with his action but then, recovered from his sweet thoughts and helped the blonde.
Kuroro noticed something when he lifted the books on the table in the living room. "Hey! What's this?" he asked as he lifts up a picture showing Kurapika and some guy beside him.
The blonde has no idea about it because the time when it was left there he didn't clean his house like how he cleaned it before. So, he didn't still see it.
He slowly took it from Kuroro and when he realized it is him and Leorio, his eyes widened and he suddenly hid it behind him and sent Kuroro a grin. "Anou… haha… that…"
"Who is him?"
The black haired guy asked again with the inquisitiveness in his tone. Kurapika don't know what to say because he doesn't want others to know about his past relationship. It's not that he is ashamed of it... he just don't want to remember what happened before.
But because everything came back… he dropped the picture on the floor and cried. "He… he… is my…"
"Oh… I see… He is the guy you are with when I first saw you… The guy who declined my call before… Ummn, I get it. Where is he?"
"We broke up…"
"Because of?"
With that question, Kurapika punched his own arm then spoke up with his voice fading. "Jealousy…" he said as he closes his eyes just to stop the incessant tears coming out from his eyes. Kuroro went to him and pulled the other towards him again.
"You don't deserve him…" Kuroro said with a tinge of anger in his tone. He took the picture then tore it and with Kurapika's astonishment about his action, his eyes widened then he slapped the other on the face.
"Why the heck did you tore that!?" he asked angrily. Kuroro faced him with a frown as he massages his face. It hurts… he thought bitterly.
"It hurts you know…" he said as if he was still teasing the blonde. But still, Kurapika gave him a glare then repeated his question like he always does when he's angry.
Kuroro is not the person who will be easily carried out with situations like this so; he still turned his frown into a smirk then looked directly at the other's eyes. "I said… you don't deserve him. He doesn't know that the person he let go is precious…"
Kurapika walked in front of him and saw Kuroro's expression is serious again. But the thing he said pierced in his confused mind and that made him stop in crying. He wanted to end this lonely stuff and try to move on so; he wiped his eyes then chuckled.
"Sorry…"
He said at Kuroro with a smile on his face that made the other look at him. Kuroro raised his eyebrows then brushed his own hair out of his face. "Sorry for what?" he asked curiously. "Sorry… the slap should be a punch…" Kurapika said as he chuckles again.
Kuroro shook his head then patted the blonde's head. "Nah… the slap is enough…" he said as he chuckles too.
Suddenly, the blonde embraced him then mumbled something. "Thanks for being here…" That statement made him flush red but then returned the hug to the other.
One month had passed and the two became good friends. The other made a lot of help to the blonde to move on with his life. Time heals all wounds but, if there's someone who can help you with it… It will heal faster.
Kurapika was caught into another rain again… He remembered something with this situation.
When he was still in college; Leorio used to fetch him in school. He remembered the time when he fetched him late one day and he was caught under a rain like this. Suddenly he felt like missing those times again.
If he' still here, he would have fetched me now… We should be inside the apartment again…
"Hey Kurapika…"
He will go home with me…
"Kurapika… I'll just take you home…"
He will… He will take care of me and say that I will catch cold if I stayed like this…
"Hey… Let's go now… you'll catch a cold if you'll stay under the rain…"
I miss him…
"Kurapika?!"
"Huh?" finally, he snapped out of his thoughts and realized that there is really someone who talks to him. He felt the rain stopped. No it didn't stop; it is just covered by an umbrella. He turned to look at who it was and found out that it is Kuroro.
He was astounded. His words are like Leorio… his heart started to beat fast as their eyes meets up. Kurapika nodded then smiled at the other sincerely which was returned back at him.
They arrived and both of them are as wet as a fish. They slowly entered the flat and both of them were shocked when the telephone on the kitchen counter rang. Kurapika thought it was a very important call so; he ran towards it and answered.
"Moshi moshi…"
He greeted joyfully but all of a sudden, the smile on his face faded like a blink of an eye then he felt his body trembling. "Hello…" that is the only answer of the person on the other line but that seems to throw a thousand of stones on Kurapika's body.
He wanted to speak but his voice seems to fade so… "I know… you won't talk back right?" the other seems to know what he is thinking and started. "Ummn… Before anything else… I just want to apologize for everything…"
The other's heart seems to explode. He is apologizing? He wanted to cry but no tears came. Kurapika didn't expect that this will happen again. He didn't expect that one day; he'll hear the other's voice again. But… he doesn't know what he'll say so; he just shut his mouth up and closed his eyes.
"Kurapika… I miss you so much but I know; I have no right to do that ne? *sigh* anou… I just called just to say and inform you that I'll go to New York tomorrow morning. I just want to say good bye so… Good bye Kura…"
That's the last words he said and hanged up the phone. Kurapika's senses finally returned and placed the phone back to its place. He walked back to Kuroro who is now drying himself with a towel and sat next to him.
The other noticed him and placed the towel over his shoulders. "You should change now… I don't want you to be ill." He said anxiously that made the blonde smile. "By the way… who is that?" he asked again which was just answered by a simple yet bitter remark.
"Someone who is a part of my pasts… Just forget that…"
He said and sent the other a smile before going inside his bedroom to change. Kuroro decided to watch television when a shirt flew on his face.
"What the-"
"Change… I also don't want you to get ill…" he said then went in his bedroom.
Kuroro smiled then looked at the shirt. He was surprised with the statement that was said by Kurapika. He doesn't want me to get ill huh? Looks like he has really moved on… Good… I'll grab the opportunity now.
When Kurapika went out, he was surprised to see Kuroro infront of him; giving him an adoring looks. He felt his cheeks became red so, he covered it with his hand but the other pried it off and instead; placed his hand on the blonde's cheeks.
"he-hey!"
The other complained as he pulls Kuroro's hand far from his face. The other's eyes look so empty and this is the first time that he saw him like this and it bothered him.
He was about to speak again when the other caught his lips into a passionate kiss. Kurapika was shocked; so shocked… He didn't ever kissed someone except for his ex-boyfriend so, he almost fainted with Kuroro's action.
"Kura…" he mumbled that made Kurapika push him away. He gave him a shocked stare then covered his lips in a scared way. He was scared out of his wits when the other did that especially when he mumbled that name.
That is the name Leorio used to call him before so, he was shocked to hear it from the other's mouth. Kuroro doesn't have an idea at what Kurapika is thinking now so, he knelt down and looked at the other's eyes.
"Kurapika… I've always loved you… I really do…" he said as he closes his eyes and he looks like he is pleading. Kurapika was taken aback with his words then suddenly spoke up. "I know that Kuroro… But…"
His fear faded away and the shock in him was also gone with the wind. He realized that Kuroro didn't mean to call him that way. He knows that the other is still oblivious to his pasts. "But what?" the other said indignantly as he stands up.
"I almost did everything… so why can't I make you fall for me?!" he said as he lowers his head and he was about to walk away when…
Kurapika's POV
I was struck with his sudden actions and almost forget the telephone thingy that happened earlier. I… I think… The thing I am afraid to do is already happening… I just don't know.
I am scared… I don't want to love again but… why does that kiss proved me something? Why did I feel like I still want to feel his soft lips? Do I love Kuroro? NO! I can't!
I thought he is the one that this heart will always beat but what is this? I am betraying my own words before… But I can't do anything to stop this…
Kuroro is the one who helped me a lot and taught me to move on. And with that help that he did… the time he wasted for me… for a miserable person like me… I think I started to love him.
Sorry Leorio… I think this is really the end.
Kuroro was about to walk away and pulled him, towards me and caught his lips for the second time. He was shocked but then wrapped his arms over me then kissed back passionately… I love him…
His arms were wrapped around me but still, I can feel the coldness. Everything around us is a mess but my heart seems to explode with joy.
He pulled me closer to him and kissed my forehead. I found the smile on his face and that looks suiting for my eyes. I want to feel more of him… "I love you…" he mumbled but I just smiled then closed my eyes.
Sweat filled my whole body of course as well as him and I feel really exhausted… He slowly caressed my face and I felt his warm palm over my face… I loved it…
Because of exhaustion, I fell into a slumber; not even had the chance to utter a simple good night.
Alright, anou… sorry if sometimes they became too OOC but still, if you loved the story, please review and if not… Hahaha…
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