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HxH is not mine…

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your promises

And now your back you don't get to get me back

"Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri

Chapter 4

The sun reached my face and it slowly wakes me up. As I open both of my eyes; the light welcomed me with the sudden blow of the wind that made me feel cold.

Why am I sleeping on the floor? What happened to me? I feel really tired. I slowly at then observed the whole place. My eyes spotted something. "Ahh!" I shrieked as I pull the blanket over me making him awake and cover his own self.

"Wha-what ha-hapenned?!"

"You don't remember?!"

Something flashed in my mind and that made my eyes widen more. I feel so shock and I cannot move even a little bit of my body except for my lips that has been trembling. "Oh no… Don't say… Please! Don't say it Kuroro!" I said as tears fall from my eyes.

I don't know why the heck I did that to myself! I'm not drunk and I know I didn't take any drugs but why did I did that? With him?! I saw him slowly nodded his head and he crawl towards me so, I moved until my back reached the wall.

I cannot move so, "It's all wrong! It's a mistake!" I said as I stand and ran outside only clad with the blanket that is wrapped over my waist. He followed me. What the?! I'm naked and he's not! That bastard!

I noticed that then moved far away again when he was in front of me and giving me that questioning look. "Kurapika? What's happening on you?!" he asked and stopped.

I shook my head and yelled. "No! I don't want this Kuroro!"

"Why? Because of him again?!"

Yes… Leorio… Leorio! Today is his flight! I need to follow him! I ignored Kuroro then ran inside my room and immediately wore my clothes. I didn't mind the fact that he gives me that look and ran outside.

I left Kuroro again and headed at the apartment of my ex. I knocked there indignantly but was answered by the gush of the wind and nothing more. "He is… gone?"

I found something on the floor when I fell on my knees. A paper? I took it and read it. I almost fainted with the thing that was written in it by his handwriting.

It breaks my heart then I felt that tears over filled my eyes again… A letter for me in case I went here? Telling that he still loves me… He is sorry for what he did.

I embraced it and clenched my fist. "You didn't even wait for me!" I said in anguish but somebody's voice filled my ears.

"Hey… I'm correct… you left me again for him…"

I looked at who it was and found Kuroro looking at me with his eyes full of solitude. I don't what to see him like that but… I just can't accept that I loved him now! I don't want to accept it! But for another time; he is here again for me…

"Kuroro… he is gone…"

I said as I ran towards him and buried myself in his chest. I don't want to be hurt! I want this to end but how can I do it. I thought I have really moved on but I think my real feeling just hid in the other part of me and was just shrouded with confusion.

I was surprised with what Kuroro told me as a reply; I pulled out and found a smile on his face. "Yeah… you love him… Sorry Kurapika… I'm sorry if I did that to you… I'm really sorry. I think I will just let you love him. Don't worry; I won't leave you… I will still help you…"

I feel the bitterness in his tone and that made me pull out and stare at him. "Kuroro?" I said as tears stopped from flowing out from my eyes. He wiped my face with his thumb then smiled at me again. "Don't worry… I won't leave you huh! I will not do what he did to you…"

"Thank you so much…"

"Let's go home?"

He asked as he entwined his hand over my hand. I first placed the paper into my pocket then took a last glance at the place. I will not come back here again… "Let's go…" I retorted then we both went back into my apartment.

Kuroro is at the kitchen; trying to cook something although he doesn't know how to do it. He took a peek at Kurapika who is sitting at the couch; looking very miserable. His hair is messy and his clothes look tattered.

Kuroro just took something from the fridge then read the instruction on how to cook it. "Leave in a microwave oven for five minutes… Got it!" then he followed it then went straight at the blonde.

"Yo…"

The blonde seems to wake from his thoughts then looked upon Kuroro whose eyes are fixed into him. "Yes?" he asked but the guy just patted his head then embraced him. "Hey… please don't be like that… you make me sad too…" he said with his voice fading.

Kurapika chuckled then lowered his eyes. He's so sweet as usual… He makes my heart beats like this again and slowly erases my loneliness… Do I really fell now? For him? He asked himself; feeling confused because he just can't understand why he feels like this for Kuroro…

He just cried for his first love but now, this person slowly replaces that sadness by being sweet. I don't want him to give up on me… I want him here… by my side again… forever and make me happy once more. For now… I will make him happy too.

"Kuroro… you're so sweet… That's what I love about you…"

Kuroro's eyes widen with what the other told him. He cannot believe that Kurapika would say such words towards him. He slowly went infront of the blonde but still; his hands were wrapped on the blonde. He gives him this curious look as if he is a child but the blonde keeps on smiling at him sweetly.

"Yeah… I realize it just now… I love you Kuroro…" with that answer; Kuroro pulled out then he wanted to jump in happiness with Kurapika's statement.

He saw that the other's expression changed into a happy one but still; he still cannot believe this. "Am I dreaming?" he asked but the; the blonde stood up then cupped Kuroro's chin.

"No you're not dreaming…"

After that; he felt the other's lips on his lips. I kissed Kuroro? This explains it all… I love him…

But, their intimacy was cut when the black haired guy smelled something. He suddenly pulled out then; "K'so! The oven!" he ran towards the kitchen and opened the oven. There, he saw the food he placed inside burned to ashes so he's eyes widen then he suddenly pulled it out without placing gloves on his hands so…

"Itte!"

He yelled as the food dropped on the floor with its container. Kurapika ran towards him then when he saw that, he heaved a depressed sigh then hit the other's head. "Baka… you left that here…" Kuroro lowered his head then apologized.

"Nah! Kuroro… let's just get out…"

"A date?"

"It's up to you…"

The blonde was suddenly pulled by the guy towards the door then spoke to stop the blonde's complaints. "Yeah… I'll take you on a date…"

Kurapika's Pov

I slowly opened my eyes and the early morning's light welcomed me with its warmness. But, aside from that, I felt that there are arms that are wrapped around my waist and a warm body pressed on me.

After my eyes get used into the brightness of the surroundings, his tranquil image came into the sight of my eyes and that made me smile. I neared my face to him until it is only a few inches apart from each other then stare at him more.

It's almost one year since Leorio left and after we broke up yet, I quickly realized that it's not the end of the world. I learned to love this person and I gave everything to him and devoted myself but still, there are times that I just can't understand how this happened.

Yes, I love Kuroro but I just can't express it so much. The word I love you is hard for me to say to him. Honestly, the first and the last time he heard it from my mouth is when I first confessed my feelings to him. I think I am still not used to it… Maybe…

Yeah, maybe that hurts on his side but I know that Kuroro still loves me. "Oh Kurapika… good morning…" he greeted to me when he woke up.

I moved further from him then acted as if I didn't do anything. "Yeah… good morning too…" I said as I take his hands off me and fixed my clothes on my body. After that, I left him and went to the kitchen.

When I was there, I opened the fridge and found some ingredients for noodles so; I took it out and fixed it.

Suddenly, footsteps broke the silence then I just felt that Kuroro embraced me. I rolled my eyes then… "Kuroro… not now…" I said as I move further from him which make his eyebrows furrow then he just patted my head then headed for the living room.

I made him see my cold side again in as early in the morning as this. My guilt overpowered me so, I hurriedly cooked the noodles and after that, I headed straight at him at the living room.

He is standing by the window; his eyes currently fixed outside and he looks like he thinks about something so heavy. Should I bother him? I ignored that thought then walked towards him but, as I step my feet; my world seems to revolve quickly. I feel dizzy but I fought with it then went to Kuroro.

"Hey… what are you thinking?"

"Me? I don't have problem…"

"So, why are you acting like that?"

I asked with my voice rising up a little. Kuroro turned to me with his face masked with annoyance then placed his hand at my shoulder. I rolled my eyes and tried to pry his hands off me but then, he pulled me near to him.

"Isn't it obvious… you are so cold to me Kurapika…" he said with his voice fading. I got irritated at what he had said then pushed him away from me.

I got shock with my own actions so; I covered my mouth and bowed my head. "Sorry!" I said but I got flabbergasted with what he told me. "I love you but if you keep on doing this… maybe that love would fade." He said then walked away.

I fell on my knees with my eyes wide then clenched my fist. I don't want what's happening now to us but, what will I do?

I stood up then walked uneasily because my feeling is very heavy and I feel that I will fall anytime now. Pain overpowered my body and I suddenly fell on the floor with the loud thud that shocked Kuroro. He went to me then tried to wake me up.

I heard his voice that is so caring to me and I felt that I am very miserable. After I did that to him, he still does this to me? My eyes closed then everything went black.

Normal Pov

The blonde slowly opened his eyes then saw someone that he shouldn't see. Leorio? Why is he… The blonde looked at his other side then saw Kuroro there.

"Yes sir, he just fainted because of a high fever…"

"Ow I see, thank you…"

Kurapika found his strength to sit up then he stared at Leorio as if wanting to ask how did he got here but then. The doctor noticed Kurapika then smiled at him. "Good morning… I'm glad to see that you're awake." He said cheerfully that made Kurapika lower his head.

It can't be true? What is happening? Kuroro patted Kurapika's head that made the blonde look at him. The blonde's angelic appearance seems to look worried now but the other ignored it and just embraced him.

"Kurapika… I'm sorry…"

"Huh?" the blonde pulled out then looked at him. "It's okay…" then they pulled out. Leorio cleared his throat then sent them another smile. That smile bothered Kurapika so much so… he stared at Leorio then gave him a 'what's happening' look…

The doctor ignored him then turned his eye a Kuroro. "Sir, if you wouldn't mind, can I ask what is your relationship?"

Kuroro chuckled a bit that made Kurapika's heart beat fast and shivers ran into his spine. The blonde tried to stop him from saying anything by shaking his head but Kuroro smiled more then. "Sure, I wouldn't mind doctor. I'm his boyfriend…"

Leorio's expression became shocked and he chuckled a little bit. "I see. Nice!" he said then send Kurapika a smile that made him feel guilty and then another question came from him.

"So, my patient is lucky to have someone like you behind him. Can I know your name?"

Kuroro stood up then went infront of Leorio. Will they kill each other? Kurapika thought anxiously then "Kuroro… stop…" he said as he pulls Kuroro's shirt.

Leorio's eyes widen then he took aback but still, the smile on his face remained. I should act professional… he thought then "So it's Kuroro?"

"Yeah… nice meeting you doctor…"

"Nice meeting the both of you too."

He said before walking away. Closing the door tightly and heading for the doctor's office.

Kuroro face the blonde and found out that he looks frightened to death. Kurapika's stare became a glare and that pierced into Kuroro's heart. "Hey?" he asked anxiously as he sits beside Kurapika.

The blonde pulled his blanket towards his body more, then huddled. "Do you know him?" he asked and of course, Kuroro answered and rolled his eyes too.

"Yeah… he is Mr. Paladiknight… why?"

"Kuroro! Can't you recognize him?"

The other blinked in confusion then asked Kurapika why is he like that but then Kurapika almost fainted because of that. "Kuroro? He is… my… my.. anou… remember the guy on the picture?"

Kuroro's eyes widen then he gasped and blinked in confusion. The blonde nodded then closed his eyes. Kuroro noticed that Kurapika's expression turned into solitude so, he cleared his throat then pulled him into his chest. "Kurapika, it's-"

The blonde suddenly felt the urge to cry so, the tears he's been holding back found its way to flow into his angelic face. He felt that his chest has been punched hard and everything around him revolves badly.

He cannot take this so, he decided to continue his words then wrapped his arms around the other's body back. "He is the first person that made me feel love and the first who gave me so much pain…"

Kuroro pulled out a bit to take a look at Kurapika but, he can only see the other's blonde hair and can feel his trembles. He can feel what the other feels now; hurt. So, he moved further that made Kurapika's hands removed off him then wiped his tears. "Ow, I get it already… So, Leorio is your… ex?" he said as he strokes Kurapika's back gently.

Kurapika heaved a disheartened sigh then nodded his head slowly. He feels confused now and shocked to see Kuroro's expression is as calm as he always is and there are no signs of anything that can make him scared.

But there is also another thing that bothers him a lot. After a year and what happened between them, Leorio can still have the guts to give him that glad look and send him a smile. It has been a year yet, the smile that I saw within his face seems to bring back everything that I almost forget…

Kuroro sighed deeply too then gave Kurapika a comforting smile that made the other feel more guilty for thinking those things again over him.

I still need to let go of one thing… I want him to know that… "Kuroro…" he started coldly that made Kuroro's expression change; wondering why the other still looks lonely so, "If you are worrying if I am angry… no… Kurapika-"

"You are the reason…"

"Huh?" The reason of what?

"You are the reason why that happened to us… You are the reason why… why we… broke up back then…"

Kuroro suddenly stood up then he blinked in confusion. Kurapika's hands were closed but still, he looks on the plain white sheets of the bed just to avoid Kuroro's sight. "Excuse me?" the other asked a little bit indignantly.

Because of hearing that, Kurapika shook his head then he felt like he wants to kill himself for saying it so blunt. He seems like a heartless person because all those lonely times, Kuroro is the one who is beside him. The one he relies on whenever he feels like dying with his tremendous problems. So, he felt really sorry for his reckless words.

"Kuroro! I didn't mean to say that! I'm sorry…"

Kurapika said as he holds the other's hands and looks at him with tears flowing again in his widely opened eyes. Kuroro looks angry now; he even cannot stare at Kurapika and shadows seem to cover his face because his head is lowered so much just to avoid the blonde.

His heart seems to explode so, "Why? What did I do?" he asked; playing calm but actually seething with anger. Kurapika shook his head again although he knows that Kuroro cannot see him. "I told you that it was because of jealousy! Sorry Kuroro! I didn't mean to blame you! Back then, he was so jealous at you that's why all those times, I think that you are the reason why it all happened but then… I realized I am wrong that's why I accepted you in my life! Kuroro, sorry!"

The other slowly took Kurapika's hand off him that made Kurapika cry even harder. "Kuroro listen to me!" but the other just shook his head then a sad smile formed on his lips. He was just playing cool but cannot manage it properly. His goal now is to hold back his tears that were caused with the thing he heard. I am the cause huh…

"No Kurapika… It's enough…"

Suddenly, he lifted his head then patted Kurapika's head as he sends him a smile that shocked Kurapika a lot. Kuroro? The blonde felt Kuroro's hand on his face then he heard him spoke up again.

Even he looks cool, his voice trembles badly and that bothered him. "Kuroro… sorry…" the other shushed him then ran his hands through the blonde's golden locks. "No… stop apologizing… you didn't do anything, it was the truth and I deserve this. Kurapika it's enough…"

"Now will you leave me too?"

With that innocent question, Kuroro's eyes widen but then, he slowly laid the blonde onto the bed and tucked him with his blankets. "Kurapika… just sleep… I'll just go outside. Just call me if you need me…"

After that, Kuroro started to walk out of the room leaving Kurapika shocked. "Kuroro… what have I've done…" he whimpered then wiped his tears.

Kuroro sat on the bench near the room of Kurapika then looked around. He entangled his fingers then bit his lips hardly. I am the reason? It means I am really the one who made him feel the pain… Sorry Kurapika… I'm just in love with you…

Suddenly, all his thoughts seem to fade when his eyes landed on Leorio who is now walking towards their room. Leorio stopped infront of him then smiled but that wasn't returned by Kuroro. He just stared at him blankly and inside of him was really seething.

"Just came by to check the patient…"

The other said although he can see something not good in the other's aura. "Just do what you need to do doctor…" Kuroro said plainly and coldly then walked away.

Leorio's eyebrows furrowed but then headed for the door and found Kurapika there; motionlessly sitting.

The blonde looked at him but then removed his stare at him then spoke coldly. He feels that his body trembles badly because after a long time… He is with him again alone but now… as his ordinary patient. "What do you need…?"

"Don't worry, I will just check on you…"

"Don't worry… I will die soon Leorio…"

With that statement, Leorio felt that he was taken aback then he took out the thermometer and checked the blonde's temperature. "Stop saying things like that…" he said with the tone of anxiousness and caring.

The window was tightly shut but still, Kurapika can feel the wind entering the room. He lowered his head then, "You don't care Leorio…" he said as he pries Leorio's hand when he tried to hold the other's shoulders.

"Kurapika?"

"Don't act as if you care! You didn't care about me when we broke up! When you broke my heart and when you left for abroad! You didn't think that I will be hurt! And now… You came back into my memories!"

"Cut it out Kurapika! Yes… I'm shallow back then and I am really resentful about being like that! You know… Until now I am suffering from that. If I can turn back time, I wouldn't do all of those…"

"If I could turn back time… I shouldn't have loved you!"

Kurapika yelled as he pushed Leorio away from him. Leorio feel like fainting because of those words that pierced and almost made a hole in his heart. He didn't expect that from Kurapika.

*Thermometer rang*

They were snapped into reality when the sound came out. Leorio took it and then spoke up. "thirty five point seven… You are alright now…" he said then place the thermometer in his pocket.

He took a final look at Kurapika and saw him so empty that's why; he decided to stop adding fuel to the fire and just turned his back at Kurapika and started walking towards the door.

"Hey… Leorio…"

Kurapika called out that made Leorio stop walking and turn to him a little bit. "Yes?" he asked plainly. Kurapika cleared his throat then entwined his fingers. "I'm sorry… I should be thankful that you became a part of me before… You taught me many things Leorio… thank you…"

A smile broke into Leorio's lips albeit he feels the hurt with what the other tells him but still, he left a remark before going out and leaving him again. "Yeah… Kuroro's lucky to have you and so do I before… Bye Kurapika…"

He said then finally went out of the room. Kurapika huddled then smiled a little bit too.

Kuroro met Leorio again outside and just passed on him but the other called him so, ofcourse Kuroro went to him. "Why?" he asked. Leorio placed his records at the table then stared at Kuroro. "Kurapika's fever broke down… You can take him home." He said calmly that made Kuroro smile. "Thanks…" he said then walked away but Leorio called him one more time.

When he was infront of him, Leorio spoke up and changed their topic. "You are lucky to have Kurapika… I know you already knew who I am so… I'll just tell you to take care of him… He loves you so much and I know it… Alright, I'll leave…" After that Leorio walked away then faded among the crowd.

Kuroro pondered what is the meaning of his words. I'm lucky to have Kurapika and take care of him? He loves me so much? Is that really true Kurapika…?

He stopped thinking then headed towards the blonde's room and there he met his eyes again. AWKWARD is the best thing that can describe their feeling but, Kuroro fought with it and embraced Kurapika. "Leorio told me that you are now alright."

Kurapika pulled out then stared at Kuroro's eyes. He feels that the other suddenly changed after a few minutes of thinking outside and that made him feel comfortable. "Kuroro I'm sorry for what I've said earlier…"

"Kurapika… I won't leave you…"

Won't leave me? "Huh?"

Kuroro lifted his chin then neared his face on the others angelic features. The rays of the sun beamed and that reached the both of them. Kuroro hugged him first tightly before saying the continuation of his other words.

Kurapika gasped but then smiled with that warm embrace that he received. "You accepted me into your life although I am the cause why you first cried for love… You loved me dearly although you used to play your cold façade on me… I know and I can sense that you love me… Maybe… it's my time to return it to you more. I won't leave you no matter what happen Kurapika…"

Kurapika smiled a bit then rubbed the back of Kuroro gently. He shushed him then slowly pulled out and there, he met the other's watery eyes. "Hey… you have done everything to me Kuroro… Don't cry!" he said as the other's tears dropped on him.

Kurapika patted Kuroro's head then continued. "You did everything! Even I am hurting and pushing you away… you are still there for me and I am thankful with that. Because of you and your stubbornness, I moved on quickly and learned to love you… Words cannot express how much I love you back Kuroro…"

He said as he smiles back then wiped the other's tears. Kuroro rolled his eyes then just pulled the other into a kiss that lasted for a few seconds. Kurapika smiled when they pulled out but that was erased with Kuroro's narcissistic attitude again that was shown. "You didn't add how much handsome I am…"

Kurapika chuckled then hit Kuroro's shoulder a little bit. "I'm more handsome than you!" he teased that made Kuroro just pull him into a hug. "Kurapika… maybe I hurt you before but I will make sure that you will not feel that from me anymore… I love you…"

"Nah… cut the drama Kuroro… I love you too…"

He said then just laid his back on the bed. He felt that he wanted to sleep so; he closed his eyes and dozed off his dreamland. The hurt in him faded away with the happiness that this so called LOVE thingy gave him.

Both of them learned something with loving each other and those are to give and take and accept everything. Now… they can assure that nothing can break them.

Kuroro caressed the blonde's face then smiled sincerely. "Thank you Kurapika…" he said then gave him a kiss on the forehead. "I love you more…"

-Owari-

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