Way of Living

CloudxReno; occasional other pairings.

xXx

"It's over, yo."

Cloud simply stared at me, letting his already large baby blue eyes widen with shock. "What?" He asked.

I can't bite my tongue forever

While you try to play it cool

You can hide behind your stories

But don't take me for a fool

"Don't play stupid nor take me as one. It's over Cloud." I said, looking above my supposed lover's shoulder, unable to look into those guilty eyes. He knew that I knew but he wasn't giving up.

"What do you mean?" He exclaimed, getting up and swallowing hard: a sign of fear; guilt. "Why, what did I do?"

You look so innocent

But the guilt in your voice gives you away

Yeah you know what I mean

I stuffed my hand into my pocket and took out a small paper folded carefully by someone that wasn't me. "I found this, on the floor of our bedroom." I said, unfolding it without taking my eyes away from Cloud's. His pupils had enlarged in fear of having his cover blown up. "It says 'I couldn't talk with you a while ago, Cid was glued to my leg. Will you meet me on my apartment in an hour? Much love from your Valentine. '" I read carefully, fighting to keep my voice steady.

I wanted to scream, to hit him, to ask what I had done wrong to deserve this.

Your love is just a lie

(Lie)

It's nothing but a lie

(Lie)

You're nothing but a lie

"I never knew Vincent was such a good poet, did you yo?" I let out a broken chuckle, squeezing the paper tightly in my hand before sending it flying towards the floor.

Cloud watched the paper hit the ground. "I can explain..." He started softly.

"How was the sensation?" I cut his words, backing away a few steps. "The feeling of excitement due to the risk of getting caught in the moment, of kissing him while I was at home, waiting for you to come back from one of your surprisingly long deliveries, huh?" I laughed, almost falling into despair. "Did it felt good to fuck him while I was all alone, thinking that you were working too much and that someday those long deliveries could end up in disaster?!"

I fall asleep by the telephone

Its 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone

Tell me where have you been?

--

How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you?

And do you think about me when he fucks you?

Could you be more obscene?

"Reno, try to calm down..." Cloud asked almost sadly, taking a few steps forward and reaching to sooth me.

My reaction was to step forward too but only to press a fist against his left cheek, listening to the satisfying crack as they collided. "I don't wanna hear." I hissed.

"I can explain!" He exclaimed, running out of patience and getting up gingerly, spitting a broken tooth together with a mouthful of blood. "Just try to listen to me!" The blond asked.

"Listen to you, yo?! What the hell will ya explain?! What lie will you tell me?! That you were drunk?! That it was a stupid accident?!" I yelled, finally losing my posture. "Vincent wouldn't get involved with some random person and he talks about LOVE in that fucking little note! You were double-dating in my back: how can there be an excuse for that?!"

So don't try to say you're sorry

Or try to make it right

Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

This time Cloud stayed silent for a moment. "I just wanted to feel." He whispered.

"What did you want to feel? My heart crushing between your fingers, is that it?! I put so much into this relationship, damn it! I went against my boss; I got suspended cos of our relationship, I lost count of how many times I almost got killed for those stupid Jenovaism-followers because of you!!! And for what?!" I shrieked.

"I was going to stop it..." Cloud defended, seeing his only serious relationship escape between his fingers like water.

"Oh really...? And when?! No, don't tell me, yo! I bet that you would leave when you had grown tired of fucking Valentine!"

You can tell me that there's nobody else

(But I feel it)

You can tell me that you're home by yourself

(But I see it)

You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want

But I know, I know,

Your love is just a lie

I breathed heavily, keeping my eyes on the floor as I fought to keep my emotions in check: I was a Turk; I was a master in disguising my emotions! "I want you to pick up your stuff and get the hell away from here, from me. Now, yo." I said weakly, nodding towards the corridor leading to the bedrooms.

"Please, it was just a stupid mistake, don't--!"

"I said LEAVE." I roared and the EMR chained to my wrist let out a few lightning sparkles.

I saw the blond fall silent and obediently turn towards the room, disappearing from view after a few careful steps. It was hurting so much having to kick him out but I just won't forgive him, I just can't...

I gave up so much; lost so much. I almost got unemployed, AVALANCHE hates me for corrupting their leader and my parents won't talk to me ever since I told them I had the saviour of the world as a lover...

And what does Cloud? He goes and gets into Vincent's pants. Or get Vincent into his pants, I really don't wanna know...

It hurts so badly...

"Just one more chance..." The whispered plead reached my ears with such fake grief that I almost burst into tears. He was so false: his smile, the stupid loving words whispered on my ear... "I, I was confused..."

"And everything is clear now, from a fucking moment to another?" I growled, looking up with teary eyes. "Leave, now. I can't keep looking at yer face, just disappear from my sight and never appear in front of me again. Just run to your little bitch and be happy, yo." I hissed, opening the door with an angry movement.

"Reno..." Cloud sighed tiredly but he wasn't able to finish his sentence since his cell phone started ringing on my pocket.

"Oh yeah, I was forgetting about this." I rolled my eyes. I had really forgotten the other proof that kept telling me that the blond wasn't sorry at all, but just playing with my emotions over and over again.

So much for the poor blond guy who had gone through hell and that was so, oh so innocent.

"Nice photos you have there." I growled, not even caring when my voice cracked. "Vince sure is hot when curled against your side." I threw the phone at Cloud, not wanting to see the proof of his unfaithfulness on its background. "Get out, yo."

Cloud sighed and rolled his eyes. "Fine." He said, stuffing the mobile into his pocket and grabbing a handful of my red hair before crashing his lips against mine.

I wanted to struggle but I couldn't find the strength to do so: his lips were so warm, so soft but at the same time so cold, so disgusting.

When he finally decided to broke the kiss, tears were already making their way down my flushed cheeks. "You're going to miss me when I'm gone." He said so coldly on my ear that I felt like something inside me had broken. "But when you do, it'll be too late." Cloud growled, releasing me with a push. "You were a good fuck Reno; nothing more." And he left.

And with him, a big part of my heart died too.

Your love is just a lie

xXx

Theme: Cheating

Word count: 1380

Lyrics by Simple PlanYour Love Is A Lie. And yes, I love the album, you-know-who. XD And I'm struggling to raise my grades at the same time I struggle to write these drabbles and the chapters of all of my other fanfics. Please be patient XD

Yeah, shitty ending. Sorry fer that.

By the way, I'll stop typing to who the drabbles are dedicated cos I would have to go look for the person's name on the reviews and that takes me, like, YEARS to do so. Sorry but know that they ARE for you! 8D

Here are the themes already done and waiting to be done (I'll be removing the ones already done!):

Valentine's Day / waterfall / treasure hunt - still waiting to be written (SWW)

Beach / Hula - WIP

Snowboard - SWW

Cinema - SWW

Dentist - SWW

Cherry blossoms - SWW

Fight / Break Up - SWW

Reno fight over Cloud -SWW

Long business trip and reunion scene - SWW

Aerith's Birthday - SWW

Snowball fights / snow angels - SWW

A date in space - SWW

Caffeine/Sugar - SWW

Kiss - SWW

Porn Collection - SWW

Videogames - SWW

Disneyland - SWW

Painting Lesson - SWW

Session with a Marriage Counsellor - SWW

Popular Reno / Smart Reno - SWW

Lotion - SWW

Yazoo flirting with Reno - SWW

Kidnapped - SWW

Claustrophobia - SWW

Interrogation - SWW

Picnic - SWW

Disguise (Reno disguised as a woman XD) - SWW

Hurt (alternative, sad ending to Disguise) - SWW

Concert - SWW

Rain and Boom (RudexTifa, Reno gets a brother named Axel XD) - SWW

Cloud mistakes Axel for Reno, whose dead - SWW

Vacation - SWW

Reno's twin scars - SWW

Pets - SWW

Song - SWW

Dinner - SWW

Teddy bear - SWW

Birthday - SWW

Stalker - SWW

Spin the Bottle – SWW

Seduction – SWW

Proposal – SWW

Cutter – SWW

Dead Pet – SWW

Role-playing on the Bedroom – SWW

Purple Nail polish – SWW

Gift – SWW

I'm Fine – SWW

New Year – SWW

Comparison – SWW

Glasses – SWW

Photo Album – SWW

Karma – SWW

Hugs – SWW

Cloud teaches Reno how to cook – SWW

Addition – SWW

Breakfast – SWW

Puzzles – SWW

Turkey – SWW

Cheerleader! Reno – SWW

Reno fooling Kadaj – SWW

Shattered Dreams – SWW

Horror movie – SWW

Reno without hair gel – SWW

Hidden Truth – SWW

Long anticipated answer – SWW

Shopping – SWW

Setting an Example – SWW

Left Alone – SWW

Boredom – SWW

Laser tag – SWW

When The Fangirls Attack – SWW

Pups – SWW

Nightmare – SWW

Cheating / Cheater! Cloud – done

Blood – SWW

Exorcism – SWW

Promised Land – SWW

Island – SWW

Can't stop the rain – SWW

Ramen – SWW

Zoo – SWW

Double MPreg – SWW

Purring! Reno – SWW

Senses – SWW

Pillow Fights/Feathers – SWW

Shadows of the Past – SWW

Cloud stalking Reno – SWW

Surfing Cloud – SWW

Electric kiss – SWW

Drunken Singing – SWW

Sister – SWW

Gondola – SWW

Baby issues – SWW

Acceptance – SWW

Slowly Dying Inside – SWW

Darker side – SWW

Silence – SWW

Death – SWW

Dying – SWW

Drowning – SWW

Rage – SWW

Dreams – SWW

Love – SWW

Their Phobias – SWW

Drunk! Reno – SWW

Night on Town – SWW

Pirates – SWW

Schizophrenia – SWW

Morning – SWW

Santa! Cloud – SWW

Kiddies Reno and Cloud – SWW

Apples and Oranges – SWW

Telephone conversations / text messages – SWW

Family portrait – SWW

Paranoia – SWW

Mother/father days – SWW

Puzzles – SWW

Obsessive! Cloud – SWW

Housewife! Reno – SWW

If you're thinking about any other theme, please ask for it on a review, signed or not :D I'm aiming to the 200 drabbles! (And if I forgot about any theme you already requested, please point it out Dx)